Habibillah Hawaari
Abrogating

Billa did not really sleep, she just collapsed and played her phone to drive away her satiety while waiting for the Adhan isya. The sound of the door opening made him immediately turn his head and move to a sitting position.

"Umma, what's the matter.. ?"

"Why moody son, you are not usually in the room after going home" said umma as if he understood something was hidden from his daughter. Billa smiled and clasped the hand of her mother who was sitting right in front of her.

"There's nothing umma, just a little tired of rarely driving far."

"Your brother told you who the candidate was for you, son ?"

"It's umma, just a glance" he said awkwardly.

"What do you think ,? Does it fit with our family ?" a statement that made Billa's forehead shrivel trying to stare fixedly at his mother looking for something in it.

"Have you seen her before. ?" Umma sighed softly and looked the other way.

"Not yet, but feeling umma says doubt for the woman" he said without looking at his daughter who did not believe what he heard.

"Did Umma know something ?"

"Hem, Umma told a close friend umma when he accidentally met her at the minimarket at that time, he said that the woman named Dita was his son's ex-lover. It's not good to eat, drink or say." Billa was surprised by her mother's statement, Billa sighed softly and tightened her grip on her mother.

"It's better umma tell me honestly to Brother, maybe you don't know him. Actually Billa wanted to know, where did Abang know Dita" Umma was surprised by the call pinned by his daughter to his future sister-in-law.

"What's wrong with you, son, do you also know something that you don't know ?" he looked closely at his daughter who was also looking at him and nodded surely.

"He's a friend of my Junior High School in the umma boarding school, he's also a new student at the cottage. We're in a dorm room first. His habits have never changed before. His words were dirty and always sneered at us first. Many do not like it because of his arbitrary attitude" Billa is not strong considering the time when being a new santri first, but, he who initially did not know Dita was really made not at home with the temperament of his roommate. But shortly after that there was a screening of santri and made Billa no longer room with him. But there is still a class with Dita. Mother was surprised by what her daughter said until she shut her mouth and stared fixedly at her daughter who would not possibly lie with her words.

"Well, I'll ask your brother to investigate the woman before you go far, maybe your brother doesn't know anything about the candidate." Billa nodded in response. But had not had time to speak his lips again closed because a very familiar voice came out from behind the wall near the door of Billa's room.

"No need umma, today I will also cancel my intention to propose to him." Reza said firmly. His hands clenched with hunting breath.

"Control your emotions, son, speak well to him, neither do you yell at him or expose his disgrace in front of him. Say the reason that makes him understand why you are making the decision now" said the wise mother by gently patting her son's shoulder. Reza nodded and hugged her mother tightly, she said,

"Why umma didn't tell me directly, is this why you didn't listen to Brother last night deck ?" he looked at his sister who was also staring at him. Billa nodded surely and smiled after her.

"Abang only knew him through his close friend Brother, Abang only saw it from the photo. it turns out the beautiful face of his character is lacking." Regret Reza looked down.

"Are you never communicating with him ?" Reza shook his head slowly and said,

"Abang performed the ta'aruf procedure through a friend who knew her. Unfortunately maybe Brother's friend was not honest about the woman's behavior with Brother."

"I think maybe he covered because Dita could have changed" said Billa who immediately made the two people in front of him look at each other right.

"Whatever it is, it's impossible for you to continue. He must have hurt you first. Brother can't possibly carry her in front of you who definitely won't take it easy" Billa nodded and smiled warmly at her brother's words.

"Tell your friend wisely." Reza nodded and said goodbye to meet his friend.

*

The night is getting late, right at three o'clock in the morning the alarm that has been set by Billa echoed in the room that is not narrow and not too big. Billa woke up and turned it off, after fully realizing the girl stepped into the bathroom to wash her face and take the water. This routine has been applied Billa since she was in the boarding school. After taking ablution Billa held his alphabet and wear mukena neatly. Four rakaat tahajud and three rakaat as the cover witir he completed with wisdom. It has become his habit when finished praying will melantukan Allah's verses to calm the heart that always feels thirsty and wants to be soothed. Until before dawn his eyes had not found his sleepiness, the girl stood up to pick up a mobile phone located on a table near his bed. There are two unread messages due to falling asleep last night. His hand opened the message sent by Syafik, who happened to turn out his status in wa was already online.

"I'm sorry, overslept last night" he replied.

"It's okay, have you prayed ?"

"Why are you online early in the morning ?" Syafik did not reply to Billa's message, even though his status was still online. Billa doesn't think. He suspected that Syafik might be exchanging news with other friends. Long enough Billa back and forth the application, it turns out the message was only read without reply by the young man who had occupied his heart. When looking at his wa status it turns out Syafik still remains online. The girl sighed slowly, trying to neutralize her mind and heart which turned out to be hard not to think negatively.

"It shouldn't be like this" he said unconsciously.

Billa was well aware that her relationship with shafik was very unclear. The girl thought maybe one day either herself or she would turn away from a promise that could change at any time. The dawn prayer was mellow, making him immediately rise from the chair and step towards the prayer mat. But when he stepped up a notice his cellphone sounded.

.

Ding.

"I'm texting my old friend" the message read. Billa did not intend to open the message, even he deliberately ignored the message, his hand clicked the text delete the message on his mobile screen.

"From now on there is no need to expect a reply or anything from humans, leave everything to God" he said.