I Find You In My Bow
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it is not easy to heal the pain that once was a pain that could not be spoken by the word, disappointed?.perhaps it used to be that this heart was disappointed with what he was doing if not for his attitude perhaps the wound was still there, slowly the pain and disappointment was gone because of his speech and actions.

"ko daydreaming neng, bosen huh?"

"iya bi, I want to go out but can't be the same mas Han, aunt knows for myself right as long as I'm pregnant she's so possessive"

"that's the sign of my dear father"

I only smile when others know that he loves me so much.

"emm bi, I dreamt last night in this house is very crowded but me and Han mas look sad, that's why ya bi"

when I told her about my dream I saw my aunt's face change and started to panic

"the dream is a sleeping flower, so do not be carried away dreams inshaallah nothing will happen "

"ammyin"

true aunt said, the dream was just a sleeping flower Maybe last night I was very tired so strange dream.

tock.tok..

"who's coming at this hour?"

"don't know neng, maybe his friend's father"

"yes, open the door bi"

"neng well"

I was so shocked and so scared when auntie came in with someone I didn't know they were two people my legs were as if I couldn't move I couldn't do anything when I saw the guy aunty's been at the stake with a sharp weapon.

I saw aunty so scared that I saw her pale face..

"wake up"one of them began to approach and rule over me.

"who are you, and what do you want?"

suddenly, my hand was forced to pull until I fell on the sofa.

the aunt who saw me being treated harshly by these strangers, yelled and pleaded.

"stop..do not .I beg you not to hurt my employer she is pregnant"

"like her this old Nene is gonna interrupt our work, tie her up and shut her up"

"good boss"

"mas Han please help me and our son mas" my inner

"what do you want"

"we're just doing our job to avenge the man your husband hurt."

"ma..you mean?"

"if you want the life of the child in your stomach to be safe then follow what we want"

one of them began to be disrespectful with his actions without any word my hand immediately landed on his face.

"plaque

"unfair, so you want me to act rudely well, just like a pregnant person looks more voluptuous"

"don't go near, go away"

I ran where I could run but the two criminals kept chasing me until I fell and got caught by them my stomach hurt so much from the impact.

"please let me go"

I was forced and dragged to the guest room and one of them was ready to install a camera, what they were doing.

"tie his legs and hands so that there is no resistance"

"o Allah give your servant the strength of the servant please"

as hard as I can try to fight with the rest of my strength..

"bruck"

"fucking woman basics.."

a hard blow hit my stomach and knocked me unconscious

"where am I, han mas?"

"name..mama.mama.mama.."

"what son is a mother's son"

I hugged so tightly a beautiful daughter and hugged me so tightly and warmly.

"we go home son, papa would want to see you and hug his son too"

"no ma, I have to go, you have to be strong and you have to be strong, papa,"

"where are you going, son?"

"i have to go ma,"

"mama come with ya"

"no mama should go back and get meenin papa"

slowly she let go of her embrace and she looked at me with a smile so sweet, she ran away and kept running until her shadow became more and more invisible..

I couldn't help it even though it hurt so much

the roar of my breath could not be shed just the tightness in my chest when I saw him go away and away from my sight

pain.sick but can not be treated, sick but invisible.although blood dripping pain it can not be felt

why is this sick, I can't run when he's away unable to hold back when he starts to disappear just silently staring silently

just tears and tightness in the soul, what pain is this.

it's very painful..

I don't understand any of this, it hurts more what I've been through.

Handi

my heart suddenly felt bad, I felt uneasiness on my way to the office,

"what is it, sir, why do I see you so unsettled?

"well, my heart suddenly remembered my wife at home"

kreKKkkk..

Rendi suddenly stopped her car suddenly

"what's ren?"

"i forgot my boss's paperwork for this morning's meeting was left in the boss's living room"

"you're how the hell ren, we're halfway through, what time are we meeting?"

"lunch at the boss"

I looked at my watch and it's still an hour away for meetings and new projects

"turn around ren, we'll take it home"

"good sir"

on the way I tried to call my wife many times I called her but there was no answer.

"ren why my wife can't be called, then,?"

"maybe you're in the bathroom, sir"

"well, hurry up and bring ren's car"

"good sir"

just one more turn I got home but it felt so slow, suddenly the house people contacted me.

"auntie?"

"what's wrong sir?"

"there's nothing ren, maybe I'm too worried about my wife"

"yes what's wrong bi"

"pa.to.long.help mother sir"

"what's the matter, why with mom?"

Tut's....Tut's...Tut's...

no more answers, phone connection interrupted.hatiku spirit not calm after news from home..

until I got out of the car I saw the gate of the house that was open and there was a car that I did not know..

the two security houses were bound unconscious when I opened the door in the living room there was an aunt who was unconscious with a wound so severe in the head.

"bi.bibi..conscious bi, where is Laras bi?"

without a aunt's voice just shows where my wife is

"ren call the police"

"good sir"

without a second thought I ran into the locked guest room without hesitation I broke the door open..how shocked I was when I saw my beloved wife was covered in blood and cruel Meraka still wanted to torture my wife in a state of unconsciousness.

"don't touch my wife asshole"

one blow was enough to knock out one of them, though,

"what do you want my wife?"

I saw that my wife was half-open and the man beside her was ready to fight my helpless wife..

without thinking long I immediately beat the two heartless depraved people if the police did not come on time then they died in my hands.it took a long time to paralyze the two until I did not realize a scratch so Rendi came and helped me to paralyze both of them.

"honey.this is mas, realize it's dear "

"mas Han..I'm afraid.mas "

"ren quickly help me, take me to the hospital."

I saw fresh blood coming out from down there.I saw his face was so pale he was so cold.

"his wounds are so severe that my heart is broken, whoever has dared to touch him I will not let him be free from this world they have made me lose my future" said Handi.