I Love You My Step Mother
After I Know Your Feelings

Andrian POV

I don't get it. For two days, Ms. Alfira was very quiet, she rarely said hello, and also avoided me.

What's wrong with her? Does he have a problem? Did I make a mistake? I was just confused and felt pain ignored by him.

This morning, I saw him struggling to prepare breakfast. I can't stand that attitude. Approaching him then saying hello, "Mom?"

Ms. Alfira did not turn to me, she remained focused on slicing onions with an expressionless face. Did he not hear?

"Mom!"

"Aww sick!"

I saw blood on his finger as a result of a sharp knife stroke. As fast as lightning I ran towards the living room to pick up the P3K box, then returned to the kitchen.

"Here Andrian treat."

I grabbed the palm of Ms. Alfira's hand and placed the handsaplas on her ring finger. Glancing at him, he was looking at me. Just a few seconds he looked at me, after which he threw his gaze away from me.

"It's done, next time be careful Mom if slicing onions." Honestly, I don't want him to get hurt. "Want Andrian help?" ask me with a smile.

Ms. Alfira kept silent, she resumed her slicing activity. I was confused by his changed attitude. Can't stand being dumped, I left it with care.

***

"Sister, why did it get caught earlier?" Siska's voice broke my daydream. I was with him sitting alone in the back garden of the school, but my mind was filled with one person, who else if not Ms. Alfira.

I looked to the right side, looking at him. "What?" tanyaku.

"Siska was talking about it?" Siska snorted in annoyance by draping both arms across the chest.

"What are you talking about?" I didn't listen to what he was talking about at all. My mind wanders to just one person.

"Udah ah bete! Siska's going back to class!" He threw away face. Pouty mimic plastered on his face, I chuckled amusedly as well as feeling guilty.

Sniffing the tops of her head gently, I said, "Don't pout dear dong."

The girl's expression instantly changed, turning to me quickly and a smile rose on her face. "What did you just call?"

"Dear."

Siska pinched both of my cheeks. "That's dong, Ka. Siska has been waiting for the call from Brother when we made it, but only now said." Her sweet smile expands.

"I'm sorry." I pinched her soft cheek back.

I jumped because suddenly one brief kiss landed on my lips.

"Ih Siska! What if someone sees it?!" I said while watching around.

He even grinned. "Hehe .. yesterday wasn't enough."

Momentary silence. We still looked at each other with smiles etched into the faces. A moment later Siska leaned her head on my shoulder.

"I love you, Ka."

"Love you too."

I'm sorry Siska, that conversation is only on the lips, but my heart can't love you yet. I wish I could love you, but my feelings for her remain the same. Even though I tried several times to erase this feeling, it still continued to perch in there.

***

Alfira POV

The breeze of the night wind from the open window so pierced the pores of my skin. The moonlight broke through the sidelines of the vents, giving a little light to illuminate the darkness of this room.

I stood quietly by the window looking out. My mind was confused and indecisive after knowing that I was between two different loves. Mas Reza who keeps expressing his taste, and Andrian who harbors love.

Andrian, that's how long you loved me?Why is there no courage for you to declare your race? Had you expressed your feelings, I would not have accepted your papa's proposal, and married her without love.

Now I just realized. Long ago, after I became her stepmother, her attitude was suddenly cold. Ignore me, and avoid. Maybe because he was in pain or hated looking at me.

He must be jealous when Mas Reza kisses me in the morning and at night excites me. I'm sure, back in the kitchen that time, when we kissed that's why he got angry and ended up slamming the door hard. He must be sick of it, right?

When I was alone and her father left, she was always present. When I need him there is always. I didn't realize that his attention and care was a sign of love, and unfortunately with his attitude I started to like. Why should this liking exist, when everything is so complicated?

After I found out he held a taste for me for so long, I wanted to turn back the clock. If he had declared love, maybe things wouldn't have been this complicated.

I could feel as I stared at the two eyeballs earlier, looking a deep sadness. I hate it when I find out that one heart is broken! I also hate it when I start ...

Admire and love it!

I wouldn't hate this liking, if she wasn't my stepdaughter!

***

Andrian POV

"Andrian how's your school?" ask papa while sipping coffee. Last night, papa came home from Surabaya, after a few days taking care of his client.

"Good, Pa."

"You're rich no longer have appetite. Why?" Maybe papa was surprised to see me who was not eager to spend breakfast. I did lose my appetite, it was because Ms. Alfria ignored me.

Papa looked over at Ms. Alfredia. "Mama also why the hell, from earlier diem mulu?" papa frowned.

"Why not."

I was so surprised, since Bu Alfria just kept looking down at a plate of fried rice that was only played by a spoon but not devoured.  Lately it's been a little strange.

"Oh yeah, Papa wants a story. Pas in Surabaya tuh, Papa met two friends Papa while in college. Her name is Roni Yuli. You know what they are now?" Papa hangs his words.

I just listen while eating the food in front. However, Bu Alfira's gaze still did not change, looking down, paying attention to the fried rice.

"So a couple of husband and wife" continued papa.

"What's wrong, Pa?" manya curious.

Papa looked at me with a big smile. "Papa thought there was nothing between them. You see, their behavior is both mediocre like friends. Si Roni too, never told me that she likes Yuli. Si Yuli also never told me that she likes Roni." Papa sipped coffee again.

"Now they are husband and wife. Papa was surprised, even though they had been married before, but divorced he said he was not suitable to continue not love each other's partners. Apparently, Roni and Yuli had been harboring feelings of mutual love. Ih Papa wonder, why did they not reveal each other just in college?"

"The rich don't know love in secret."

Suddenly Ms. Alfira made a sound, she said that at a glance while glancing at me.