I Love You My Step Mother
Growing the Forbidden Seed of Love

"Shit bad! just a little UAS where I rarely study anymore." Ferdy grumbled uncharacteristically while kicking his own eyes.

"Sama, I also have no preparation," said Doni next to me.

The three of us were walking down the school corridor. Not just the feet moving, but the mouth as well. The topic of chatter is also diverse, sometimes talking about girlfriends, hobbies, and another one is gimahan material also does not escape discussion. Do not you think, only girls who like to have teeth, men are the same.

"Si Andrian mah delicious, can ask for help with his stepmother, how are we?" ferdy exclaimed suddenly, making me look at him in wonder. However, I rarely ask Ms. Alfira for help to help me study at home. Although sometimes Ms. Alfira offers herself but I feel awkward.

"Tenang .. stay nyontek aja to Andrian. He's a pinter," said Doni with a grinning smile, he also nudged my arm.

Twisting eyeballs, lazy to respond to their babbling. Already know the exam for the class, but they're even leha-leha. The ends rely on me, making a puff. Bodo! I won't give you the answer, just let them do it themselves!

"Eh Dri, how are you doing with Ms. Alfria? She wasn't good as long as you were your stepmom?" ask Doni.

"Yes, fine." I answered that whole.

"His son, Andrian's father, can be young. Oops," chirped Ferdy who inexplicably automatically makes me so upset and hot, Doni giggled instead.

"Eh tuh Fer, who was speaking was in front of the eyes," exclaimed Doni while pointing at the front with his chin, I spontaneously turned my head. It turned out that it was Ms. Alfira, she walked towards us.

The closer he walked towards me, but I was confused, whether to say hello or not.

Ma'am looked at me for a moment. After that, without a word he suddenly dipped down and squatted down in front of my feet. Turns out he fixed my loose right shoelace. After the rope was interlocked, he passed away and made me immediately confused. Doni and Ferdy are gawking.

"Widih .. attention also yes stepmom lo," said Ferdy the nyebelin.

"Feel rich mommy ya." Doni shook his head in amazement at Bu Al's treatment of me.

"Don't stepmom, my kandug mother just not attention like that, until really shoelaces everything, unless I'm a kid. If it's a big mah that there I often diomelin ma nyokap me who bring it," said Ferdy while manyun sebal.

I was still shaking without a word. Lazy to snatch their words. However, behind it my heart blossomed, there was a sense of happiness getting the attention of Bu Al just now, even if it was a small thing.

***

Alfira POV

"Yuk, go to Al." While opening the door wide, Widi let me into her apartment. Walking quickly towards the sofa I just threw this body over it. Weary.

"I'll have a drink, Al, for a while" Widi said, rushing to the kitchen.

It didn't take long, Widi returned with a second glass of orange juice. At the table has also provided some snacks, fruits and of course my favorite kiwi fruit perched there. Widi does know what my favorite is, every time I visit she is always ready to provide everything. You could say he was the best friend.

Long enough we talked about each other's busyness, until at the end of the day I somehow wanted to confide in my love for Widi. He is a person who can keep a secret, so I believe.

"Umm, Wid I want to ask, dong."

"What's? Ask me." Widi said flat with a fixed viewpoint focus on watching the TV screen.

I breathe out softly. "It would be wrong if a married woman fell in love with another man?" I was a little nervous asking that. For a moment I was silent waiting for Widi's response.

Hearing this spontaneously Widi immediately turned her head in wonder towards me. "Huh? Are you in love with another guy?" his tanyanya while wincing wonder.

"If so, what do you think?" I tried to calm down but my heart was still waiting for Widi's answer. For a moment he looked at me silently.

A second later a thin smile was imprinted on her beautiful face. "There is nothing wrong with falling in love. Falling in love is not our will. We also can not choose who we fall in love with, because according to me, LOVE is slovenly Al, he came, diem continued to dock not recognize the place." I'm stunned.

Widi turned her face back to watching television. There was an ******* plan out of his mouth. "Al, I know that you're married because of an arranged marriage. I also understand that for example you have not been able to open your heart to your husband. But, if you love another guy there is always an intention to cheat ... " Widi pauses speech. " ... Don't!"

How could I possibly cheat with my own stepson?! Just imagining it made me feel that it was immoral and shameful. However, why would there be another side in my soul that revolted about wanting to have it?

I saw Widi looking back at me. "I hope you don't come there Al" pleaded Widi with an inexorable look. There was a bitter smile he gave.

"But I can't deny my feelings, Wid. Every day the seeds of love were growing continuously, and somehow if I was around him he was comfortable, he was always there when I needed to be, make me happy and I'm rich according to him," I explained what it is from the heart.

"Yes, do you want to do that?!" sela Widi while looking at me sharply, at once I immediately felt introgapan by my own best friend.

Percululum my lips clumsy. “Nagging. I mean, I'm confused about how I feel. I want to tell you this taste but I can't."

The shoulder-length hair woman immediately took a glass of mineral water on the table, then gulped it down. I know what he's going to do, it's a sign that Widi will make a long speech.

"Good, never cheat! Because your status is married, it's a sin, Al! But, if you do not feel love with your husband and your relationship feels bland, there are two options."

"So, you know you don't want to be clingy, but your feelings for him have already grown and you can't control him. I love you the way yes Al, if indeed your feelings have been deep into the him, nyampe can not forget his shadow continues to have a deep level, I understand love is difficult to control, I understand, the more trying to forget can be more imagined. But, I think love was there in the beginning, and at the beginning it was still controllable."

He sighed, then continued, "How does a person who deliberately commits suicide by plunging himself into the fire, when it is already burning, there is no way he has the power to turn the fire cold, right? Well, because of the burning he can not control, then the initial step is DO NOT DABBLE INTO THE FLAME!" cerocos Widi was relentless, while I was clenched in mangosteen.

“Misal, Rich Stare, chat, visit, mutual reply status in sosmed, it can still be controlled you Al, and love can start from there. Therefore, if you feel the initial tremors of love to other men, even though you have a husband, then the activity that could have been avoided initially."

Widi again sipped a glass of water that stayed half. “If it is too late to avoid and love is already entrenched in the heart, then there is no other way but to fight for ‘swept’ it patiently, then, if not weaned then it can continue to the next stage that is getting closer to the affair.” He put a little rough empty glass so that it makes a knock.

“If you already love a man other than your husband, then try to wean him, fight, avoid the man without having to tell him the reason to avoid him, do not say 'I'm sorry I avoided you because I fell in love with you'. Just stay away from him Al Surely you can. Just don't let forbidden love break into your heart! Like that,” said Widi at length, raised his eyebrows while smiling thinly like my teasing, and maybe he was done with his speech.

For a moment I was pensive. It's true what Widi said, but how could it be? While Andrian was near me, everywhere with him. I tried to avoid Andrian, but it didn't work. I need it even more.

"What's less Mas Rezamu, Al? He is rich with money, good, warm, and love what you want. Open your heart to him, even if he is not your type because you are different ages. If I don't think the elders are 46 years old, but it's important that he loves you."

Sighing tired I bowed, then looked at her softly. "Don't ask Wid, I don't know either. No matter how good he is, I still don't change my heart." I'm being frank.

Widi let out a long sigh, then turned her gaze back to the TV screen watching the show that I thought was alay.

"Ok I understand, love can't be forced. But remember Al, while Mas Rezamu is good, attention, rarely hurt you and care about you, please do not hurt him, pity him anyway. Instead of you hurting him by cheating, mending you end it."

Ended it? Where can? Mas Reza has helped my family a lot. He repaired and gave capital to the father's business that was almost bankrupt. He is a friend of father, if you need Mas Reza is the first person to extend his hand. I was in a dilemma.

"Who is Al? What college is it?" Widi looked at me, looking at her face like she wanted to know.

I put my lips as calm as possible. Though the heart was hardened when I imagined Andrian. "Oh, hmm .. secret."

"That makes me curious, tell me dong."

"No," I said firmly with the stance.

Widi snorted scowl while advancing her lips five centi, making me chuckle.

***

"May I love you more than mother and daughter?" The words kept ringing in my head, keeping me awake in the middle of the night.

I still remember him, when he flattered and praised me. He loved everything about me, and he even wanted to thank God for creating me. Hearing her words yesterday that night and all the words that came out of her mouth, made me feel calm and flowery.

Say I'm crazy! I could have hugged her that long! There is a desire that drives me to do this, because being in his arms is like a house for me, a place for me to go home after a long day of fatigue. I miss you all day, when I see it. But I always wanted to be around him. Am I not sane?

Perhaps, crazy for the love towards him.

I put a blanket over my whole body. In my heart I screamed, "Oh my God, it looks like I'm going crazy! How could I possibly get into the pit of his love?!"

***

Andrian POV

I cringed in wonder, after realizing that when I opened the drawer of the nightstand, I found a small box containing my little note in it. I always keep it under the bed. Did Bi Narsih put it in the drawer?

I rushed downstairs to look for Bi Narsih. After combing around, it turned out that he was outside in the middle of sweeping the courtyard. I approached him.

"Bi?"

Bi Narsih looked at me. "What's wrong with Andrian?"

"When Auntie cleaned under my bed, did Auntie put a little box in the nightstand drawer?"

Bi Narsih frowned. "Not Aunt. Because Bibi still remember Nak Andrian's message first, he said the box should not be paused. So just like Auntie mah likes to be let off," Bi Narsih assured me, but she seems to be honest.

Did I not realize that I was keeping it myself? I always keep it under the bed.

"Maybe madam kali," Bi Narsih suddenly surprised me.

"Kan, Auntie never had two weeks of illness did not go to work, who would have sorted it out if not the mistress?"

I'm termangu. Is it true that Ms Alfria kept it? If it's true, did he have time to read my notes?