I Love You My Step Mother
Love That Scratch Wounds

Flashbacks

Siska POV

The cold weather this morning makes me lazy to take a shower. As a result, I just wash my face and brush my teeth. What's Andrian doing in the room? Is he awake?

Curious, then cheerfully I went to his room. After I entered, I found his empty bed untidy. There was a sound of water splashing from the bathroom. It must be who he is if not Brother Andrian.

While waiting for Brother Andrian to come out I went around looking at the whole room.although I used to be here before, but I want to know again what Brother Andrian has and likes.

I started at his desk. Open the drawer and see the contents. There's just a bunch of pens, erasers, pencils. I chose a pile of books on the shelf hoping there was a novel there, but nothing. Just a row of LKS books, science books, natural knowledge, social, business, and others, boring.

This self again curious and curious about the drawer of the nightstand, what is there? I opened the top drawer, there were only motor keys, car keys and cell phones. I tried to play Andrian's phone, but it couldn't be caused by using a password. Just piss off. I'm his girlfriend, why try to use all the ciphers?

Grunting annoyed, then I crouched open again the bottom drawer of the nightstand. In the end, I accidentally saw a box under the bed. My hands were itching to reach him and I was curious.

I managed to get the box. Blow a little dust that perch there. Open it and I find a small note. That note looks outdated is it probably a long time ago? opened it and read it, apparently a note two years ago.

'Hey, you're there. When I first saw you, I somehow felt a vibration when I saw you and when I was near you.

Why am I always silent when I look into your beautiful eyes? Why am I always fixated when I see your sweet smile? When I remember you, this thought is no longer mine.

To admire you in silence is my way, for it is not the word but the heart that speaks.

This feeling of love was so deep that I chose to harbour it.

Watching you silently, praying for you every day and loving you in secret.'

My forehead shriveled in confusion, for whom did Brother Andrian write this? There was a sense of tightness and jealousy perched suddenly in the chest.

'My feelings are still the same, not changed. The more I love you and admire you, the more I admire you.

Know it? I not only pray for you secretly, but also hope to see you sometime.

Anyone who is more respectful secretly loves you, secretly prays for you, secretly destroys your race. All are silent.'

When I feel in love, sometimes there is an urge that makes me want to express my love for you. However, it is hard to express it. There was a feeling of shame, doubt, uneasiness, happiness mixed into one. If it's not disclosed, I'm confused to have to speak what's clear, I love you so much ...

Alfira Eliana Nurdin ...'

The name of the woman contained in the beautiful writing, makes the tightness in the chest increasingly become. Like a rock that makes my heart hurt.

"W-what's this?" I stare in disbelief.

I was shaking reading it. A great curiosity, prompted me to reopen the next sheet. This post is new, about a month ago.

'If love is a smile, then I want to see your smile every morning when I open my eyes, and how happy I am, when it comes. Yes, seeing your smile every morning is a blessing, seeing you every day is a gift and seeing you every night is an inevitability.

I'm happy half-dead when I know you're harboring the same taste. Although our bodies belong to others, our hearts are united in an unseen bond ...

I love you Alfira, love in forbidden love!'

I was fixated to hold the pain and tightness in the chest. My heart was broken instantly, knowing the fact that all this time Brother Andrian still harbored a sense of Bu Alfira. Damn, my heart feels like it's scratched by a sharp object.

So, all this time he thought of me as what? I love Brother Andrian sincerely, but what's in return? Not even a single shred of hers gave her heart to me?

Suddenly I remembered Rara's conversation while on the toilet. Apparently all of that is true. They are secretly having an affair!

Frustrated, I put the notebook back in the box. Smiling bitterly imagining the two disgusting humans had been playing tricks on me all along.

If Brother Andrian does not love me then why does he accept my love? Am I just being made an escape? That's funny motherfucker! Raising your head trying to hold back the tears from coming out. Don't cry Siska, please.

"Through you, Brother ...."

***

"But Miss, you haven't eaten." A female servant hesitantly persuaded her master's son.

Upset, the girl threw her blanket rough. He got up from the bed and stood up to the two servants who were carrying the food tray.

Prangs!

He threw a tray of food containing a glass of milk and a plate of sushi of his liking onto the floor with emotion.

"Gue said get out!" He screamed out in a furious rage making the two maids shudder in horror. Beautiful but fierce.

"Yes well, Miss." Without cleaning up the food spill, the two maids were forced to come out on a hard push from Siska.

Brak! Door tightly closed. Siska crumpled back to the bed, shutting herself in the room.

***

A woman in an official span skirt and blazer who had just returned from overseas walked towards her daughter's room. Surprised to hear from the head of the house assistant that her youngest daughter was locked away in the room.

The reason is, it has been two days that the girl did not go to school, has not eaten anything, does not want to be disturbed and may not shower? I don't know, only God and himself know.

Slowly the woman opened the door, spreading her gaze around the room. Passing through broken flower vases, stepping over broken makeup and glass fixtures, scattered tissue, and dirty clothes that are lying on the floor.

The woman found her baby cowering under the blanket. He approached and sat down on the edge of the bed. Sayup-dyed sobbing sounded.

"Fransiska, sweetie?" Hearing the soft voice calling out to her, Siska opened the blanket that covered the entire body, but only the nose. He looked at his mother with sadness and Evelin looked at his daughter.  Seeing his daughter's puffy face, flushed nose, frowny hair and tears coming out incessantly made Evelin full of pity and pity.

"Darling, why did you become a gini?" Siska did not respond to the mother's question. He was still so excited by the tears that came out.

Evelin stroked his daughter's head affectionately to calm down. "Say to Mamih who made you rich in gini, hmm?" Siska was still busy with her cries.

"Honey already dong do not cry, Mamih so do not have the heart to see you rich gini. Now you eat yes, said Mr. Willy you have not eaten anything for two days, you do not torture yourself rich gini," said Evelin accompanied by worry.

However, Siska still did not respond to her mother's words. He doesn't want to talk.

Seeing that, Evelin could only sigh tiredly. He wondered, what happened to his daughter? Why is it like this? Who caused him to be concerned now? His mind wondered with an outburst of anger.

***

On the school rooftop Andrian was sitting bending his knees while daydreaming. He thought of Siska who had not been to school for three days. It was difficult, because Siska had already blocked the number.

Andrian felt guilty. Now he knew the cause of Siska could be wrath then. After Siska's departure from the house, he found a box lying under the floor beside the bed. Andrian was sure, surely Siska had opened and read it.

Andrian, on the other hand, was distraught, because Siska had known everything, that it turned out that Andrian loved his own stepmother. Andrian had thought, surely Siska felt disgusted at him. In fact, loving Alfira is also not self-will. Actually Andrian wants to throw away the feeling, but still can not, the love seems to be rooted in the heart and difficult to release.

***

"Not heard from him yet?"

"Yet, he's really angry."

Alfira turned his gaze to the window of the parked car, looking at the street with a crowded vehicle passing by. For a moment he breathed a long breath. His mind was struggling, thinking someone had learned of his forbidden relationship with Andrian. There was a sense of uneasiness, but he tried to be as calm as possible.

With Andrian. He was frustrated to imagine what would happen if one day Siska firmly spread the rumor throughout the school. Can stress Andrian for a long time.

"Are we rude, Andrian?" Alfira asked so slowly.

Andrian turned to the origin of the voice, putting on a flat look. "Just blame this taste. Why do we love each other?"

Alfira turned his gaze to stare at Andrian intensely. Next to his eyebrows was raised in wonder. "Why can't you move on from me?"

"No idea. Long time ago, since you've been papa's, I wanted to erase this taste, but it's hard."

"I'm also Andrian, I don't know why I can't love your papa, but I'm in love with you." The phrase from Alfira makes the corners of Andrian's lips lifted at once blushed.