I Love You My Step Mother
I Love You

Andrian POV

From day to day my relationship with Ms. Alfira grew closer. He was more attentive to me than ever before. He used to walk away from me without me knowing why, but somehow his attitude slowly changed.

Lately he has been treating me sweetly. Like putting my shoelaces together, getting my uniform ready every morning, delivering a glass of milk to my room and accompanying me to study every night.

I understand that maybe it was all her service to me as a stepmother. Accepting the fact that her status was my stepmother was a bitter and sad reality, but behind it I was happy when I was with her.

The sweetest moment I can't erase from memory is when he tried to calm me from the phobia of fear of heights. It was a beautiful sunset and the moment of sunset was the most memorable in my life. I want to feel like I turned back then, where these two legs felt light and floated as if there was no burden.

We're on our way home. Screaming of her sitting gracefully while watching the rain that drenched the car window beside me. I don't know why my net couldn't turn to look at his face, even if it was from the side, it seemed like I was indeed addicted.

"If driving the car must be focused, do not look at Mother, continue" said Ms. Alfira flat while turning her eyes to me. Her lips revealed the sweet smile that always made me melt.

My eyes were round for a moment, I was shocked not to play. I'm like a thief caught red-handed. My face suddenly got hot.

Immediately I turned this gaze focused forward. She faintly laughed. I occasionally glanced at him from the tail of the eye. At first glance, he also seemed to be watching me. Suddenly I was wrong.

"When Mom was in your arms in Dufan, you said ...." Ms. Alfira said, but she hung up the words, "if you love a woman but you can't have her. Who's she?"

I'm mute! Maybe I said that that woman was him!

"Why can't you have it?" My mouth is still clenched confused as to what to say.

I didn't answer his question long enough. Until I finally dared to answer, "K-because A-Andrian didn't dare to express Andrian's feelings to her." I stammered with my eyes still straight ahead. The next second I ventured to look briefly to the left side. Ms. Alfira seems to be watching me closely.

"That's because of your secret love." I was shocked. Why is his word so accurate? "If you say so, maybe he'll be yours" he continued.

Hearing that sentence left my mouth speechless. I frowned in wonder with all the words that were thrown from his mouth, he seemed to understand about my love story. I never told anyone my true story, but she encouraged me to tell everything.

There was no more conversation between us, so we fell silent until we arrived at the yard.

***

I'm still thinking about my conversation with him when we were in the car when we got back home this afternoon. I don't know what that means, but it bothers me enough.

Suddenly I remembered my little note that was in the box. I shuffled down under the table to pick up the thing. Sit down at the study table and open my notes and read back.

I wrote two years ago, when I started to fall for him. However, I cannot reveal. Quite difficult, shy, doubtful, restless and confused how to state it. I was a fool, if I had dared to come out, it might not have been like this.

"That's because of your secret love."

"If you had told me, maybe he'd be yours."

The words that Ms. Alfira said somehow came to my mind.

I'm aghast. Blinded eyes of disbelief. Waitaminute! Wouldn't Miss Alfira have read the contents of my note?

If it is, then now he knows it. Does Miss Alfira really know how I feel?

My hand suddenly shakes. I was stunned and confused. Thinking about whether Ms. Alfira really knew it or ... Pulling my hair, I'm frustrated. Between sure and not. However, my heart felt certain that he had read it.

Now I get it. When she got away and ignored me, I was sure it was because Ms. Alfira must have read the contents. Then, why did his attitude suddenly turn sweet towards me? Shouldn't he just stay away?

And when he says, "If you say maybe he'll be yours."

Does Miss Alfira like me too? But since when? How does he feel about Papa? The questions kept flashing in my brain.

I shake my head in frustration. "No way."

The door knob that opened reflex made me turn towards the sound. "Mom Alfira ...," I murmured in surprise.

Ms. Alfira brought a glass of milk. Walk up to me, then put the milk on the study table. I who sit can only be confused.

Ms. Alfira raised next to the eyebrows a sign of astonishment. "You why? Ko dumb-ass?"

I didn't respond. I still look into her eyes deeply and she looks at me too.

'I love you Al, ' my mind speaks, but my mouth is silent.

Our eyes are still looking at each other. At first glance I saw him turn his net towards the note that was in my grasp, then throw the direction of view in any direction.

Ms. Alfira jumped a little in shock at my unexpected treatment of her.

"A-andrian why, anyway?" Bu Alfira's tone of voice sounded trembling. I did not answer his question. Just five minutes. Let me hold you for five minutes.

Silent. Ms. Alfira still leaves you in this position. Wh why? Why did he not rebel to escape my arms? Did Madam Alfira enjoy it too?

I turned Ms. Alfira's body facing towards me, hugging her back tightly. My chest rumbles. My heart is beating fast. Ms. Alfira was still unmoved, not returning my arms or trying to break away.

Now I'm sure! Must be that Ms. Alfira knew of this forbidden feeling.

Four minutes I held her, I felt her movement trying to escape my arms. Come on, I still want to. I had to pull it off.

Ms. Alfira looked at me intensely, and her face turned red! Did he blush?

"Andrian, why the hell are you? Y-you're a little weird." Miss Alfira stuttered a little, is she nerveous?

Again I did not heed the question, the look in my eyes turned instead on the lips ranum who wanted to feel like I ...

"Andrian?"

Oh, my God, I can't stand it. There's a turmoil in this chest to do just that right away. I want to kiss her. Feeling the warmth of his lips. Forgive me God ... I can't hold back anymore.

With a quick movement I pulled the nape of Ms. Alfira. Approaching my body and her body, then ....

Cup

I kissed her lips! Ms. Alfira was surprised. Her eyes widened. Sorry for this, Al ...

I'm losing control! Tell me I'm an asshole! However, I am happy because I can feel the lips of the woman I have been adoring all this time.

THE PLAQUE!!

I was shocked. Miss Alfira pushed then slapped this cheek hard!

My chest is tight, my heart is broken. Like a glass falling and breaking into pieces that are broken.

I dared to look at him even though he was heavy. There was a flash of anger and disappointment in his eyes. But there is a puddle there. Trying to hold back tears that spill out.

The pain of his slap was not comparable to the feeling of my heart throbbing pain. The sound of that slap always seemed to be imprinted on my memory. I was silent not moving.

"A brash child ..," said Ms. Alfira lirih shattering the silence and the atmosphere that suddenly became awkward between us. That sentence .. made me shocked and sick. Like a dagger hitting the heart, torn apart, then crushed.

I'm down. Resigned, and could only say, "M-sorry." Well, maybe after this Miss Alfira will hate me.

I doubtfully looked back to the front. Apparently Ms. Alfira turned around to look at me. He began to step on his feet, preparing to leave.

I shook my head trying to wake myself up from this shock.

I can't stand all this. I can't hold this shit anymore. It's too late but I want to express this taste directly from my mouth.

"I LOVE YOU AL!!" I cried out loud, and I called her name without mother's frills. Ms. Alfira's steps were blocked. Sculpting in place.

"I'm sorry for my treatment. But just so you know .. if I love you. When I first saw you, I was in love. I love you because I love your smile, your heart, and your words, everything from you. I fell in love with you because through the clarity of your eyes I found peace. Don't ask me why I don't know if I'm going to fall for you in the end" I said.

I heaved a heavy sigh neutralizing the tightness in the chest. "I was sick and suffering when I saw you and papa both. Maybe it's too late, whatever you want to hate me, obviously, I'm .. Love you, Al." Sentence after sentence flowed smoothly from the mouth.

Ms. Alfira turned her body towards me. Tears were flowing down her cheeks. For a moment he closed his eyes. I heard heavy breathing and then looked down. Her hair covered her face.

Ms. Alfira again straightened her head back to look at me with a flat expression that I could not confirm. Slowly he moved his foot closer to me. Now, he's right in front of me. We looked at each other deeply.

"Tell me again the last sentence ..," he wrote.

"A-I love you Al," I replied trembling.

"I am also ...."

My eyes were wide in disbelief. What just now? Miss Alfira likes me too? Good Lord! I feel like I got some money!

My heart rumbled as Ms. Alfira suddenly hugged me tightly.