I Love You My Step Mother
Enlightenments

This month Rara incessantly approached Andrian, and over time they became closer. It felt enough for Rara PDKT, he ventured to shoot Andrian. About accepted or not is the last business, which clearly Rara could not bear to reveal her heart.

After school, Rara asks Andrian to come to the rooftop, Andrian complies. Before expressing her feelings, Rara tried to get stale or just chat first with her bluff.

In the middle of the conversation, Rara asked, "Sister, who else likes it?" Rara pretends not to know when she actually already knows who Andrian likes, but he just wants to make sure.

Andrian was silent for a moment by putting up his flat face. "Why is that, Ra?"

"No, I just want to know" Rara smiled back.

"Nothing, Ra," Andrian's mouth lied, but his heart answered Alfira, for it was impossible for him to be honest with others.

They went back to silence, for some reason Rara's tongue suddenly faded. The situation grew even more awkward to the point that Rara did not dare to look at Andrian.

"Keep you told me to come here, what business, Ra?" andrian asked, breaking the silence.

Rara regained eye contact with Andrian. "Huh? Oh. hmm Rara wants to reveal something," she said nervously.

"What?"

"I like it with Brother."

Silent. Andrian did not respond, he scattered his gaze in the other direction. Somehow after hearing Rara's confession, Andrian so remembered Siska who had also expressed love to him.

"Wouldn't want a jad--"

"Sorry Ra can't."

Jem!

Rara rejected! His mouth was immediately silenced, his legs felt limp. But fortunately Rara had prepared herself to accept all the possibilities that happened. He understood, because it was not easy to conquer an Andrian.

"Oh, hahahahaha, that's okay" he said with a crisp laugh, but his heart was filled with disappointment.

"I don't want to hurt people's feelings anymore, Ra." Andrian said with a regretful look.

Rara had thought, it seems that what Andrian meant was Siska. "Why, Ka? Didn't you just say no other woman liked you?"

Andrian was silent not answering.

"If you may know why you broke up with Siska?"

"We just don't feel right anymore, Ra."

Of course Andrian again lied, but his relationship with Siska because he did not love him.

For a long time they were silent in silence. Then Andrian also saw a watch in his hand that had shown the evening time signifying he had to go home soon.

"We go home to Ra, it's late in the afternoon" he asked.

Rara was silent because her brain was thinking. "So don't like Miss Alfira, do you?" asked Rara suddenly made Andrian surprised. How could Rara know that she had feelings for her stepmother. It seemed that Siska was spreading the news, for she was the only one who knew the secret.

"W-You know from Siska, huh?" Andrian was trembling a little.

Rara smiled. "So, really, huh?"

Andrian became misbehaved and nervous for a moment. His mouth was silent because Rara's guess was right.

"Hahaha .. not from Siska ko, do you know for yourself that Rara and Siska did not get along!" rara continued, laughing softly.

"Then you know who you're from?"

"Rara often saw Brother Andrian the same Bu Al both. You don't look like a mother or a child" Rara said slowly. Then Rara continued, "calm ko Kak, I won't tell anyone, hehe."

Andrian was only confused, refuting could not because the fact was true.

"Sorry in advance if Rara sassy. If it is, please stop, Ka ..." Rara said that calmly but her heart was tight. "Rara really does not want to interfere, but Rara wants advice. Didn't Brother cape hold more feelings for the person that Brother couldn't possibly have him completely?"

Rara let out a long breath, then turned her gaze away from Andrian. "Rara also does not blame Big Brother for loving Bu Al because it grows a sense it is also not the will of Big Brother. Rara understands Big Brother may have trouble throwing her down. But Kak, the problem is that the person you love will no longer be possible to belong to your full brother. In our religion, it is illegal. If Big Brother is still selfish to have it, what about Big Brother's father? Didn't you think about it? How's feeling? It would be ruined if I found out that Big Brother wants Bu Al as much as a lover."

Andrian was silent. "If you put forward feelings and egos to have each other rather than reason, then the pain of love will not end, no one can end it, not liquor, nor drugs, he said, not even death can end that suffering!"

Rara suddenly turns into a doctor of love. "We also do not need to blame love, because it is a gift from the Power. But if the excess love in people we have too late to have it, then we must be wise to put it. Do not let there be forms of ‘ channeling love’ that is hated by God, which in fact will only contaminate the love."

Breathing out of Andrian's mouth. "If according to Rara, yes already Brother just explain to fate, Brother Ridhoi only Bu Al so Mother Brother. Surely, the provision that God gives is the best for us. Putting aside the feeling of love is not easy, but in this case the mind must also be more dominant than the feeling, sister. In our religion the path of Brother to be able to have him fully has been closed, if Brother still insists on just the responsibility of his suffering Kak. Better just let him go. Rara is sure that you will get a much better replacement for her."

Jleb savage's. The words that came from Rara's mouth somehow suddenly pierced Andrian's heart.

"Sister?" Rara stared and wagged her hand in front of Andrian's face, as she looked stunned earlier. Andrian was conscious.

"W-what, Ra?" ask her with a cengo face.

"Say to go home,"

"Oh yeah, yuk."

***

Mira who was sitting and playing the device on the class table chuckled at Rara who entered and walked sluggishly towards her stool.

"Ckck, did the power fail?"

Rara is upset with Mira for her taunting. Rara kept the bag on the table then sat her ass to the bench limply. He took a breath and breathed it heavily.

"Mir's oath, I give it up ah!" he said resignedly, Mira chuckled. "It seems that Brother Andrian was pregnant with Bu Al, when Bu Al already belonged to his father still want to be healed."

"That means all this time Siska is considered what dong, if he's the same bucin as Bu Al?" ask Mira whose gaze is not diverted from the phone.

Rara's lips suddenly turned upward, she was satisfied because Siska was only made an escape with Andrian. "Ckck, pity the attached grandmother, she's just a runaway!" he said with a smile.

"Yes, if you can't get on Andrian at least you've expressed your feelings to him, right? Maybe he'll get crushed."

"I don't know, it's hard. Same Siska whose relationship has been 10 months just can not open my heart, let alone me?"

"Yes, look for another guy. Said someone had a crush on you."

Rara turned towards Mira curiously. "Who?"

"Safrudin the geeky boy!"

Brugh!

Rara poked Mira in the face with her bag.

***

Andrian POV

It's almost midnight, but I can't close my eyes yet. Somehow Rara's words continued to ring in the head. What he said was true, in fact, I and Ms. Alfira could not unite like a couple. But what about this feeling that seems to not want to escape from its place.

The strong desire to have him is still completely imprinted in my soul. What about papa? True said Rara, papa's heart will hurt if he knows that me and his wife love each other.

I rubbed my rough face, scrambling my hair in frustration. Mind confused. This forbidden love tormented me. Should I just cut it? But I love him so much and want him.

Hearing the sound of the vibration, I immediately picked up the phone lying on the nightstand. Ah, it turns out papa. From yesterday, papa was out of town, he said he was taking care of clients. However, tumben these nights Papa called me.

"Hello, Pah?"

"Good night, is this Mr. Reza Santoso's family?" ask the foreign voice across there. I frowned in wonder, for it was not papa who spoke.

"Yes, who is this?"

"We from SATLANTAS POLRESTABES PURWAKARTA informed him that Reza Santoso sodara had an accident a few hours ago. Now he was rushed to Bakti Husada's hospital."

"A-pa?"