I'm Not a Choice.
Dare storytelling.

Icha and Amanda were meeting that afternoon, not just stopping there. Since Amanda can easily make Icha believe, if she's not the one Icha should be afraid of, it might just be because they're both women, too, so that Icha is easily familiar with him or maybe this is what is called the advantages of a psychiatrist, he can make his patients feel comfortable and slowly want to open to, tell stories like friends.

I don't know, it's hard to explain, but the truth is this is where Icha is now, in a not-so-busy park, with Amanda. Two days ago, they met at a restaurant for lunch.

" You're nervous." Amanda asked when she noticed Icha, who looked so agitated. On a park bench during the day.

" No, it's just that this is my first time visiting a place like this with someone else?" Icha replied, the woman continued to look around alert, as if someone was stalking them. Namu Amanda understands that.

"Don't worry, we're safe here. Have you never been to the park before." Icha shook her head. Not because he's never gone. But the woman has often visited the park, with her late father and Mimi also Eva, though

" I've been to the park a few times with Dad." He said, smiling at Amanda and the woman nodded in understanding.

Amanda hopes that with Icha's openness to her, it can be something good for the woman in the future, because it's a shame that people as smart as Icha have to limit themselves from the outside world and the opposite sex, he said, although Amanda knows, it is due to trauma due to what has happened to her in the past.

But it's too bad if he has to live as long as it is, because humans are social creatures where we have to socialize with the environment wherever we are.

" Oh yeah, you told Riyadh not yet that I didn't meet you here! He's afraid he's looking for you to keep blaming me for taking his wife away without permission again." Ask Amanda in a joking tone. His attitude towards Icha, looks like a friend, which makes Icha more comfortable lingering in that place with Amanda.

" I've told him, even he keeps reminding me to be with you." Answer Icha.

" It seems like she loves you very much." Amanda said, making Icha look to look at the pretty psychiatrist's face. " why? You don't believe it?natural anyway. You don't know him very well, so you can't believe what I'm saying. But one you should know. Riyadh is not a warm person, he will not be this caring to others, except his family, people he loves. I was close to him it took him a year, and that's because we're both often paired up for smart events and the Olympics." Amanda said as she told Icha about their past. He deliberately did so, so that Icha would tell about their meeting or his assessment of riyadh.

"Yes, maybe what you said is true? But a woman like me doesn't deserve a man like her, she's too kind and perfect for me to be despicable." Amanda frowned. Iya waited for Icha to continue his words but Icha never spoke again, he looked the other way with a blank look.

" But you don't know what happened to me! You don't know how I've been hurt." Icha said, the woman now looked down, unknowingly her tears began to drip. He has never told anyone anything, not even his family and friends. But to this woman he suddenly wanted to tell a story, whether what magic Amanda had until Icha wanted to tell him.

" Yes you're right I don't know what you're going through, but I'll know if you want to tell me." Icha who had been silent with her head down now raised her gaze to look at the face of the beautiful woman beside her. " I am a friend of Riyadh, and you are his wife. What's wrong if I consider you a friend too and want to share your grief with you." Amanda said so sweetly that Icha suddenly thought of something.

" You're beautiful, and you're smart! You guys look better as a couple than a best friend." Sela Icha makes Amanda laugh. Making Icha frown at him confused.

" God Icha, you offered your husband to me! You know your husband as good as he is. Unfortunately he's not my type, I don't like that cold guy, say if he wants to and the rest he just keeps quiet. My colorful and bustling life will instantly change if I marry her. For that I chose another man to accompany me. "Speak while pointing the wedding ring on his ring finger.

" God, I'm sorry I thought you weren't married. I really don't know." Icha really felt bad for Amanda.

"What's wrong, you don't have to apologize like that, anyways this isn't a problem. Mending you tell me what happened to you until you say it like that." Amanda reminded Icha. But the woman looked confused and doubtful.

Confused where to start, with what he did. Whether it is right or not. But Amanda continues to convince herself, until Icha wants to tell a story.

The woman tells the story of the change of the uncle in school, the day after in the residence of his future wife, the money that his uncle saved for their marriage also under went without rest. Making his uncle depressed and often angry is not clear to students at school. Icha knew that because her mother often invited her to meet her uncle when she came home from school and heard their conversation. Sometimes his mother also often lent his uncle money out of pity for his uncle.

Icha herself was loving, but Icha did not expect her uncle would do that to her, raping her and killing her brother without mercy.

Her uncle that night looked creepy, to the point that Icha was so scared and always imagined the look in her eyes and the way she tortured him. It's completely inhuman.