Islam Learning Fasting
67. Lailatul Qadar

"What?" sarifuddin asked after hearing what Islam had just told him.

"Yes, Din. Khadijah says it's the same with me."

Sarifuddin who was reading the Quran immediately closed it and placed it on the table.

"Din, lailatul qadar's night what the hell, anyway?" tanya Islam who is still kneeling in front of Sarifuddin.

Sarifuddin took a deep breath, well like this if Sarifuddin wanted to talk and explain at length. If Sarifuddin has started to take a deep breath then that's when his brain works to find answers.

"The night of the lailatul qadar or lailat al-Qadar is one important night that takes place in the month of Ramadan, which in the Qur'an is described as the better night of a thousand months."

"Whosoever in the night of the lailatul qadar does his worship and prays with full faith offered solely to Allah, it will be forgiven of all his previous and future sins, all of which are explained in the narratives of Ahmad and Thabrani" he explained.

"If it is done not because of Allah but because of Khadijah?"

"God! Don't talk like that! How can the great figure of God be replaced only by a female figure."

"Gue wants to pray lailatul qadar but to seduce the heart of Allah so that Allah seduces the heart of Khadijah, that is what Khadijah says."

"That means Khadijah wants Islam to seduce the heart of Allah and only ask Allah. Whether or not it is God's business."

"Reply because of Allah and leave it to Allah not because it has any will."

Islam was silent. Sarifuddin's face looked somewhat annoyed to him. Oh my God, it's so scary that Sarifuddin's face when talking about God.

"This is the custom of the people, worship only because it wants to ask after it can then worship is forgotten."

"If you ask to say 'Only to You do we ask' but they never say 'Only to You do we worship' Like that, '" he explained.

Islam can only swallow its salivary. This is very sensitive Sarifuddin.

"What do I have to do now?" ask Islam.

"Later night of prayer because Allah is not the intention because it wants to get the heart of Khadijah!"

"Praise Allah for being sincere not because he wants to."

"After that, ask Allah that He will seduce Khadijah's heart but do not force it and even demand it."

"Surely, only Allah knows what is best for His servants."

Islam is silent. O Allah, did he sin after intending to worship only because of the figure of Khadijah?

Islam looked up at Sarifuddin who had explained so much about what he did not understand.

Now Islam is aware and believes that having one friend who understands religion is more useful than having thousands of good friends but does not understand religion.

"Please well, Din," said Islam while stroking Sarifuddin's shoulder who looks to smile thinly while nodding.

...***...

The atmosphere tonight is so very cool accompanied by a gust of night wind that is so soothing. Islam looked left and right at the dark sky decorated with stars.

"I think it will rain" said Islam, who stepped into his bed after closing the door.

Sarifuddin who was reading the Qur'an turned to look at Islam who had been lying on his bed.

"Gue slept first, well," said Islam who then turned his back on Sarifuddin.

"Are you going to sleep?" ask Sarifuddin.

"Em," he said.

Sarifuddin nodded, although he was honestly confused. Islam is sleeping faster this time.

In the middle of the silence, Sarifuddin closed his Qur'an and laid his body on the bed and closed his eyes after he prayed.

Not long ago the lights in the room have died making the room dark.

Islam opened his eyes and he took a deep breath and exhaled slowly.

"O Allah, if You allow me to pray tonight, then put me up for a third of the night" whispered Islam and closed his eyes.

This silent night is now made noisy by the sound of raindrops drenching the earth. Trees wobble when they are blown by the wind that is not too strong.

Frogs were jumping under the rain, they jumped to go shelter under an unforgiving lie by the rain.

Islam opened his eyes suddenly and looked at the dark wall clock. Has the dawn prayer time passed?

Islam is surprised not to play staring at the clock that shows one o'clock at night. This time, Islam woke up from its sleep.

Not long after Islam smiled after it crossed his mind about his speech before he went to sleep.

Allah granted his wish and now Islam has awakened.

Islam opens the door of the room to make the air cool and the rain blown by the wind feels welcome Islam. Islam closed the door and set its feet in black sandal through the doors of the santri's room whose floor was wet after the rain.

Islam ran towards the ablution place and immediately took the ablution water then after he stood on the edge staring at the swift rain that never stopped.

Islamic clothes are now a bit wet after breaking through the torrent of rain. Fortunately, Islam brought a change of clothes that he stored in a black swish bag.

Islam stands alone on the outside of the ablution place while staring at the mosque whose lights are so bright.

Islam decided to re-crack through the rain. He climbed up the wet staircase while protecting his head with a crackle bag containing a change of clothes.

When Islam came, he rubbed his wet hair with both hands and rubbed his neck into his clothes.

Islam stepped into the mosque with his fear, there is no one here except Islam.

Islam licked its lips so as not to get cold, the body of Islam felt shivering after the rain to get to the mosque.

Islam changed his clothes with cocoa clothes and sarongs and put a white peci on his head.

He turned his head to look towards the prayer rug that was always occupied by the imam of the mosque and he decided to stand on the prayer mat.

Instantly the body of Islam heats up because of fear, whether afraid of whom but this succeeds in making the heart of Islam pounding quickly.

Islam closed his eyes and breathed his breath slowly but intermittently.

أُصَلِّى سُنَّةً لَيْلَةُ الْقَدَرِ رَكْعَتَيْنِ لِلّٰهِ تَعَالَى

"Allahu Akbar!"

Islam began its prayers with fear making its body tremble violently. He honestly could not stand up straight, his knees were sore but he tried to stand up straight.

Islam recites its prayers and performs prayers solemnly, For some reason it feels like someone is staring at it and not just him who is in the room of this mosque.

Islam prostrated itself upon the prayer mat for its last bow, closing its smooth forehead. Islam opened his eyes to make both eyes heat up when he managed to remember all the bad qualities.

His unkind attitude towards Akbar seemed to be reflected in his mind. The girls he always played with his heart and feelings sprang up as if they were angry with him.

It is also imagined when he fought on the streets against other motorcycle gangs, harassed road users and even had until he hurt a motorcyclist who had nothing wrong.

Islam that does not pray, does not do good and even Islam has just learned fasting at an increasingly mature age. Wasted his life time by futile deeds.

Oh my God, can this sin still be forgiven?

Islam rose with tears that had poured down his cheeks. He turned to the right and left to close his prayer and rubbed his wet face.

Islam blasts its cries and cries a sigh. Do these two hands ask Him?

Is it still appropriate that the words that always speak in these obscenities praise the name of God and ask for something?

Even now Islam is ashamed of itself.

Islam raised both hands and looked up.

Islam pours out both hands as if unable to pray. He rubbed his cheeks and raised both hands.

"Oh my God, my Rob. Only to You the servant worshiped and only to You the servant asked."

"Honestly I'm ashamed to ask. I am afraid that you will not hear my prayer."

"O Allah, O Allah, all the sins of the servants who have been committed, whether intentional or not."

"The servant does not deserve to enter Your heaven, but he cannot enter Your hell, O God."

"O Allah, I beg you to put your servant in your heaven and put him to death."

"O Allah, the servant loves one of Your servants and the servant wants him, his name is Khadijah."

"The servant has come to seduce you, O God."

"Make him also love the servant as the servant loves him."

Islam rubbed his face and prostrated himself while crying.