Let Me Go (I'm Tired)
11. I'm fragile
The clock shows at 4 am, Tika also woke up by opening her eyes slowly while collecting her consciousness. Then looked at her husband who was still asleep beside her. Tika got out of bed and walked to the bedroom to take a shower.
Half an hour Tika was in the bedroom, after everything was done cleaning her body and then out of the bedroom and walked to the closet to take her clothes, of course, the clothes used are clothes to apply for jobs. Soon Tika took a short-sleeved white dress and a black cotton skirt as her knees and put it on.
Adhan dawn was reverberating, it was time for a Muslim to perform dawn prayer. Tika walked over to her husband who was still sleeping on the bed, and tried to wake her husband up.
"Mas, wake up Mas .." said Tika while patting her husband's back gently.
But Chandra still hasn't woken up and is still asleep, and Tika tries to wake her husband again.
"Mas Chandra woke up, it's dawn now let's pray the morning congregation," said Tika as she gently patted her husband's back.
There was no response from Chandra. Her husband is still awake and still asleep.
'Where is this? Kok Mas Chandra hasn't woken up yet either. But it is the duty of a wife to remind and wake up so that Mas Chandra performs worship. Try it once again, who knows Chandra woke up, Tika muttered to herself and tried to reawaken her husband.
"Mas Chandra, wake up Mas" said Tika with a little increase in tone of voice.
Chandra awoke, then looked at his wife with anger, "you're disturbing the sleeping people just know! If you want to pray, you already pray alone do not wake me up!"
"Astagfirstuloh Mas, why talk like that. I just wanted to remind Mas to perform the dawn prayer. So there's no harm, I woke you up. Why is it that now Mas has changed, not like it used to be Mas," said Tika felt disappointed with her husband.
Tika also chose to remain silent without saying and relented without replying to her husband's harsh treatment. Suddenly her tears fell down her cheeks, then Tika tried to be patient and take a breath, then walked to the place where Tika had to perform her obligations of dawn prayer.
After finishing the morning prayers, Tika suddenly shed her tears and raised her hands up, then prayed, "Oh my God, hug me for a moment, I'm tired. I am saddened by my life right now. Not that I gave up, but I wanted to take a moment away from this life. Most people are only pursuing the world. God, please hug me for a moment. I'm fragile, I'm broken, from the world's life that makes me tired. O Allah, take me to the most beautiful place, so that I may come back hard to fight in the difficulty of this life. Allow me, to carry the burden of life, and lead me to the straight path, on the path that you are walking on, ' Tika muttered and rubbed her hands against her face.
Hicks .. hiks ... 'I can't be whiny, I can't be weak, maybe there are a lot of people out there who try to exceed me. I have to be strong.' Tika sobbed in tears, and tried to strengthen herself.
Tika also took a breath, then released the face she was wearing and tidied it back and then kept it in its original place.
'I have to go to the kitchen immediately to prepare breakfast, before they wake up and have to be ready before I leave to apply for a job, ' said Tika then walking towards the kitchen.
After arriving at the kitchen, as usual Tika did her cooking activities.
An hour later ....
'Finally made breakfast for them too. Just wait for breakfast with them, Tika said when it was okay to keep the food on the dining table.
'I have to go to Chika's room and wake her up, because now Chika has to go to school, ' Tika then walks to her daughter's room when she has finished preparing her breakfast.
Seriate....