Let Me Go (I'm Tired)
25.Single-mindedly
'A thousand beautiful stories we have passed, bitter sweetness we have exceeded, and everything I have fought for now I must end. It's hard to lose the old story. And now even starting with a new leaf. But that's the decision I made, after you found someone new to stop by. Someone who might love you more than me. Definitely not like me, who only loves you with flaws. All decisions are in my hands. You can no longer dodge! Something I once held tightly was supposed to come off.
'I will try to leave all this behind, even though I cannot forget it in the end. I will try to let go, even if I don't want to lose. I will try to no longer remember you, even though you are still tucked in your name in every prayer. And now I will let you go, let me still learn to be sincere' hiks .. hiks .. Tika murmured inwardly while crying a mouthful. How sick and broken Tika's heart with the events in his natural household.
"Well, you're okay, right?" asked Andrew into his car, worried and anxious about Tika who was crying.
"You see for yourself, Ndrew, if I'm not okay, then torch." Tika replied with a hiccup and wiped away the tears that kept wetting her cheeks.
"You're patient, Tik, maybe this is a test for your household. You must be able to get through this all really." said Andrew trying to calm Tika.
"But unfortunately I can't maintain my household, this is too sick Ndrew, very sick hyx. He who has betrayed me, he who has destroyed the hope of the household that was always longed for until death separated. But why can't she keep her own promise" Tika said in a sad voice typical of crying people.
"I understand and feel how painful your position is now. If that's the best decision for you, I just wish that you'd get someone better than your husband, he's loving, understanding, loyal and can certainly be the best priest for your family," said Andrew while looking at Tika and then smiling.
Tika looked back at Andrew and said, "yes, thank you Ndrew for praying."
"Yes alike. I'm sure you can live without your husband, let alone your son Chika. You will be able to raise and educate your children even if later without being with your husband again. Tika's spirit, don't despair. Perhaps God has predestined you to end with your husband, and you should also thank God for revealing what your husband's bad qualities and behaviors really are."
"What you're saying is true Ndrew, I should be lucky to know who Chandra really is. Maybe before I go far, I'd better end my journey with my husband. And I'm gonna try to sincerely give him up for a woman he might think is better than me."
"I am strong and strong for the sake of my son, Chika. I don't want Chika to see the sadness I've been feeling all along. Chika is still innocent, she still needs time to enjoy her life with pleasure instead of sadness. So I try to strengthen my heart to always smile in front of my child even though my heart is sad and not okay" said Tika then tried to smile.
"Mommy is the best! It's lucky Chika has a mother like you." Andrew looked at Tika and smiled.
"I'm sorry, Ndrew, I was so upset" said Tika embarrassed.
"It's okay Tik, it's better you reveal and exit your mouth so that your heart plong and a little can reduce the burden. I'm sorry I don't want to take part in your household business."
"It's okay Ndrew. Oya sorry yes Ndrew for today, I think I can not work again maybe tomorrow or the day after tomorrow I will definitely work again."
"It's okay with Tik. Anyway I know your position now is like how it is. Yes, let me anter you go home," said Andrew.
"Heem." Replied Tika while nodding her head
Andrew then runs his car, and drives away from the restaurant.
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