Love Without Crown
Meeting an Ex

As I began to melt with my mother's wishes, the mother who was now alone at home worried me too, especially when I offered a housekeeper to help take care of the house, mama refused on the grounds that taking care of the house would be her activity to relieve boredom. Maya, my friend at the office, advised me to go back to my mom for a while, having worked for years away from my parents, he who has lost both parents regrets because when parents in old age together are often missed, we often reason to work to make him happy, happy in what terms? The matter? Are you sure your happiness is material?

I reflect on the advice given maya while studying myself all this time, the conclusion has been too concerned with career, living things whose purpose is somewhere, rather just thinking about my pleasure. When was the last time the family ate together? How long is the longest day at home to spend? When was the last time I had quality time with them? When was the last time I asked my mom about her feelings?. All those questions filled the head, jutting in the ears. Time to make a decision, a decision for the common good.

***

Sad to have to leave this place, since one month ago put in a resignation letter, I tried to enjoy my last days in a place that has been working for many years, he said, on the other hand I am happy to imagine the happy face of my mother welcoming my return. When my mother heard that I was going to resign and work near the house, she heard her enthusiastic voice, I finally knew the thing that made her happy many times, not the expensive gifts I gave, there is plenty of time to enjoy being together. I said goodbye to office friends, even some take to the airport, including arka sir.

I stepped in to check in, occasionally turning while waving my hand, seen the face of Mr. Arga who seemed not to let me go, resigned not because of the heartache of failing with him, but this for the sake of mama. Steady footsteps, imagining my mother so happy to welcome me at the airport, my mother who was already at the airport when I had not yet departed from the airport here, the thing that made me more sure to go home. Unknowingly recalling the day before leaving, the arka sir met me for my last dinner together before returning home. Her eyes are sad, who does not want a separation, but this is the best choice because they cannot be together to be a life partner, let her look for other women approved by her parents.

Enjoy the flight with sunny weather, took the time to take pictures with the camera as a memento because I don't know when to come here again. I feel grateful to Maya who reminds me, there is no regret in the slightest to leave my career because I want to share my mother at home, anyway can find a job near home, and so on, and let mama easily meet me with the man she chose, surely the stock is already a lot.

As expected, mama greeted at the exit, with fashionable makeup she enthusiastically called my name so that made the people next to her turn their heads, since when did you realize that mama is part of a horrendous human being.

[It's over, ian?] A chat from arka sir

[Already, sir]

[Happy being there]

***

Keeping my promise to my mother, today I met the man she told me about. The man who knows what his name is and how he looks, hopefully not like buto ijo. Mama said that the man was the son of a new partner Arisan mama who had just moved from another city. There is no choice, but a promise is a promise. Looking sober, I headed to the location that mama said, it was normal, but mama protested because of my messy appearance, as a result I dressed up too, a location that was 10 minutes from home. I drove slowly, enjoyed the journey while reminiscing, a lot has changed here, it turns out I have been wandering for a long time.

Arriving at the location was stunned, once this place rice fields where used to play kites when the harvest was over, now there is a cafe that wah.

“Dian.” Saya a man.

“Zul?” I'm trying to make sure.

I was shocked to meet Zul, even though this is not his hometown, it turns out he moved to this city for work reasons. Me and him awkward after a long time no see, more awkward turns out he's what mama meant, he's the one I'm going to be betrothed to, he's my ex-boyfriend.

“Dian not married yet? I thought I was married.”

“Not yet, you yourself why not? You are cool.”

“hah?” i'm appalled.

“For this long I pray, if you are my soul mate then give way, if not to get rid of the memory of you. I've tried with other than you but always failed, when my mom said she wanted to set him up with you, I felt moved, as if this was the answer to my prayers so far.”

“You want to not marry me?” Further.

“Let me time to answer yes zul” My response

“Iya, Dian. Pertimbangin well\-well yes.”

After the meeting with Zul, I felt terrible, between happy and awkward. A lot has changed from him, looking to be better than the last breakup I had with him. At that time we were probably still equally selfish, separation taught us to be better. For years parting with him, even if there was no communication, we had our own ways of healing wounds without greeting. I don't know what answer I'm going to give, I'm still in shock over this meeting, in my head there are a lot of questions about how you know them, is this possible the way to prayer that he did? Frankly I never prayed for him even once, for me who passed yes already passed because I was lazy to get stuck in that time.

My heart that put the arka in a special place has not been able to be replaced, the arka is a form of falling back in love after a long break with zul, although in the end it must be broken because the mother who does not approve. We could have forced to be together, but chose to let each other out despite the weight, we just needed time to get used to it at first. I began to register vacancies near the house, while considering the invitation to zul. The turmoil is becoming more and more, is zul the answer to desire all this time? it felt like it took some time to get used to him again, maybe trying to make friends first.

[Zul, how about we be friends first?] A chat I sent him.

[Why?] The reply.

[We've been apart for a long time, I feel we're strangers, so we started from scratch to get to know. Hows it?]

[Ok, no problem. I thank you for giving me this opportunity]

[Yes, zul. Thank you for doing me]

That's all I can do for now, may my heart immediately confirm to whom the end point of my choice is, may there be good news I can get.