Love Without Crown
Repeating Dating

"Where did you meet him? Likey? So when is marriage?”

My mom's back-to-back questions when I got home from a date, I just smiled with my thumb, a happy look on her face. It does not feel like a month at home, since the meeting with zul, restarting a relationship was difficult easy, because there must be a change after the separation. We just ask the news communication, very different from the first that seems to be chatty to each other, even when the call can be direct for hours. A moment of nostalgia for the youth with him, between happy and stupid, without realizing a smile on my lips, not forgetting the red face blushing like boiled shrimp.

[Dian, we're eating together yuk!] A chat from zul.

[When? Where?” My reply.

[Meeting time, 16:00 WIB]

[Ok, I'll see you there]

***

The shady look back I saw after several years of separation, the previous meeting had not had time to see this shady look. Seen gestures of awkwardness, despite trying to display a charming smile. His age who had entered the head of three, presented a little wrinkle and looked one gray.

“Itu” Said me while pointing at the location of gray hair.

“What?” Ask surprised.

“There's uban” I replied with a laugh.

The atmosphere melts with laughter together, nostalgia of the past that turns out to be more disgrace than good. We realize the past mistakes with frills in the name of love so that no matter the sin. Zul also said that his relationship with his family has improved unlike before, all improved since his stepfather died, he is very happy because his family returned as usual. She also told me that since breaking up with me, she had chosen to resign from the company where she worked and help her mom business, which is why she was in my hometown.

Every sentence of the story that came out of my mouth looked carefully, it felt back to a few years ago, he actually liked to tell stories and bring it up, if it was lost together as a cool person, he was lost, but it turns into a craze that does a lot of silly things.

The question arises in my mind, is he a mate that God prepares? Intentionally separated first so that we become a better person, maybe if the relationship continues to this day, then we are not necessarily aware of the sins that have been committed and we are still a bunch of shameless people. Introductions, knitting special relationships, parting, then being reunited in better circumstances than before, we parted not because of the third person but because each other made selfishness clash.

“Dian, sorry I ya”

“Sorry in terms?”

“Sorry, I used to be selfish”

“I'm sorry too ya”

“We start from the beginning again yes dian, in a better state than before”

“Yes, Zul”

Actually all this time the sense that I have is not lost, unconsciously miss each other, but because of the selfishness of the more enthroned, I am not able to dwell. Each has tried to move on, but ended up failing, of course, all of it unconsciously because it never associates failure because of feelings. Confused about having to start again how, so let's just say I just know him, since the previous meeting then I assume everything is all the first time, including going together today.

***

“Mammm, I'm home.!”

“Haloooo sayangggggg..!” A woman was excited and hugged me.

“Mamm?” I asked my mother while gesturing to ask, because I was hugged tightly by her.

“Eitssss... directly call mommy!” Aunt linda protest.

Aunt Linda took off a hug, then directed me to sit down, on the table had been plastered photos of wedding dresses a lot, with a frenzy they thrust one by one to choose according to my taste, he said, I really want to be honest with them if out of the many photos, none of them suits my taste. Two mothers fuss over their children, but I am glad that my laughter has recovered to its fullest after mourning the passing of my father, and now my mother has a friend who is a frequency of excitement and ridiculous.

I say goodbye to rest, it seems like they do not know that I after meeting zul, do not imagine if you know, I could have been scratched various kekepatan them. I drop my body on the bed, my net stares at the whole room, my mind churns in obscurity. Suddenly remembered that for one month since returning from Kalimantan, I have not applied job vacancies here, Oh my God I was too cool to relax, I was too relaxed, more precisely rest because it has been busy working so that the time I have for my mother is very little. Since I came home, my mother rarely went, we spent more time together at home, cooking together, watching together, sports together, and other activities. I was happy and really enjoyed this moment with my mom, but the boredom began to sink because before I was a busy human being for all activities, leaving morning and coming home at night.

[Dian, are you home yet?]

[Already, zul. How's it?]

[It's okay, want a mastiin because we were not together]

[If we were together, we could be in the same trial of our mothers]

[Mommy is there?]

[There]

[Pantesan is not at home]

Chat continued to discuss other things until I accidentally fell asleep because I was tired, uh it seems to be due to sleepiness, since not working turned into sleepy, or maybe snoring and tingling too, maybe, hehe.

The window that I accidentally opened served the cold of the night, it seemed like it would rain because the sky looked cloudy, I woke up because of the moonlight that hit my face, although not bright but enough to make glare. With heavy footsteps and five-watt eyes, I walked towards the window, standing for a moment enjoying the atmosphere of the night, I accidentally saw a man standing in front of the gate while staring at me.

“Pak arc?”

I rubbed my eyes and looked again, no one, maybe I was hallucinating or I was missing him? Ah already, although actually curious, I want to chat arka sir to ask, but too confident once asked that, of course very embarrassed if it turns out not him. Immediately dismiss it is impossible because the distance of his house with Kalimantan is far away, after all the arka pack is more following the decision of his mother who does not want me to be his son-in-law.

[May.. Arka sir again to my home area is it?”

My God, why I sent this chat to maya, I want to cancel it turned out to be read, I forget that he always stays up late.

[Now, why?]

[I should have seen the arka sir standing in front of my gate]

[Hehe, he's here anyway, you might miss, so hallucinate]

[Son, I'm the same she can't be together]

[Yes Dian, don't think about it anymore]

[Ready mayyy]

Although I was embarrassed at first to ask, but finally relieved as well, fix I was just hallucinating. Why do I have to hallucinate about it?