My (Ex) Boyfriend's
The Forty Five
“I know how it feels to be disappointed and sad at the same time, like when you left me a while ago, so I don't want you to experience it. If you really love Nadia, try to put trust there.”
Love Nadia? Indeed indeed.
But she also loves Selsa, more, until herself forgets what percentage of her feelings are to Selsa.
Fabian realized, his moron overstepped the mark, ignoring Selsa who had been clearly there always by his side. The man looked at Selsa's face from the side, so peaceful, but he saw the sadness and disappointment there. He also knew the cause of the disappointment and sadness, who else if not the fool himself, Fabian.
“Sa,”
Selsa who happened to stare in another direction automatically turned her head, raised her eyebrows briefly, asked through the look of her face and as if saying ‘ada apa’.
“You injured?” ask Fabian.
Her smile was mellow, this was not what Fabian wanted, Selsa turned her gaze back. “Still you ask?” selsa replied, looking the other way.
“There's still a chance to come back to you?” fabian's hand raised rubbed Selsa's shoulder. The woman nimbly dodged and created a distance of a few inches from Fabian.
This time Selsa's gaze was very deep, drawing Fabian right in her heart, but only briefly, “Don't know. You think coming back to me is easy, but not with me, after everything happens I'm always the outlet. After you found out Nadia was pregnant, you threw it away and came back to me, are you really that good as Fabian?” Selsa asked softly.
“I'm not leaving Nadia, Selsa. It's just that my guilt is getting bigger seeing you like this.”
Had he not thought about where he was now, Selsa would have shouted at the shameless Fabian, the man could have spoken so easily as if he and Nadia were a toy that was free to play at any time.
“Why are you thinking now? Why do you always hurt me when you're sorry? If you come back just to get rid of the guilt, better not, I'd rather live my life like this. My life has always been ruined with every contact with you Fab, broken many times and also dropped.”
“Sorry Sa. I did all this for our good, your good, Nadia's good and mine. I don't want you to be offended because I always put Nadia first, I don't want Nadia to be ashamed of being offended by the Doctor's diagnosis, I told you about it, I'm enough, and I also don't want you two to get into a disagreement when you meet.” Clearly in a hoarse voice, it seemed like Fabian was tired of all the problems.
Selsa tidied her hair, although not messy, only body language that explains that the woman was a little uncomfortable. More and more pull over and give distance to Fabian. His heart went back to sleep when exchanging characters with the man.
“Not like this. Until when do you want to hide, until when do you want to cover up all the truth and until when do you behave selfishly? If you were honest from the start, you said everything from the beginning, I definitely wouldn't misunderstand it too far like this. I will definitely survive and understand your circumstances, but unfortunately you are selfish Fab! You always assume you can solve everything yourself,”, said Selsa was thorough and passionate.
Fabian lowered his head dizzy. Clutching tightly his head that was getting here more and more dizzy, his face also looks very chaotic with two teary eyes, “So I have to how Sa? My head is getting dizzy with the problems I've been having lately with me, your departure, Nadia's mentality and also the fact Nadia is pregnant, I can't live with this kind of problem puddle. Even it feels like I won't be able to solve everything, one by one,” murmured in frustration.
“Solve everything slowly Fab, meet Renald and talk carefully about the problem! For our problems, you put aside first, slowly everything will definitely be finished.” Said gently.
Fabian looked up at Selsa, the woman smiled there, “I would never be able to talk well with Renlad Sa. I always wanted to finish off that brash guy for impregnating Nadia.” To be honest, Selsa laughs wittyly but seems arrogant and mocking.
“It's none of my business Fabian, it's up to you to do anything to Renald, after all it's not entirely his fault. They are equally willing, Nadia does not reject as well as Renald. From the first cat will never refuse if given fresh fish.” Selsa confirmed the slightly messy location of her tote bag.
“If your situation is fine, I say.” The baby intends to leave.
Fabian quickly prevented Selsa. Holding the woman's wrist slowly, grasped and stared for a while before looking at Selsa's back in plain sight, “You want to accompany me to finish everything?” half asked.
“Hand off Fab! Mina and Vano are waiting for me.” The tape without turning back. His steps were taken again but again the foolish man prevented it.
“Sa wait,” prevent it with a tightened grip, “I beg you this time only, accompany me to finish everything, after that it is up to you to leave me or not.” His request was very pleading.
“What reward do you give if you want me to help you?”
“Whatever I will give, for that help me.”
Selsa let out her upset breath, turned her head to look at Fabian who was still sitting in front of her and smiled briefly, “Tomorrow came to Vano's house, eight o'clock in the morning and do not be late.” He then released Fabian's check slowly.
His move came again to leave the place where Fabian looked at him expectantly. Selsa hopes after this his business and Fabian is completely finished, with that he will live his day full of calm. Returning to be an active model and also doing other positive things, Selsa hopes this is the last. The end of all the complicated problems in his life.
Fabian was stunned for a second, smiled again and gave thanks in his heart. At least Selsa was willing to help him, who did not know himself, meet Renald. If there is a little Selsa Fabian can tennag and better, the desire to make Renald bruised face a little less.
...---...
Like anyone who falls in love again, Fabian can't wait for tomorrow to meet Selsa. Just meet when, there is nothing special or what, the man is very enthusiastic about dressing up more than reasonable.
This morning before eight o'clock, a man stood before Vano's house gallantly. The white shirt wrapped in a black suit and a hairdo that is so neat, the water is not the same as usual used, more soft and intoxicating for those who smell it. Just for the sake of waiting for Selsa, at half-seven was already standing there, with an alluring smile of course. Until Mina was surprised not to play when she wanted to water the flowers, and found the bastard Fabian standing there.
While Selsa repeatedly gritted. Stabbing the man's chatter lazily, during the trip, had left too early and until now Fabian had been incessantly telling him unimportant things. It is basically stupid to have been maintained long ago, the loss was difficult.
By the way the two of them today will meet Renald in an area that is quite far from the capital. It took quite a long journey, as Fabian's bodyguard brought the man back away from Jakarta. In order to no longer be able to meet Nadia, even though she was pregnant with Renald's child as well, but for whatever sake Fabian did not want Nadia to fall into the hands of Renald, a big-time bastard; just like him.
“Sa if you sleep alone, I will wake you later.”
“Already focused on driving, I was lazy to ignore your babble. Already waking up part and must hurry because Mina who frenzied herself.” Selsa replied annoyed.
“Why is Mina that big?” Fabian occasionally turned his head and refocused on his journey.
Selsa stared lazily at Fabian, “Do you think?” tanyanya lazy.
“Yes sorry I'm impatient,”
Selsa observed the man who was cool driving it with wisdom, “Can't wait to meet me or Renald?” tanyanya full of search.
“Ya you-er,” Fabian quickly correct, “Renald I mean.” Imbaby fast.
Selsa clearly held back her laughter, finding Fabian's face clumsy due to lethargy.
“Prestigious are only for weak people, if you miss me just talk.” Said arrogant.
Fabian flicked his hands in evasive air, “Do not make it up, have slept alone than a lot of talk.” His frowns.
“Yakin don't miss me? Just be careful if I miss others, I guarantee you will regret.” Temptation Selsa put on a witty face.
“I so want a plastic bag now, you bring it?”
Selsa frowning, “For what?” ask Selsa.
“Want to vomit to hear what you say, next time don't be too confident. No man wants to miss a chatty woman like you.” Answer Fabian ketus.
Automatic Selsa pinched Fabian's arm hard until the man complained in pain, “Ish sucks. Just be careful if I have a lover, I'll show you later.” His words do not accept.
“Just show off, I don't bother jealousy because I already know who your lover will be.” Fabian said he was still with his arm slightly sore because of Selsa's too tight pinch.
“Who is it? The longer your psychic soul gets smoldering huh Fab,”
“Ish can't believe, I know who will be your girlfriend.”
“Who's Fabian? Don't you know yes,”
“This is the guy sitting next to you.”
Selsa screamed, until Fabian reflex removed the car's steering wheel and covered both ears. Good thing only briefly until he re-routed the steering wheel of the car properly, “Gosh where the location of the plastic bag, my nausea is over. Even my gut laughs at your nonsense, Fabian.” Selsa's laughter is getting airborne there.
As if participating, Fabian also laughed loudly there. Observing Selsa whose laughter did not stop, why not just make Selsa happy this long ago? Why is it only now that their status is no longer a pair of lovers? Blame it on yourself, Fab!
The man stopped his laughter and pretended to be annoyed, “Yayaya is up to you. Rest, travel is still far.”
“Good. Do not forget to stop at the mini market, yes,” as well as Selsa who holds her stomach that hurts from laughing, until tears come out of her eye sockets, and the woman rubs it slowly.
Why is it Fabian now? I don't know what this is, which is clear I'm more comfortable with relationships like this, look relaxed and not just misunderstand and yell at each other. Thank you for understanding Fabian, today I am happy.
“You bought what?”
“Some women's needs, you don't need to know.”
“Bread order japan.”
Without any more orders, Selsa's sassy hand patted the man's shoulder without mercy. Fabian did not protest, most only replying to pinch Selsa's cheek and sometimes damaged the woman's hair slowly. “If you already know why to ask? It is stupid that you have maintained since a long time ago, Narendra Stupid Fabian Atra Wardhana, what a long pesky name.”
Hearing Selsa's words just made Fabian grimace, always dumb, because he was stupid. But strangely Fabian was not offended at all, the man actually considered a joke that could make Selsa laugh. It'sit's okay.
“Mean soul mate, my name along it later side by side with your name short as the person.”
“Indeed if talking from the past has never been filtered, just be aware that I am high.” Omel Selsa turned upset.
The command to sleep and rest seems to just disappear. Two human children whose hearts had just been shaken were actually spreading a strange and ridiculous joke that unfortunately made both of them laugh.
“Mana can be high, you are old and your growth period is past. If it is short, do not be pretentious to high.”
Selsa did not reply to Fabian. Plagued both hands in front of the chest with a head that is full of leaning there and closed his eyes calm, “If I keep chiming in your crazy talk, I also go crazy.” he said slowly that made Fabian laugh again.
Sculpting Selsa who was slowly slumbering, Fabian only dared to pay a glance. At first it was only a glance, but when it was felt Selsa had slept soundly, his guts were as big as otaku dang back used, rubbing Selsa's head gently and changing on the woman's cheek. Quite slowly, as well as the sender of sleep and in the heart pray that the woman gets the most beautiful dream from God. Only when he's with her, hopefully.
The universe has always brought us together, no matter what. I believe they approve of him Sa, just wait for the time to be right.
...---...
“Have been feeling good at impregnating Nadia like that? Already feel responsible Mr Renald?” satir Fabian with a gaze not with peace.
“I'll be in charge, but not now. Anyway it's not necessarily my son, it can be just-”
Selsa pulled Fabian when she found out the man was moving and fought each other with Selsa, “Bajingan.” Fabian fiercely lunged at Renald, blindly until Selsa was very difficult to separate them, as well as Fabian's bodyguard.
“FABIAN RENALD STOP!” selsa shouted and succeeded. Fabian and Renald separated from each other, both breathing heavily.
“If it wasn't your son, whose son would it be? Nadia just did with you,”
Renald's sarcastic smile appeared, “Care you with me? It could be that you subconsciously did it Fabian, and left it all to me because I am Nadia's lover.” he said inviting emotion.
“Crazy bastard heard my words, I was completely and never had bed contact with Nadia. I've been keeping him half dead and you just broke him,”
“Prison will be congested if the thief admits his mistake.”
Selsa looked at Renald full of requests so that the man does not provoke Fabian's emotions, “Renald please take care of you, Fabian also controls your emotions. We can talk about everything well!”
“You're the stupid girl I've met Selsa. Already knew Fabian was only using you, using your body, because all this time your lover also loved Nadia. They love each other, so why do you still survive?” the cry of Renald that was increasingly inviting Fabian's emotions.
“Fucking asshole, I'll kill you right now.”
Selsa clasped Fabian's hand tightly, staring at Fabian full of supplication, “Fabian stop, Fabian control your emotions I beg.”
“He has insulted you Sa, I do not accept.”
“Already let it go, back sit.”
Fabian sat down next to Selsa again, facing each other with Renald who showed his skewed sneyum. Damn it, Fabian's heart was very hot and his emotions were burning right now.
“Whatever you say Renald, but let's make a deal.”
“What deal?”
“Married Nadia, you have to take responsibility for having impregnated her!” obviously Selsa was slow.
“Originally you were one night in my bed.”
“Truly test me this one bastard, step over my corpse before you ask for it. Selsa I'll never leave it to a bastard like you.”
Fabian was impatient to finish off Renald without mercy. Renald had to be taught to know himself and not himself.
“Release Fabian!”
“But Sa,”
Selsa's soft smile showed, “Let go!” said smooth.
“Once your love for this woman Fab? He said deal, I want to marry Nadia from Selsa one night with me.”
The blow came back to Renald. Fabian unmitigatedly hit the face of Renald many times and stomped on the stomach of Renald mercilessly, he would not let this brash man escape his grasp, had impregnated Nadia and now he wanted to harass Selsa, for whatever sake this one bastard deserves in the bumihanguskan.
Intending to separate the increasingly emotional Fabian, Selsa stepped up quickly to find the already helpless Renald beaten Fabian like that. His tiny hand pulled Fabian who was still beating Renald, still unable to separate. Bodyguard is also where, it looks like Selsa is still looking but now there is nothing, and when Fabian wants to throw an accidental fist on Selsa's face until the woman bounces and grimaces in pain. Fabian stops the action, surprised to find Selsa who fell not far from him, until the man's step stops right in front of Selsa.
“Sa u-Sa sorry-Sa” A hug she gave to Fabian whose breath was panting.
“Not that I've said that you can't be emotional?” whispered Selsa slowly, although not denying the corner of his lips bleeding and maybe his cheeks will be bruised because of the fairly hard tonjokan. Selsa ignored the pain, still hugging Fabian until he felt the man was a little calm.
The stupid bodyguard had just returned to bring mineral water, Selsa who saw that told Fabian to take him away for a while. Selsa wants to be given space to be more free to talk to Renald, in this situation, there should be no emotion if you want the problem to be solved quickly.
“It's okay Fabian, take it easy! Renald wouldn't dare mess with me, look at his condition like that.”
Without another babibu bodyguard brought Fabian aside for a while, changing Selsa who approached Renald who was still lying there. The woman helped Renald stand up and sit on one of the wooden chairs there.
“Re I don't want to mince words. Nadia your lover, impregnating Nadia is your responsibility. I shouldn't have intervened this deep either, but seeing Fabian as if it was trying to land Nadia pregnant so I intend to help her. Please at least meet Nadia, calm her Re.”
“What is your business with me?” ketus tanyanya.
“Me and Nadia are both women. Equally fragile when it comes to the heart, you love Nadia right?” no emotions or anything, Selsa spoke softly there.
His hand rubbed Renald's shoulder slowly, “Love Nadia right Re? I'm sure you love Nadia more than Fabian loves Nadia.”.
“Yes I love him.” his whispers are full of emphasis.
“If you love her, please meet Nadia. Very very helpful, because until now Nadia did not want to be met by anyone including Fabian. His soul shaken Re,”
“I can't Selsa, I can't for now.” to be honest which makes Selsa frown.
“Can't Re. I know you are the man in charge, Nadia is right to choose you, for that never disappoint any party. Nadia is hoping for more on Renald,”
Renald looked at Selsa grudgingly, “He loves your lover Sa, he does not love me.” softly despair.
“If you are sincere, if you are not demanding much, you can accept it. Re even I never cared if Fabian loved Nadia, if indeed you love Nadia ya try to fight. Try to slowly tap Nadia's heart, all need process,”
“Where is the hospital address?”
“You are in Fabian's car?” bargain Selsa.
“No need, I don't want one car with Fabian. Just send me the address.” reject it hard.
Selsa thrust her phone at Renald, “Then save your number, I'll send it.”
Renald's finger was forced to press several digits above the screen in a few inches. Pressing the save button and returning the phone to Selsa the man repeatedly wiped away some freshly raised blood on his face. Also the bitter pain felt since earlier, it was beaten by people not as beautiful as those in the drama he had seen. It's actually this painful.
"Would I treat you for a second?" Selsa Rose.
"No, I don't want Fabian to hit me again because you're treating me." Reject Renald, again.
"It's not hard to treat you Re, Fabian won't be angry." Selsa.
Renald shook his head refusing, staring briefly at the wound on Selsa's cheek, "It's not necessary. Just take care of the wound on your cheek, and for what I said earlier I'm sorry. I didn't mean to talk to you like that." He said he was sorry.
"I know, I don't think it's real either. Especially with you and Fabian in the same emotional state."
"Thank you Sa."
"Together."
After that Selsa chose to leave Renald who was still silent there. Looking for Fabian's whereabouts, he found the man standing in front of his car with a hand that rubbed bruises on his face several times.
His steps widened towards Fabian, his smile was broken and his heart was a little relieved. Unlike Fabian who still shows his sour face.
"It's over, let's go home."
"You accepted Renald's offer?" Fabian asked flatly.
His hand held Fabian's arm but the man again stopped his steps, "Don't worry, I won't accept the offer. Besides he's in Fab's emotional state, don't take the heart of his words."
"Don't be taken heart how, his face alone seriously how not taken heart?"
"Have been quiet, let's go home. I treated your bruised face."
Fabian again remembered the blow earlier. His hand prevented Selsa from stepping up, noting that Selsa's cheeks were flushed red and likely to turn blue.
"Sa this must be very painful, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it." He said with a hand that rubbed Selsa's cheek slowly.
Selsa grimaced as the big hand rubbed her face, "It's okay Fab. Let's go home, but before that please buy me a ramjak that's near your apartment."
"Renald didn't do anything to you, did he? Why are you the one who's nyidam?"
Fabian turned his back on Selsa's orders, instead of Nadia getting pregnant, but why would Selsa want to run?
"I can't get pregnant, so Fab stopped your stupidity."
"Yayaya well Nyai."