My (Ex) Boyfriend's
Fifty Five

"Why come see me?"

"I'll explain something, can we sit down for a minute?"

Samuel relents to Fabian, this is for Selsa's happiness, the man is ready to apologize even though he does not know where he is wrong. Taking just a few kilos and taking nearly an hour, Samuel gets Fabian's new address. The house is not so big and may only fit a few people.

Now sitting on a worn-out wooden chair, with two glasses of water in front of him, Samuel looked at Fabian's condition with jelly. It was very alarming and different from the one I met last time.

"Before I met you to apologize, forgive me for the incident at the restaurant at that time." A little lazy actually Samuel said that.

"Just get to the core, what's it going to do with me and what do you mean." Fabian said ketus.

Samuel knew very well that his presence was not at all desired by Fabian, considering that the man had half-deadly hated him for knowing that Samuel was Selsa's future husband, "I know you still love Selsa, I know you still love Selsa, even I know you were so depressed abandoned by Selsa. This is not what I mean to interfere with or what, according to the story from Selsa I heard, your attitude that kept Selsa away, right?"

"It's none of your business." The answer Samuel did not want.

"If you are still strong with your selfishness, until whenever Selsa will not return. Relationships are built not just about loving and being loved, but trusting and trusting, being open to each other and complementary. Not to patronize, I am also still a layman, please change all your behavior that makes Selsa uncomfortable." As much as possible Samuel said quietly and did not offend Fabian's side.

"not comfortable? Which part is uncomfortable? I gave it all to that woman." Fabian looked at Samuel with anger and dislike.

Samuel grimaced with a completely sweatless forehead, "Maybe it's true what Selsa said if you're Tempramental, often fickle involuntarily, yesterday begged Vano to be reunited with Selsa and now just say his name reluctantly. You never gave it all Fabian,"

"If meeting me just to give me some unimportant hospitality, it's better to just leave! Know where the exit is, right?" throw it away without listening anymore.

"Turn down your prestige today, you don't want to ask me where Selsa is? Or are you begging me to bring you to Selsa? I'll answer it easily as long as one thing."

Fabian screeched dislikes, reluctant to look at Samuel who he thought felt the hotshot and felt the truest. Moreover, the confession of Selsa who said the man before her husband's salon Selsa, anger and emotion immediately soared high.

"Never provoke my emotions, go!" push Fabian over again.

"You'll regret not listening to me, sure you told me to leave?"

"Go now!"

Samuel stood tidying up his slightly bent work coat, doing another body language for a little longer here, so Fabian prevented it and asked where Selsa was. Samuel wanted Fabian to take down such a big ego and listen to his little heart, if the man needed Selsa just that.

"Alright," Samuel broke up and turned around, walking slowly away from Fabian's residence.

Precisely not a feeling of comfort and relief, Fabian increasingly thought with the talk of Samuel. Time and time again using his brain to think healthy and not rash, but still can't, Selsa duaniya and it will not change until anytime.

Spreading his gaze to Samuel who was further away from the grounds of his small house, Fabian moved up and ran from there. To Samuel who was about to drive his car, "Where?"

Samuel's triumphant smile appeared, before turning back, Samuel's many times of thanksgiving was not heard clearly.

"Ah yes curious as well," she said amusingly, "say the sincere and courteous Fab!" his word turned to look at Fabian who was whining bitterly.

Fabian growled in his place, turning his bent face into a forced smile, "Where's Selsa?" tanyanya.

"I'll tell you, as long as you promise me one thing."

Fabian clucked back, "What?" samuel continued to buy time and said nothing about Selsa.

"Take care and never let Selsa down again, for whatever reason."

God fucking. "Yes." Yeah."

"Airport, now."

"W-what?" his shock turned in disbelief.

Samuel watched the clock on his wrist and turned to Fabian, "Don't ask much, the plane takes off in fifteen minutes."

"Then I'm going to the airport now."

"Wait," prevent it fast, "Well to the airport use what? you won't be allowed in to see Selsa if you don't have a ticket."

The screams held back when Fabian realized it, his breathing sounded frustrated but was again relieved because Samuel thrust a complete file in front of him. A smile full of sincerity and gratitude could not be hidden, Fabian repeatedly thanked Samuel.

"Get in the car now, I'll drive you to the airport."

Selsa wait for me!

...---...

His heart could not stop to not fret, his net of confusion was either looking for what, his lips murmuring indistinctly with their hands clinging to each other nervously. It is hard to leave Indonesia and return to London like a few years ago, maybe it is not finished and there are still some left, he said, even the two people with one holding the baby had several times asked about his slightly chaotic condition and were more worried about something.

It's almost time he'll be flying to London, about ten minutes away, but still his super-awesome look can't be hidden. In his heart he wondered what was really going on with himself, why he always wished for someone who did not know and would never come to see him.

"If you're still not sure, you can cancel this and stay at my house."

Selsa stammered Mina's statement, her head shaking with a forced smile, "No, I'll stay with you to London." Pasrah's answer.

"What's really going on with you? Why did this story leave Indonesia?" ask Vano.

Mina asks Vano to hold Alnira for a while, the woman sits next to Selsa who is still crying. Swiped Selsa's shoulder a few times, "Ststst!! Sa don't cry!" whispered slowly.

But Selsa did not budge, still as much as with two hands that cover his face tightly.

"If it's hard to leave Fabian, it's okay, I'll go with Vano and Alnira. Really, I'm getting sad to see you like this."

The crying was so great, not out of sight of the people around him, Selsa did not care. Even his lips had trouble saying anything, his chest was so tight and he no longer knew what to do. It felt like Selsa wanted to maybe end everything Fabian was concerned about, but how else, his heart couldn't lie and still wanted that jerk.

"Mi-Mina" Selsa said as her hand was removed from her face.

"I'm sorry if my decision and Vano made you sadder and worse, we just want to see you happy Sa."

"Mina I love Fabian," she hugged Mina.

Mina rubbed Selsa's back slowly, calming Selsa down to stop crying. But as if the results were in vain, Selsa was still as willful.

"B-but if I don't go, my life will continue like this." Selsa lamented in the middle of her cries.

"You've only got a few minutes left with me or back at Fabian."

Selsa let go of his embrace, wiped away the tears that had flowed without being asked, took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. Repeated several times until his chest is gone, the very forced smile rises, "Sorry I was released, I will still come with you to London." Slowly speaking.

"Don't be forced, I don't like it when you're still there." Sambar Vano makes Selsa bad.

Selsa stood up from his place, "Let's get the plane going in a minute." Invite him accompanied by a smile that Vano knows it's so forced.

Vano and Mina just followed, but before that he let Selsa stop there for a moment. Turning his head to see what was behind the woman, again the owner of the name Selsa could not stop the pace of her tears. His hands clenched tightly, but briefly, Selsa wiped them off quickly.

His feet stepped slowly, until two perfect steps he walked, his hands firmly blocked from behind. His body responded with a surprised nape, until he looked down and saw a hand holding him from behind, closing his body and resting his head on Selsa's shoulders.

All Selsa felt was his shoulders wet, because Selsa knew who the human behind him was. Unwilling to retaliate by holding the hand of the man behind her, Selsa fell silent because she was so shocked, coupled with tears that she did not want to stop.

"Don't go," he said after giving the hug out of the blue.

Selsa turned her body, staring fully at Fabian who was looking down in front of her. The man looked very messy, thinner than the last one he met, and Selsa saw the thickened eye bags.

"Sorry, I have to go Fab."

Fabian raised his gaze, shook his head resignedly, his hands tightly grasping Selsa's two hands, "No! Don't go, please! Stay with me!" door begged.

Selsa was no longer able to hold his stuffing, smothering his own lips firmly, crying over Fabian who was so stifling his chest.

"If we are meant to be together, God always has the best way forward."

Fabian threw Selsa's hand in disappointment, "Why are you selfish? Why did you leave me again Sa? Why did you let me suffer again for the umpteenth time, why? You shouldn't have come from long ago, you shouldn't have come to see me and come back to make me fall in love if you finally leave a wound this deep." cried Fabian right in front of Selsa's face.

No, this is not what Selsa meant. Selsa shook her head not understanding, grabbed onto Fabian's shoulder and hugged the man who looked like a man of infidelity. His embrace was so tight, as if unwilling to be let go, both of them were both crying. Likewise Fabian memabals his embrace is no less tight.

"I beg you not to be like this" said Selsa.

"Please give me a chance, just once, and I promise I won't let you down." Petanya.

Selsa did not touch Fabian's words at all, still hugging the man tightly by remembering where they both seemed fine.

"Thank you, back in school and yesterday, Fab I've been pretty happy. Despite our ever-bickering encounters, deep down I still hold a taste for you."

"Then stay here, never leave me." Answer Fabian quickly.

"No way, I'll still go. Just get here, I don't want to let a lot of people down and get hurt." Tandas Selsa.

"With your attitude like this it also makes me disappointed and hurt Sa."

Selsa's laughter showed, "I never thought that you could meet me in this place, for the last one, please be happy Fabian. Forget everything and open a new life for the future." Pinta Selsa wholeheartedly.

"Never tell me Sa, never! I won't be able to! Please, I implore you to stay here with me."

"Stay asleep on time and eat well. Just so you know, your body looks thinner, your eye bags get thicker and your face shows fatigue. Don't work that hard if I don't have Fab,"

"Then from that I need you Sa, I need you to warn me and take care of me."

Selsa let go of his embrace, smiling, though it is undeniable that the tears are still racing to fall. His hand turned to rub Fabian's cheeks increasingly taper, "Take care of yourself, I'll go first."

"Selsa," Fabian shrieks as Selsa turns her around and intends to leave her.

Selsa stop.

He looked back at Fabian for a while, then took a step towards Fabian, right in front of the man. With her legs slightly tore, Selsa pressed her lips right on Fabian's lips, initially just for a moment. Before Fabian again held his jaw and gave some pagutans that will never be forgotten. Fabian was angry and disappointed and all felt there simultaneously, venting with his increasingly demanding appearance on Selsa, Fabian did not care if his reputation was getting worse in the eyes of others. his happiness is number one.

Until a voice interrupts and Selsa automatically releases his pagutan unilaterally. Both breaths were still puffed up, but Fabian had the opportunity to kiss the forehead for a long time. Before actually leaving, Selsa also took the time to kiss Fabian's cheeks, displaying a smile made very sincere and sincerizing, Selsa wanted Fabian also not to linger in grief. His hand was also raised rubbing Fabian's hair a few times and after that completely went from the presence of Fabian. Leaving Fabian very hurt, disappointed and also half-dead sorry. The man's body decays when Selsa completely disappears from his sight, crying over Selsa who is of no use at all because Selsa will never return.

This is a new lesson for him, leaving a very dear person is not an easy thing. Too trivial, Fabian will try as much as possible to be strong and survive in the absence of Selsa by his side. Although his heart still does not accept, Fabian will always remember Selsa's words, if God always has the best way for both. Fabian believes Selsa is only for him, and from that Fabian will bide his time right, he does not care how long. As long as Selsa is back, Fabian is ready.