My Life Diary
13. Don't Camp my Past

Early in the morning I planned to go home to my husband, even though my husband did not pick me up, but my father and mother were very worried and forbade me to go home alone, he asked me to send a message to my husband so that my husband would bring him home himself. I also want to meet my husband because there are things they want to talk to my husband about. Maybe it's important with my seven-monthly pregnancy.

My father's request was very much indicated, I sent an SMS to my husband.

"Assalamualaikum.bang ..today Muly plans to go home, but you really want to meet directly with Abang, said the father there are important things to talk to Abang, Abang, do you have time to come here?. Muly please bang..🙏🙏. Wassalam

I very carefully asked via SMS so as not to misunderstand.

after I finished writing directly I sent and I waited for a while, yes sms successfully sent, just wait for a reply.

Ting....reply sms in.

" Yes "brief answer from bang man.okay not why the most important one has agreed.

The next day my husband kept his promise to come pick me up and meet my father.

It looks like my father and husband are sitting on the hall in front of the house facing each other while occasionally bang man nods - nodding his head seems to agree with all the words of the father.

" Bang .. drink first" I said as I served a glass of sweet tea.

" Yes, thank you, Deck we go home this afternoon yes, adek get ready to continue to leave again we leave.

That afternoon my husband and I went home away from my parents, a journey that took me a few hours to make me very tired.

To relieve our fatigue we rest for a while at SPBU Pertamina, before leaving do not forget my husband filled the gasoline motor that must queue with several other motorcycles.

Suddenly.......!

"Dad...dad! mother is father". The voice of a child with his mother from the last motorcycle queue.

I looked back to see the little boy pointing - pointing his hand and calling "Father" to my husband.but my husband seemed to ignore the call, did he not listen.

" Bang..why does the child call the brother by the name of father, what is the son of the brother yes" I asked.

" Maybe it's the wrong person, you don't know the kid". Answer the bang man with a rush to turn on his motorbike.

"But brother once told me that brother had married and had children, maybe that was his son Brother" I said.

" You don't worry, that's my past don't you reveal it again, this brother remember once again yeah don't you ever interfere in my brother's past, just go through the time of both of us" a very strong answer from my husband.

It's been I don't want to fuss on the bike, if there is a child from his past has been the responsibility of my husband, why I'm hard to think about it.

Upon arrival at home it began to darken, after bathing I immediately pray Maghrib and change clothes with a new negligee bought by my mother.

" New clothes ? ask bang man. "Where do you buy clothes, don't - don't be adek nyuri brother's money"? with a rather high tone.

" Muly didn't buy a bang at mom's love.

" OOO.adek ngadu same mother yes if all this time brother ngak ever bought clothes for adek". "No bang.adek never told me about our household, Brother do not misunderstand first, this shirt is just a gift for my pregnancy.

The vow! I never saw this angry man bang his eyes bulged his hands with his waist, like a trance

" Remember yes! most brothers do not like to see people complaining".dum.

" O God my husband has changed now has become angry and misunderstood" I said in my heart

That night I was alone at home, fortunately my mother had packed food for me this afternoon, so tonight I am not hungry.

It was late at night but my husband didn't come home, until I fell asleep.

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The next morning I woke up bad luck, "it turns out my husband bang man didn't come home from last night, was he angry? keep sleeping where last night was".

" Is it possible that my husband has now gone to the garden? I'll call you back later in the afternoon".

Today I myself clean the house to draw water, sweat, wash dirty clothes that as long as I am not my house never seems to be purified so piled up like this. Usually this kind of work I can't do I'm put together but not with today I'm like a maid.

" Aaaahhhhh, so tired today while lying on the bed and staring at the ceiling of the house, how is my fate ahead? I remember again with the little boy who I was wondering yesterday who that child could be - he could call my husband's father, this must be his son bang man, he said, bang man Khan had married before becoming a widower" I murmured in my heart with curiosity.

By late afternoon there was a motorbike from outside the house like there was a guest, rushed me up and opened the door.

Eh turns!

Bang man has come home with a new bike, who has the bike ? I asked in my heart.

" Have gone home bang" I asked while holding his hands shaking hands.

Bang man did not answer, he handed me his groceries and went into the room to pick up a towel and rushed to take a bath.

I was silent to see his cold attitude what a hard thing he answered "yes" doang, bearti bang man really - really still angry at me.

I brought the kitchen groceries and I opened the parcel, Wow, as usual do not forget the fried rice roasted chicken and that made me touched still had time he bought rujak for me, this is what I crave from yesterday I can know when I dare not say that I crave rujak.

"Dek ..siapin brother eat yes". Say bang man who finished bathing.

" Yes bang "!

I opened the packet of fried rice and opened it into the living room.

"it's bang"! I said while sitting next to the bang man

" and ..! sorry Muly yes," I said while the hand bang man.

" Why ?Do you know where it's wrong" ?

" Yes ..adek is too involved in my brother's past, I can't tell other people about our household" I explained to my husband, though I never told anyone about my household including to my father and mother, but what could make me forced to give up for the sake of the harmony of my household.

" Sorry brother, do not repeat next time yes".

I smiled while hugging my husband.

" Oh yeah bang .that's who's new bike" .

" Yes have a brother, brother ngak pede again ride the bike in the tail of Ina, brother bought the bike money loan from the boss in the garden, each month brother's salary will be cut by 30 percent, so we have to save - save the deck".

" Yes ngak papa bang". answered me. because I do not want to make a fuss again forced me to give up aja, aja, after all all this time all my household needs husband who boughtin I never loved a dime handle money shopping.

Oh yes I just remember money brother Ina kasih kemaren ngak I pack, I put where yes, yesterday I slip in my small bag.

" Bang ..bentare ya go to the room first", said me while releasing a hug and wake up into the room directly I searched my little bag, wahh it was still there money, wahh it was still, this money I have to hide if I can't runyam later, I guess I stole the money bang man again. I quickly hid the money behind the folds of my clothes.

" yes .. It looks like it's safe"

" What's the deck"? bang man from outside

" Not bang! adek look for hp not know where adek put it earlier" answered me a little lie for good.

" So hp adek like her on the kitchen table deh, try adek clay"

" oh yeah bang"! hurry up and I'll go to the kitchen, "thank you bang".

Seriate...