My Life Diary
36. Hemorrhaging

It did not feel like the days and months were passing so fast, my gestational age had entered thirty-eight weeks, this was the birth of my second child just counting the days.

About my son, now that Amira has learned to walk, she is so active that I am getting tired and overwhelmed to take care of her alone.

About my husband, he very rarely came home with the reason often load oil palm to Medan, since bang man is believed by palm oil as kernet bang man was rarely home, too, has rarely come home, three or four times a week or twice to go home.

Not bang man does not know my gestational age, instead he is more active in finding the money he said to make his children later.

" If you later want to give birth to a brother does not go home, you call me to this number yes" said bang man before going to Medan.

I took the paper from the hand of bang man, when I opened it turns out that the paper was written two hp numbers.

" This is whose number is bang?"

" Don't ask a lot, anyway later if the mother gave birth suddenly, just call the number, she can definitely help the mother."

" Yes!"

I folded the paper back and kept it behind the hp casing.

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Two days later.......

This morning, my activity was like it could, before Amira woke up I had prepared breakfast, all the dishes and dirty clothes I washed, including sweeping all the dust inside and outside the house.

This morning the weather was so sunny, very supportive for my clothesline is very much, understand me two days lately I was busy ironing baby equipment for my delivery later, so I couldn't wash anymore, so the laundry piled up.

" Amira..!, are you awake, son?" I said seeing Amira already standing at the door, she was able to get off the bed herself.

I took Amira to take a bath, along with me, then I fed Amira a meal while I also followed the meal.

This is my fate if living away from parents and husbands rarely come home, there is nothing we can expect, all must be alone, sometimes I cry alone, the weight of life that I have to go through.

Suddenly my stomach hurt so much, it seemed like I had to go to the bathroom immediately, I carried Amira and brought her into the bathroom, she said, I was afraid to leave Amira alone inside the house while the bathroom was outside the house.

Once I rushed to the bathroom, when I came back I found Amira again eating cockroaches. Learning from the experience so, now wherever I go I must take Amira.

It seems I have diarrhea, this must be the cause this morning eating fried rice.

My stomach is still mules, has twice back and forth to the bathroom but still mules too.

Do I want to give birth? but giving birth to Amira my sore waist is not a mules stomach.

Suddenly my stomach grew mules, I released Amira in my arms, I tried to sit on the chair.

I haven't had time to sit on my ass in the chair, suddenly I let out clear colored water, yes it looks like amniotic fluid.

I took that water by hand, I smelled no urine, this is definitely amniotic fluid.

I got panicked, I called the phone number that bang man gave no one lift.

How'this?

Aauuu...auu..! my stomach's getting mules, I'm going to give birth.

Auuuu ..auuu.

Suddenly the blood came out, I panicked how if the baby came out.

Seeing that I was pioneering in pain, Amira also cried.

I pushed long and suddenly a tiny baby came out of my womb.

" Please..help me." I shouted for help.

I watched for myself the baby came out with the umbilical cord still connected to the ari-ari.

The more blood flowed, the more limp I approached the baby who was crying so hard, Amira was still crying near me.

My body was soaked with blood, I was drooping, my eyes were twitching, it occurred to me, maybe it was time to pick me up. Deep down, I still had time to ask God for a chance to live to see and take care of my children.

The sound of hp rang many times, but I who was lying down could not get up again.

My eyes were getting darker, the blood coming out was still felt, the sound of the cries of my two children was still strong heard in my ears.

I heard voices of men and women from outside.

" Hurry, call an ambulance at the health center, this mother must be taken to the hospital immediately, otherwise this mother does not survive, the bleeding is more and more out."

" Ibu..mom...mom.." The voice of the call was getting farther.

The longer I heard nothing, the more I slept like a sleeping person.

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