My Life Diary
42. Disillusioned

After that incident, I survived working as Fazil's shuttle worker for about three months. Sari's jealousy towards me became even more so when Bang Faiz asked me to deliver him. My patience lasted only four months, until I finally decided to quit Fazil's ojek. Now I don't know how the Faiz bang is. After the employment contract period of Bang Faiz expired, then they moved.

That afternoon I reopened the FB that I had left behind, there were many notices that I had not read. One by one I looked carefully, through my eyes a man who was following Fb asked for friendship. That man I know very well he is Bang Faiz.

If the soul mate will not go where, my mind!. With my index finger I pressed the confirmation button and before long appeared the messenger balloon from the Faiz bang.

"Faiz: What, how are you?"

"Muly: Well, Bang Faiz is healthy?"

" Faiz: Healthy, Deck but his heart is less healthy."

" Muly: What is the pain of Bang Faiz?"

"Faiz: My brother recently divorced from Sari. He asked for a divorce because he could not live poor, now Abang just work as a sand truck driver, Sari's small income does not want to live with Brother anymore."

So long did Faiz pour out his heart, that I became a good listener and encouraged life again. Since then me and the Faiz bang very often Facebook right until I finally found a lot of matches from the Faiz bang, so that the Faiz bang had dared to call me 'Mama' and I call the Faiz bang 'Papi'. My heart is very flowery maybe this is the name of the second time I fell in love, but I was wondering if maybe the Faiz bang also fell in love with me? there was doubt in my heart. Bang Faiz was very handsome, his skin was white again, while I had a brown skin like the earth and the sky.

" Alah, Sis mate does not look at the appearance, what is important is that now Brother just focus on this relationship, after all Brother never told you, that the figure of bang Faiz is the man of his dreams Kak Muly." Fatma's opinion is there a point also I have to live first, until later to be taken where this relationship?.

For three months, Faiz and I were in touch with each other through Facebook, until one day Faiz asked me to make a deal.

" Dek, you want to be serious?" The expression Bang Faiz when in a tourist spot.

After I officially became Bang Faiz's wife, I was not allowed to work anymore. Bang Faiz banged bones to make a living for all of us. Alhamdulillah sustenance was smooth so that I could rehabilitate the old house of the father for us to occupy. Now I am happy even though I am just a housewife.

A few months later I was pregnant with the first child with the Faiz bang, since then the Faiz bang has been more active in finding money, sometimes the Faiz bang has begun to rarely go home for the reason of being busy again.

" Bang, where's your brother now?, why don't you go home?" I asked the third night of Faiz's bang not coming home.

" Mom's brother, Dek!."

" Money shopping no longer exists, do not know who to owe the same."

" Begging Mom first, you'll change later."

Since I didn't work, I always owed my mother, often even Fatma.

I don't know what else to do, I think I should do something.

Bang Faiz doesn't come home often, I'd better have to find a side job during Faiz's bang work. I turned again to my work which used to be a worker in the rice field, although it feels hard to work again pregnant but I have to be patient and resistant.

Just five months I was married to Bang Faiz, it has been heard that bang Faiz has been referring again to his ex-wife with the same reason for pity his children. He may turn away from me again, I am betrayed a second time, but I will not be silent I must be reckless and take a stand, I won't let go of Faiz's bang and I won't ask for a divorce. Let me know what people say about me. I have been consumed by love and good looks bang Faiz so betrayed even I do not feel anymore.