My Love Is Just For You
Heartsickness

A SREEKK!

Ermi shifted the maroon curtains that closed the window. Slowly the morning sunlight began to penetrate the sliding glass door adjacent to the bed Hind to tickle the eyes of Hind who was still closed did not want to leave the world of dream contest.

"Wake up Hind, it's nine in the morning."

"Ermi is soon to be, "" He seemed to be unable to get back to the real world while pulling a blanket to cover his entire body curled up and returned to the invisible realm. "I still need to sleep because while on the plane can not sleep at all..."

"Well, I'll stay a while to shop at the nearest minimarket, if you wake up later and feel hungry, you can make something out of the ingredients in the fridge and in my kitchen, there's bread, jam and even chicken briyani, you just heat it in the oven.

"Okay..," he answered weakly and went back to sleep. During the trip from Jakarta to Dubai which takes approximately 8.5 hours, Hind feeling not calm. This was the first time he had ever felt going abroad in long hours without being able to sleep at all. What is it? So tense and anxious will he meet his heart? Is it because he has not been in a special relationship with the opposite sex for long enough so he is nervous and worried and becomes a little hesitant about the steps he took to go to Dubai with the intention of meeting M?  Honestly, he hoped M would pick him up at the airport. But it seems impossible because the airport is a public area while M is a respected person there and will certainly attract the attention of those around him. Just imagining it feels like a dream too beautiful to be real. He himself was inexhaustible, how could he be this close to the man who incidentally is one of the important people in this Dubai city? Is he worth it? This does not mean that he is not confident, just has a special closeness like this as a dream. Or maybe this is just a dream that is stripped of the empty feeling of being lived so that it unconsciously gives an invisible gap that touches the recesses of his heart that he has been protecting so as not to be hurt again?

He wanted to turn back his footsteps that had stepped on Dubai International Airport to return to Indonesia. The midnight cold so pricked his skin that the nervousness combined with the fear of being absorbed in the soul. But what power, he had already promised Ermi to accompany him for a week in Dubai and of course because the return ticket he had bought would be able to bring him back to his homeland after a week here. He tried to strengthen his heart if later the feeling of disappointment in the dark and incised the wound when his hope of meeting M did not become real because every time they communicate, they do not, he realized the man was a very dedicated person at his job. And he also realized that he had experienced a lot of sour salt disappointment.

Slowly he passed through the gate of the visa and passport check queue to then take the suitcase he landed with a plane that had taken him to fly to this Middle Eastern Singapore-flavored city. After convincing no one was left behind, she headed for a taxi reservation that would take her to the apartment where Ermi and her husband lived with the address Ermi had sent before she left here.

"Geez..., you still haven't woken up yet, Hind?! It's almost noon!" Ermi could not bear to see his cousin was still asleep like a dead person after he stayed to shop before returning. He pulls the bedcover that covers Hind's entire body and pulls one of his hands. "Well get up and shower! I will make you a cup of milk coffee so that your life can be quickly collected again. Don't follow your body for too long in bed!"

"Come on Ermi, be kind to me for today only, let me satisfy myself by sleeping on your kapok island in a moment." replied Hind lunglai while hugging a pillow. "I'm not praying either..."

"Can't!" Ermi pushes Hind's body still trying to gather energy to return to the real world towards the bathroom. "Let's take a shower! Because I'm gonna take you to meet my brother-in-law and his son and then we'll take a walk to Kite Beach. I'm sure the contents of your head full of medical things will be a little enlightened with the atmosphere there that is soothing and pleasant."

"Yes.iya." Hind chose to give up and take the clothes from his suitcase and the towel he had used before going to bed last night and then headed to the bathroom. He turned the shower and set it into warm water filling the available bathtub. While waiting for the water in the bathtub full, he looked at the glass toilet in front of him. His face turned slightly sad and disappointed. The Direct Message he sent to M to inform him that he had arrived in Dubai was read only by the man. Not usually M just read the message without replying to anything. Just the first day he was here M had disappointed him, especially for a week here later? No-no, he convinced himself maybe the man was tired enough with his activities yesterday so he could only read it without having time to reply.

Hind took a deep breath to give the opportunity for oxygen to fill his chest cavity that had been congested. He patted both cheeks to the redness to give the morning spirit for today. Come on Hind spirit, don't let yourself not be able to enjoy your hard-earned annual vacation!

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Mohammed shut his mouth in amazement over the video and photo of Hind being taken by one of the bodyguards he had sent to follow Hind from the plane to the girl's temporary residence. His smile did not stop. How real the girl was was the same as what had been posted on her Hexagram account. No, the girl's flagship smartphone camera lens for selfies and posting them on the account cannot match the sophistication of her bodyguard's tools. The girl was really beautiful and had a very beautiful aura and made her not want to blink to keep looking at her. Is it possible that an angel was sent down to Earth by the Almighty and sucked up all the pairs of eyes that passed by him?

"You haven't slept M?" The pat on Mohammed's shoulder surprised him who was dissolved in daydream while staring at the silver laptop with the logo of an apple bitten in front of him in the dim light of his work room at home.

"Why? Are you afraid that Baba or Mama will learn of the behavior of her youngest child who has a hobby of stalking a girl?" Maktoum turned to Mohammed's laptop. "Is that the girl who has been making you over posting selfies and activities on your social media so that it threatens your own safety?"

"Come on, like you've never been in love..." Mohammed's complaint does not accept the words of insinuation for him.

"May your taste, too" Maktoum observed every video and photo of Hind one by one. "At least it wasn't in vain that you were determined to cancel your engagement to Latifa five years ago."

"Sister..," Mohammed's face turned sad every time he remembered his former fiance who had been unilaterally aborted by him until his heart was broken and died in a car accident on the highway. Not only that, he received condemnation and blasphemy from Latifa's parents and raised the possibility that his arbitrary behavior was the jealousy of his mother who was not from the noble family of the top Dubai officials. Just remember that he had felt disobedient to the Mother even though many times his mother said it was okay because she wanted her children to live happily with their own path and destiny without any coercion. Her mother always said that she was grateful to be given the trust and responsibility of having three amazing children like Maktoum, Kireina, and herself.

"He came here?!" Maktoum was a little unconvinced of what he saw.

"Yes, it seems like he wanted to surprise me as my birthday gift and vacation for a week to his cousin who apparently lives here. I intend to meet him given his struggle to come here."

"You sure you can see him?"

"What do you mean by Maktoum?"

Maktoum sighed and handed him a schedule of work for the next week. "You see for yourself."

"This..," Mohammed was stunned to see the tasks that awaited him for the next week.

"I consider you to be an adult and can put important things first for the progress of this city and country" Maktoum said firmly. "And remember, you're no ordinary person who can go anywhere without protocol and strict escort. You're Deputy Ruler Dubai M!"

BLAM!

Maktoum left Mohammed alone in silence. He is not a selfish brother, but his younger brother is his favorite brother who should not be careless in acting anything especially his reputation as a representative of the younger generation in Dubai so that he must always maintain his good name and not cause a scandal so tarnish the names of his parents who had educated them with all their might until they became able to stand upright as they are today.

"I must how...,” Both of Mohammed's hands trembled while staring at the tasks that awaited before him. Imagining the face of Hind who would be disappointed if not able to meet him alone has made his heart pinched sore and sick..., however, he had to rack his brain to be able to set his schedule in such a way that he could meet the idol of his heart.

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