My Love Is Just For You
Urge Certainty

"I don't need words but I need concrete action. Can you do it? I think my patience with your waiting is at the end of the line, can't you understand?"

Mohammed was again made a question mark by his lover. The message he sent three days ago did not receive a response or answer. What's up this time? As always, as always, he gave a lot of code to Hind from Hexastory that he posted for the girl to respond because it was quite successful in making Hind who sometimes lazy to reply to M messages in Direct Message back to his head. But this time his feelings said something else. Juma's words affect and haunt him enough to create prejudice.

Shortly a much-anticipated message from Hind entered into my Hexagram. Once Hind did not heed his post but immediately sent a message for him?

M, I have something to talk to you about

You said that whatever I wanted had to tell you

I just want you to answer my question

Until when should I wait for you to pick me up and we can be together in a sacred, halal bond?

While this agonizing feeling of longing is in dire need of tremendous energy and I can only prostrate and cry for forgiveness from the Almighty if I am unable to endure it

Is it hard to answer my question?

While I've prepared myself for the worst case scenario for your answer later

If you think I'm selfish, that's okay

If you think I'm impatient, that's okay

I'm tired of waiting...

I just want a certainty so I can move forward into the future

Leave you or stay with you

Can you answer my question now?

Surely the assumption! There must have been something that prompted Hind to send a stern message like this. Perhaps it is better for her to be quiet at this time because as before, Hind's emotions are unstable every time she asks the same question. Actually, the girl once asked the same question when their relationship had stepped on a year together. But with beautiful words full of promise successfully muted.

If you don't want to answer my question, what if I decide for myself that your silence is your answer to ending everything about our relationship?

This cannot be silenced! inwardly Mohammed, not yet had he replied to Hind's message earlier, the girl sent him a new message. With a slight offence he replied to a message from Hind.

Do you know the impact of your request to make that unilateral decision on the both of us? You and I could both be ruined...

Not long Hind immediately replied to a message from M. Either way he has to solve this problem. On the other hand, he does not want to be a child of disobedience because he is one of the tickets of both parents to get the best and most beautiful place from the Almighty, the Almighty, on the other hand, he loved that man very much. How not, many times he wanted to leave the man, many times also he finally returned to him. But this time his determination was unanimous, he had to get a definite answer from M.

So, what should I do about us?

I am confused and tired of this uncertainty...

Whenever I want to give up and pray to the Almighty for the best decision, the answer is always I have to come back to you...

What exactly do you ask of the Almighty?

Why is it that every time I try to leave you because of your attitude, I finally come back to you...

What exactly do you want from me?

If you want my love, you've got it...

If you want my heart, you have it...

If you want to show that someone like me is waving a white flag, you have got it...

Until I felt desperate and could only beg for forgiveness because I had let my heart do it

I do not want to be a sinner while the good I have done is not worth the sins I have committed

I just want to do my duty as a woman who tries to obey His commandments and stay away from His prohibition

Don't you understand my position? While I try to understand your position and condition

Actually you're serious with me, aren't you? If you're serious with me, can you show me the real action?

Mohammed was surprised to read Hind's message. Didn't think Hind would send a message this long. It was as if all his emotions were gushing out word for word that the girl typed for him and it affected the emotions in his heart so mindlessly the man replied to Hind's message with a bit of sarcastic insinuation silky.

Duhai howled longing...

You always draw attention with your howling voice as if you were calling the whole world but no one answered you

Your howl looks like the sun is sinking causing people to realize that you're unlocking a secret that's been true that you have a lover and that you miss him a lot

But don't you realize this feeling of longing is slowly turning into a fire that burns you?

Let me swallow all your feelings and my feelings and not expect an exception from you

Hind's hand, which had been clutching a mobile phone, was shaking, reading a message from Mohammed. His tears flowed smoothly through his cheeks. From the beginning he was ready for the worst answer that Mohammed would give. But he did not expect the answer seemed to offend his pride. He put his smartphone on the living room table then sat curled up and face down and sobbed. It's all over for him...

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Since I am increasingly confused as to how to deal with our relationship, how about we hand over the decision to the Almighty? We can meet because of His power. Even if this relationship ends, it means the will of the Almighty

As long as it is unreal before the eyes and touched by the soul and body, everything is just imaginary and mirages and maya so I choose to leave it...

Mohammed ruffled his slightly curly brownish black hair. He was frustrated to read the answer to the last message he sent to Hind. Two days ago since he and his team won the physically draining Govgames event, Hind still looked cheerful and supported him as if nothing had happened. But whether there is anything to the lover, his world is turned upside down, he is surprised to receive a message from Hind giving a final ultimatum about the continuation of their relationship. He initially thought that Hind was only protesting against his busyness as he had been. With a few sweet words his mainstay makes Hind come back to him. But like storing a time bomb, it finally really explodes can not be held back. He was forced to put out words that must have made Hind hurt so silent a thousand languages...

He was confused actually why his work was stacking up as if he was distancing himself from Hind? Though he had dared to take the challenge from his father considering when his father struggled to marry his mother, his position is almost the same as his current self. His father almost lost his mother if he did not resolve to dare to ask for blessing to all parties in his country, especially the government of Dubai to marry his mother who in fact different citizenship. Because there was an invisible rule that the heir of the Dubai government should marry a fellow Emirati. And his father could not fulfill the request because he fell in love not with an Emirati. Even made a big decision by divorcing his first wife who was forced to marry in order to maintain the tradition of his family because it was realized that what he had done wrong and took away the happiness of himself and his soul mate. Remembering the story of his parents who are full of drama and twists makes Mohammed careful in romance. Yes, it is not that he does not want to marry Hind, he has been stalling for time to establish himself that is not sure to make up his mind.

"Thank you for breaking off our engagement relationship because of your unattached nature. I pray for you that if you fall in love with someone one day, that woman will make you fight so hard to get it that you are almost desperate to have wasted my sincere feelings on you!"

Mohammed recalled the words of Latifa, his former fiance who had been disappointed because he did not want to be tied in the rope of marriage that quickly. He who was 25 years old felt burdened with relationships based on coercion and tradition. He wants to achieve all his dreams and hopes and prove that the youngest son of the King of Dubai can exist without the shadow of his Father and older brother the crown prince. And as if his prayer had been fulfilled, he now felt what Latifa said. Shortly after their engagement rope broke, Latifa breathed her last due to a car accident on the highway. And at this time he only realized the regret of having hurt Latifa. Maybe the pain suffered by the girl because of the inner pressure to face her careless attitude so that her life ended tragically. He is now faced with a painful and confusing reality for him to remember the last sentence of the message sent Hind like a ball of chicken feather that was smash hard in a badminton game by the girl in front of him.

Juma who had since noticed his nephew had a gloomy face wanted to approach him but was detained. Maybe at this time Mohammed should be left alone to be able to solve his love problems. He still wanted to give life lessons to his nephew that not everything can be obtained easily and requires struggle, he said, moreover, Mohammed has made a fatal mistake that could make himself more serious about romantic relationships.

Funny too, if you think about it, how can the same love case happen a second time. Rashid, his older brother, is now Mohammed's nephew and best friend. And he was a silent witness for the second time in the same. The difference is, can Mohammed do his father's act? Though he should be aware that his position is not as heavy as Rashid as the crown prince of Dubai. But let it be, Mohammed is old enough to make a decision about the future of his life.

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