My Love Is Just For You
Comforting Yourself

It has been almost a month since Hind took up his duties as a medical doctor in one of Tanzania's regions. As Tonya had said before, she was starting to live here. Friendly and pleasant residents, views of the vast grasslands stretched and the family atmosphere created a little can help Hind forget for a moment about M. Even when night fell and silence greeted him, inevitably tears fell down his cheeks of natural redness. The supplication of forgiveness to the Almighty was unceasingly uttered from his lips. How long does it take to forget M? That question kept echoing in his mind. In the past, within a week he could immediately forget his feelings for Reza, he hoped the same thing he could do with his feelings for M. But why until this moment he still can not forget it? Is his feelings for M deep? He laughed sweetly. How can he have feelings of love in people who until this moment he can not meet directly his form other than through social media? Even when he took the initiative to visit Dubai to give him a surprise on his 33rd birthday that he could even tear up the disappointment of not being able to meet the man. Why can it be like this?

O Allah, please make it easy for me to carry out the destiny You have set for me in any case.Rapal Hind many times in heart while sobbing.

"Hind" Tonya's call dawned on her from daydreams staring at the bright night sky full of stars. One of the things he likes here, the night sky is very wide and beautiful! In contrast to the atmosphere in Jakarta that is very difficult to see a night full of stars because there are too many tall buildings that cover it. If where his parents live in Bogor, he had to venture to the top of the hill a little far from his home to be able to capture the beautiful sky like today.

"Yes Tonya, what's wrong?" Hind immediately wiped his tears and approached Tonya with a smile as if she was fine.

"Adeola's grandmother wants to see you." Grandma Adeola? Hind thought hard to remember the grandmother because too many patients came to her for a check-up every day. Tonya said this is a record high because the natives here want to flock to the examination camp to check their health. With the previous doctors only a few were willing to come. Tonya thanks Hind for being here. Hind can only say back his love for being accepted here even though every time he did a health check on the local population had to rely on Tonya as a translator.

"He wanted to give something to you as a thank you" Tonya said.

"All right, I'm there" Hind got up from his seat on a large log and walked towards the camp. He remembered, when examining the health of the grandmother, the grandmother said that she was shaded by luck in her life. What has been his hope and prayers during this time will be granted by the Almighty even more than his expectations. Including his soul mate's business. Hind who heard it only gave a smile and a thank you. In her chaotic condition and suffering from extreme disappointment in this moment, the feelings of the grandmother's speech were only to comfort her.

Soon he approached a grandmother who was about to stand up from her seat but immediately arrested Hind.

"Grandmother just sat down," Hind sat crouched down in front of the old grandmother. "What's Grandma here for? It's late, grandma can come here tomorrow morning..."

"I just got the impression that you're going to meet your soul mate tomorrow, I'm sure of that." Grandma Adeola said.

"Mr..," Hind's pair of teary eyes. He was confused what to say. If he said that it was impossible because his heart was still crumpled dimly at this time, it would hurt the heart of the parents in front of him. An act that he did not dare to do considering his parents had educated him to always respect and appreciate people older than him. Moreover, this grandmother might be the same age as her grandparents if they were still alive.

"Thank you.for your prayers Nek..," Hind could only hug Grandma to convince her that she was amiin-i the grandmother's words.

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"It's hot tea for you" Tonya handed over a cup of hot tea to Hind. Currently they are outside the camp where Hind daydreamed before while enjoying the night.

"Thank you" Hind replied with a smile. He also observed a puff of steam coming out of the cup.

"You don't think too much about Grandma Adeola's words," Tonya who caught the nervousness that appeared in Hind's eyes finally opened her voice. "Although it is never denied what Grandma Adeola said is always right. Grandma also once gave the results of her exploration to me that one day Tanzania will be a beautiful meadow park and visited by many people and become a famous safari tourist spot because there will be a wealthy family who helped us to facilitate it all. I was pessimistic at first considering that Unicef's help wasn't enough, but now I believe it's because of the fact that the rich family does exist and help us here."

"Is that so?" Short response Hind. His mind was so stifled today that only that word came out of his lips.

"Oh yeah, speaking of the family, I just got word that they're going to visit here tomorrow. Who knows it is true said Grandma Adeola, one of the family members is your soul mate," continued Tonya encouraged. "I remember their family members are famous for being handsome and beautiful not only physically but their hearts."

"Hahahaha," Hind forced his laughter. "Mrs, I do have dreams and ideals, but I'm not a Cinderella Syndrome believer who expects such ridiculous things."

"Yes, who knows, if it's not wrong his youngest son is still single like you," continued Tonya convinced Hind made him almost choked by the drink he drank.

"Why don't you come?"

"I want to channel my long-standing hobby of painting and it seems that the object I want to paint is quite far from Tonya's camp."

"But it's safe from wild animals, right?" Tonya looks worried by Hind's slightly crazy idea. It's Africa! Where wild animals still roam freely in the wild.

"Well, I've visited that place several times without your knowledge." Hind walked away from Tonya. "Because it's night, I'm taking a break first, Tonya, good night..."

"Hopefully have a good dream!" Shouted Tonya while waving her hand.

"You too!" Reply Hind with a smile.

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The next morning, with a medium-sized canvas and a blue backpack containing other painting supplies, Hind steadied himself on his way to where he would paint the object he wanted. Every foot stepped not to forget he was grateful for the gift given by Him. What a beautiful morning atmosphere in Tanzania today. After he found the right place, he sat down and began to take out his painting equipment, paint, strong and palette. His right hand began to play a brush and scratch the colors on the white canvas in front of him. Like a dancer who smoothly moves his hands, the painting began to look clearly in shape. Bright blue skies, white clouds, brownish green pastures like wheat fields, tall trees looming and a flock of zebras began to decorate the plain canvas earlier. Slowly a smile was engraved on Hind's lips, it felt so pleasant and soothing. Own time...

Meanwhile, there was the sound of the roar of an aircraft engine that a few minutes ago had just landed on an airstrip. Tonya, Adebowale's chieftain who is Tonya's husband, and her crew soon approach the people who just got off the plane. Several units of SUV cars have been waiting to be used to explore the beauty of the safari park in Tanzania.

"Welcome Sheikh Rashid, welcome Sheikh Maktoum, welcome Sheikh Mohammed and his entourage, welcome to Tanzania!" Welcome the Chiefs of Adebowale and Tonya.

"Thank you for the welcome Mr. Chieftain, Tonya," Rashid and the others boarded the provided car and the group began to move away from the runway. "I haven't been here long enough..."

Throughout the journey, for some reason Mohammed felt a feeling that made him feel uneasy as if he would get an answer to his current confusion after Hind was lost like being swallowed by the earth and it became a tough test for him. Although his heart crumbled dimly, but the teaching of the Father to remain steadfast made him able to stand until now.

Mohammed took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. The atmosphere of nature is so very pleasant to calm his tangled mind these days. He misses working while on vacation like this and can channel his photography hobby that he had not taken care of because it prioritizes the affairs of his left brain and sacrifices the sense he has.

Arriving at the camp area he saw workers who were busy building a special camp for himself and his family. Even the chefs brought in from Dubai have started getting ready to cook. While his Father and Brother are busy with the camp leader's wife Tonya, he finally decides to venture out into the grasslands with his DSLR camera. Sometimes running away from the team is okay, after all, he is an adult man who needs time alone as well. Imagine Juma who will be angry with him let it be his business later. Being a little selfish is okay, right?

Mohammed began exploring the grasslands by driving a black jeep alone while occasionally capturing some wild animals with his camera shots. One of them is a pair of male lions and a lioness who is mingling love in the grassland. He laughed when he realized that he was envious of the animal pair, while his lover did not know where it was at this time. With black shirt clothes combined with army green long cargo pants and field shoes and fedora hat models such as Indiana Jones, he did not look like an Arab prince but an explorer or adventurer.

The lens view is then fixed to a moving object under a shade tree. The camera lens is refocused to clarify the object. A woman whose hands are full of paint and canvas in front of her. Oh my God, is this dream? Mohammed rubbed his eyes to make sure that what he saw was real. After he was sure that he knew the object, he parked his car and rushed down and ran to the girl.

"Hind!" With a breath of gasping for a run earlier, he called out the name of Hind who was still busy with his paintings. Inevitably the owner of the name turned towards the voice that called out to him. His eyes grew when he saw the figure of a man he knew so well on social media that he had ignored for a long time.

"M?!"

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