My Love Is Just For You
Is There Hope?

"Every time this contemptible and sinful self has a desire, it always raises both hands and ceaselessly asks the Most Eloquent of Prayer

But this self forgets...

That his desire may be only his best side, not His side

So tucked away countless pains and steps full of wounds and tears when that hope was not also granted by Him because it forgot that there was an invisible contract that had been set forth in the Book of Lauhul Mahfuz and signed it with his Lord

But this self never gave up in his prayer and only made the Almighty laugh because of his love for the self that always mendzolimi and keep persistent asking

Until a point of this self realized there is something less precise than the submission of the prayer

Yes, the Owner of everything wants to change the way he asks his wishes by surrendering...

"Yes Robb, please correct and make it easy for Your servant to carry out the destiny You have set in Your Book of Lauhul Mahfuz both in the affairs of the World and My Hereafter..."

And at once the Almighty gave everything beyond what he wanted and beyond human logic"

Mohammed views Hind as busy with his activities as a volunteer doctor. How the girl had a kind and sincere heart without complaining about the many queues of locals who wanted to treat her. The limitations of language owned by Hind did not make him discouraged. He cursed in his heart, why was he so emotional that he uttered words that hurt him? Regretting is useless. Until this moment Hind did not give an answer.

"Hind, did you not notice that Sheikh Rashid's youngest son from two days ago kept watching you from a distance?" Tonya asked on the sidelines of Hind to check on the locals. "Do you know him before?"

Hind simply replied with a slightly forced smile while continuing the work. Maybe this is his escape from M. He pretended to ignore M. In his heart he was very sick and miserable. Why is love so complicated? Was it with Reza that he experienced this kind of dramatization? Seems not. Why does he feel so over-loving to someone that he feels this pain? It was not a request not to leave the M that he asked for. He wants clarity of status whether M will marry him or not considering their age is ripe for a household and he is not someone who likes to play around when it comes to the opposite sex.

"You still can't convince that girl M?" Maktoum's question made Mohammed aware of his attitude towards Hind. He replied with a weak nod.

"I think there's something wrong with your words to win his heart back" Maktoum continued.

"meaning?" Mohammed seemed confused by his brother's remark.

"I have expressed my intention, Brother" replied Mohammed. "But he still did not give an answer as if rejecting me.”

"Well, I want to hear how you proposed to her?"

Mohammed also explained word for word to Maktoum and the response given by his brother was just a long breath.

"I, if I were Hind, would definitely reject you M" Maktoum smiled sadly and concernedly. "That's not a form of a proposal phrase. You should have told him straight to the point that you wanted to marry him and make himself a wife and mother to your children later. That's a real gentleman! Not using poetic words that are difficult for ordinary people to digest like.”

Mohammed was aware of his mistake. So Hind's silence was not because she refused him but the girl did not understand his intention to make him her soulmate forever?! He condemned the immeasurable foolishness he had done. How could he make such a fatal mistake?!

"Take your intention immediately M, before it's too late,” Maktoum patted Mohammed's field shoulder. "Tomorrow our last day here. Don't let you waste the hard-earned opportunity I've given you."

Mohammed immediately grasped the intent behind Maktoum's remarks. Actually from the beginning her brother had known that the volunteer doctor who would work under the charity of his family was Hind. It is fitting that he was so bitter to convince himself to go with his father and brother to Tanzania. Usually only the two of them leave. Without a second thought Mohammed immediately ran away from Maktoum to get to Hind. With unanimous determination, he established himself to propose to the girl in the hope that it was the only way that he would be forgiven and given one more chance.

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NGIIIGGG...

The sound of Airbus engines is heard. Mohammed looked away at camp. Today he will leave Tanzania to return to Dubai. His mind was mixed erratically thinking of Hind. Last night he reiterated his intention to propose to the girl and this time in a true and straightforward manner. In fact, he gave her his favorite rope bracelet that he always wore on his left wrist as a replacement for the ring that he had not prepared. He said if Hind accepted his proposal then the girl should come to this airport to return the bracelet. But if Hind refuses, then the girl does not need to come and throw away the rope bracelet. And it seems the answer already exists.

"Already,” Maktoum again cheering. "Importantly you have tried your best.., just consider this the Admonition of the Almighty so that you do not let go of the good opportunities that exist.”.

"I understand Kak..," Mohammed tried to be airy although bitter. She did not expect her love to end happily. Maybe this is the form of karma that he must accept due to the selfishness that he has been doing. He decided to get into the plane and sit in the place he used to occupy in the plane. Soon the door of the plane was closed and then it took off leaving Tanzania.

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