My Ustadz My Husband
The Part 14

Asthma avoids everyone in her home, not least her parents, making her mother so sad and guilty. Even Aisha and Aqilah who tried to calm her down were unsuccessful. Asma did not want to talk to anyone, he locked himself in the room, he did not even go out to eat or pray in prayer, Bi Ida who delivered food to his room was not responded by Asthma. Making everyone confused and frustrated, behind the spoiled attitude and to his kanakan nakak, Asthma is also a bit of a head and not easily persuaded it turns out, of course, it's about his life and his future.

The clock shows at 22:00. The atmosphere of the house had begun to be quiet, Asthma who could not sleep decided to go out and enjoy the night breeze, he went to the swing in the yard next to his house, he stared at the beautiful shining star in the dark night sky.

"What am I supposed to do? how should I live my life now" he asked inwardly. Asthma began to move the swing, closing her eyes and continuing to repeat the same question in her mind. But suddenly, someone stopped the swing, making Asma upset and when he wanted to protest, he was surprised to find Khadija there.

"Mr...." Asma looked at Khadijah with a guilty look, she had read several novels about love triangles, and the first one that would be very hurt and hurt. In fact, in the cast of the novel, Asma was so sympathetic and also felt his sadness. And now, he and Khadijah are the actors of Bilal's love story.

"Sit here, Ma'am" Asma shifted and made room for Khadijah. Asma thought, Khadija would be very hurt by his presence in Bilal's life. "Mr.I... I want to apologize, what's happening right now must have hurt Ma'am. I never knew it could be the cause of a woman's wound"

"Are you hungry? All day you haven't eaten" Asma was stunned to hear Khadijah's question, even after becoming the third person in her household, Khadija was still so kind and considerate. Asthma shook her head and smiled wryly.

"You'll be sick if you don't eat, Asthma"

"I'm sick, Ma'am. It even feels like it's dying"

"Why indeed?" Asma frowned and looked at Khadijah

"Why indeed?"He repeated Khadijah's question "Mbak, I really don't want to marry if I'm still this young. And I never thought I'd be the third person in someone's relationship. It really hurts. What would people say and think of me?"

"Asma... Can I tell you my life story?" Asma looked at Khadijah fixedly.he thought, maybe Khadijah will share his broken feelings on Asma because he and Khadijah are Bilal's victims.

"By, Ma'am..." Khadijah smiled happily, finally Asma could be spoken to, he hoped this would provide a solution for them.

"You know, I'm the same Mas Bilal is still family, my mother is a cousin of Ibu Mas Bilal. Even so, we live outside the city and not so close to the Mas Bilal exit. By the time I was 13, both of my parents had accidents and died. My uncle, the younger brother of my father raised me as a child, my father's last will to Uncle was to ensure my worthiness to live my life. I live with my Uncle and cousin, Hubab. But when I was 18, I had to lose my father again. Uncle had a heart attack" Asma was very surprised to hear Khadijah's words, Khadija has passed a very heavy test in his life, it makes Asma feel more guilty and sympathetic.

"Before his death came" Khadijah continued, "He called the mother's family, the Mas Bilal family. In his last breath, he begged Uncle Khalil to take care of me and Hubab, Uncle agreed, but apparently there was another request from my Uncle, he wanted Bilal to marry me, because my uncle wants me to be with the right people and take care of me..."

"So you're also in a match?" Asma immediately cut off Khadijah's talks in shock at the news.

"Yes, without much questioning and protesting, Mas Bilal accepted my uncle's request to marry me, when Mas Bilal was very young, still 20 years old, while I was 19 years old"

" Oh yeah? That young?" Asma exclaimed in disbelief "That means your marriage is 10 years old?" once again Khadijah nodded. And that fact, makes Asma increasingly inexhaustible, after 10 years of marriage, how can Bilal still be double?

"If your marriage has been that long, then why can all this happen? Don't you love each other?"

"Yes, I love her, love her so much. What's more after marriage Mas Bilal treated very kindly, full of love and affection, making my love more and more great to him" Asma still a good listener for Khadijah, who was a good listener,he saw the look on Khadijah's face that looked very pale and weak, making Asma sure it was all because of Bilal's second marriage, which means, he was the cause of it.

"And after 3 years of our marriage, I... doctor ... doctor sentenced me to be barren" Khadijah said with glassy eyes, while Asma was so shocked and sad to hear.

"What...Is that why, my marriage happened?" Khadijah shook his head, leaving Asma confused "So?"

"Despite knowing I was barren, Mas Bilal still treated me very well, as if I was the perfect wife for him, he comforted me, and did not let me be sad for my infertility in the least"

"Then how is all this still happening? What's the end..he hgga...can accept all that? and want her a wife who can give her a child?" once again Khadijah shook his head, making Asma even more confused.

"It happened, moment...."Khadija was no longer able to stem her tears "when I was sentenced to cervical cancer"

"Mr...." Asma hugged Khadijah who began to hiccup. Hoping his embrace could make Khadija a little calm.

"That's when Asthma all this happens..." Khadijah let go of Asma's embrace, he walked a few steps forward, looked up and looked up at the dark sky. But the starlight turned that darkness into beauty.

"At that time, I started to feel sad, I always tried to be the perfect wife for Mas Bilal, but I never could, and never will"

"So, is that why he wanted to marry me?"

"No, Asthma..."Khadijah turned and looked at Asma.

" Then what? he married me not because he wanted children, not because he was sick. Then what's the reason? why did he marry a little girl he even knew once"

"Because she loves you" Asma's emotions rose again hearing the word. He did not understand that Khadija said the same thing.

"Love? Love from where? Doesn't his heart only love you because you're his wife, Ma'am"

"I thought the same thing, Asthma. For 9 years together, I always felt and thought that Mas Bilal had fallen in love with me and loved me so much. But on that day, I realized, she was just showing that she loved me, because it was her duty as a husband while I had the right to accept her love as a wife "

"meaning? I really don't understand what the hell is talking about?"

"After knowing I had cancer, I knew I could die at any time, before my death, I wanted to carry out my duty as a wife, which was to give my husband the perfect happiness, and the perfect happiness for a man is the perfect partner and the offspring. One of my friends suggested that I allow Mas Bilal to remarry, and I began to betroth Mas Bilal to some of my female friends, hoping before dying, he said, I can see Mas Bilal happy and get a real child"

"What's that crazy idea, ma'am?" refute Asma who thinks Khadijah's actions are excessive "which woman would want to share a husband with another woman for any reason?

"Women who want heaven, Asthma"

"The road to heaven is many, Ma'am. It's not just polygamy"

"But that's the way heaven is in front of me. Before you, I've been trying to match Mas Bilal to some woman I know, but he always refused and never showed any interest in them. And that day, I asked her to meet my other friend, and that's where she saw you, Al Ajwad's restaurant... like a man who falls in love at first sight. In fact, after 9 years we were together, he never looked at me that way, that's when I knew, the love he gave me, was nothing more than an obligation he was on."

"That's enough, Ma'am... Enough's enough!"Asma raised her hand and begged Khadijah not to continue, believing it to be untrue. In addition, he did not have the heart to khadijah when he heard the woman's voice had begun to tremble and tears began to wet Khadijah's cheeks.

"Why don't you believe me, Asthma? That's the reality"

"It doesn't make sense, I don't know when we met, and that first sight love story is impossible..."

"That's possible, Asthma has experienced it a lot"

"How could he marry me? and why would Abi put me away with her?"

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Tbc....