My Ustadz My Husband
Part 79's

"Where's Khadijah? is she okay?" asked Bilal, now he does not need breathing apparatus anymore, his condition gradually improved, say thank you to his little sister, Shofia. Who has managed to spur Bilal's adrenaline with his emotions are continuously on the fishing line by Shofia.

"He's good, only yesterday he had a drop" replied Ummi.

Bilal regretted hurting Khadijah with his words that reminded Khadijah of the flaws that every woman has always feared. Bilal really can not hold his emotions at this time until it is spoken just like that.

Even now, Bilal still thinks that his wife has changed. And it was Bilal's fault, Bilal felt he failed to be a good husband to his two wives, he failed to do justice to them.

Shortly thereafter, Hubab came with Khadijah.

"How are you doing?" ask Hubab.

"It's so bad, like there's a bone in my body that I can barely even stretch my legs"

"It's unfortunate, but you should be grateful. Isn't it when you're sick, it could be your penance or a test of raising your life's worth?. Yes that's it if not wrong" Hubab said half ridiculously

"Very wise" Sindir Bilal, meanwhile, Khadija still did not dare to look at Bilal, but he was very happy because Bilal finally realized.

Bilal could only look at Khadijah. Deep in his heart, he was very worried if Khadijah dropped. However, Khadija is his wife who has accompanied him for more than ten years.

Everyone there went out, to give Khadija and Bilal time.

"How are you doing? Still take care of your health, right?" bilal asked Khadija, who immediately shed tears, because her husband was still very concerned. Khadijah simply nodded without being able to make a sound.

"I was very angry and disappointed, Khadijah. But I'm so evil that I want to leave you" Bilal waved his hand asking Khadija to come closer, Bilal could hear everything as long as he was in a coma. Khadijah was sitting on a chair beside Bilal's ward "I can't understand women, does that woman turn stupid when she loves someone?. You are willing in honey and various husbands for my happiness. Zahra willingly harbored her grief alone for not wanting to hurt me, and she was even willing to sacrifice her own marriage for our marriage. What's wrong with my wives?. Why do you always have to sacrifice for each other?. Can't you just shut up and live your lives straight?"

A smile on Khadija's lips. He took Bilal's hand and kissed him.

"The definition of love itself is crazy, Mas. And crazy means it doesn't make sense. We both love you so much, it's just that, besides being crazy, love is always coupled with hurt."

"But that's not fair, Khadija. Love should only bring happiness. I have hurt you by loving Zahra, but I have also hurt Zahra for making her the third person in our marriage"

"The proof of love is jealousy, and jealousy can trigger anger and hate, Maafin I mas" once again Khadijah shed tears "Whatever I endure, I endure, only one I can't stand, jealousy. But I swear, Mr. Bilal. Never for a second did I have bad intentions for Asthma, nor did I ever hate her. You misunderstood me" Khadijah said in a trembling voice.

"We misunderstand because you are silent, Khadijah.if you admit it from the beginning, maybe Zahra can understand and will not be so angry. But it's your silence that makes you seem to do it intentionally"

"I'm sorry, Mom, I'm sorry. I did not intentionally do it. Just like Asthma, I also very much expect her children to be born into this world"

"It's all happened, Khadijah. Now it's the past". How fortunate Khadijah was to have Bilal as her husband. True, said Shofia, Bilal may be angry but will not hate him. It made Khadijah feel guilty.

"You should go home and rest, invite Hubab to check on you. I'm sorry I can't keep you for now"

"But I still want to keep you here, Mas".

"There's a lot keeping me here, come home. Ummi said yesterday you had dropped"

Khadijah finally nodded, he kissed Bilal's forehead and he said goodbye to Bilal.

Bilal may have forgiven Khadijah. But there is still disappointment in his heart, so long as Bilal so proud of his wife as a mature and wise woman, indeed everyone can do wrong, he said, but the man who made a mistake and then went into hiding, acting like he didn't know anything, for Bilal it couldn't be justified. What's more, he always thought and worried about Khadijah because he lived with Asma who was still a unstable teenager, Bilal is afraid that Asma hurt Khadijah with an attitude to children like Asthma did at home, but the opposite is true. Asthma just keeps quiet with everything that's going on.

Bilal admitted that he loved Asma more, but his time and attention was more for Khadijah because he thought Khadija needed him more, Bilal also always put aside Asma. So, do not blame Bilal who was very angry just because of an error that was not inadvertently by his wife, because of that mistake, took two lives that were very much awaited by everyone. And that mistake, made another wife leave her husband.

.

.

.

Asthma re-awakened because of her dreams, as usual she will wake up with gasps, the clock shows at 3 am. Asthma sighed lethargic, because only a few minutes ago she was able to fall asleep, and now she had to wake up again.

Asthma tries to sleep again but can't.

She kept thinking about Bilal and asked him where his husband was.

Did something happen to her?.

Or maybe he refocused on Khadijah again?.

When he finished, Asthma raised her hand to pray

"O Allah, the Servant is your little danger, which has no power over the Servant.

Servant leave it all to you. Your servant has chosen his own way, but the Servant knows, You are the one who wrote the Servant's destiny.

Yes Rabb, Now the Servant does not know anymore where the path that the Servant should take, which the Servant knows, the Servant does not want to hurt anyone.

Yes Rabb... The servant loves Bilal, but your servant knows, You love him more. If the Servant can no longer be at his side, then the Servant of Ikhlas, the Servant entrusts the lover of the Servant to You, fill his life with Your grace, guide her at every step of her life and fill her household with happiness and peace.

O owner of the heart of the Servant, heal the pain in the heart of the Servant because of this separation. And please allow this heart to see Bilal and his wife happy. Aamiin".

.

.

.

Khadijah sprinkles fish feed into the akurian. Asthma fish apparently grow healthy and even have children. Makes Akuriam more crowded and beautiful.

Had Asma seen this, she would have jumped up in excitement.

But now, Khadijah does not know how Asthma is. And he didn't dare to find out.

"Where is Khadija, Bi?" mila's voice came from in front of her house.

"Inside, please come in, ma'am" Bi Mina replied. Khadijah welcomed Mila.

"How are you doing?"

"I'm very good, Mil" replied Khadijah and brought Mila to her living room.

"I was from the hospital, but Bilal told me to come here, he said to tell you" Khadija smiled faintly in response to Mila's words. "You're pale, you're sick?" Ask Mila.

"Indeed when I recover" replied Khadijah pessimist.

"Don't do that, Bilal's been trying hard for your recovery, don't give up so much"

"That's exactly why I wanted to give up, all this time, Mas Bilal always did anything for me, but me?. the only thing I can do to make her happy is to bring Asthma to her life, but now I also make Asma go from her life"

"They won't just split up, Khadija. Bilal couldn't have let go of Asthma just because Asthma left here"

"But Asthma is very angry, Mil"

"It's understandable, she's a mother who lost her child."

"You're right, and I have to understand it's my fault"

"Now it is too late to blame yourself, it is time to focus on Bilal's recovery and pray for him. I heard Bilal forbade his Ummi to pick up Asma. He said he himself would pick up Asma and explain everything to Asma and her family"

"But Mas Bilal's body was temporarily paralyzed, even with a broken leg. How could he possibly pick up Asma?"

"I knew it too, but that's what Bilal wanted"

Khadija again bowed sadly.

"I'm so sorry, Mil"

"Don't fall for regrets, Bilal has forgiven you. You're a good wife to Bilal, and your intentions are also good with marrying him to Asma, but you know, every path of kindness is full of obstacles, and maybe you'll slip a little, but you should always be able to get back on the right path."

Khadija knew for sure that what Mila said was true, and he only hoped that he would get a second chance from Bilal and Asma. And they can start all over again.

▪️▪️▪️

Tbc....