My Ustadz My Husband
Part 62's

Khadijah rubbed his face violently, he even felt short of breath, and as hard as he could he tried to hold back the jealous flames in his heart that had already flared and made it seem lost. On the one hand, Khadija realized that she should not be jealous if Asma was pregnant, because it was her goal to want Bilal to marry Asma, to make Bilal happy.

But on the other hand, jealousy makes her lose her direction, and tarnishes her sacred intent to make her beloved husband happy.

Khadijah continued to try to remind himself and try to make sure that only Asma could make Bilal happy, because he realized he would never be able to get pregnant and give Bilal offspring.

Bilal loved Asma unconditionally and without a reason, if Asma gave him a child, then Bilal's love would be greater to him, and when Asma's child was born, then Khadijah was sure, he was, there will be no place in Bilal's heart for him.

Khadijah wept withstanding the jealousy and envy in his heart, he curled up in the middle of the bed and let his tears flow freely bringing out the pain that was in his heart.

Khadijah continued to cry until he was tired and fell asleep.

And he woke up again, when he felt a touch on his forehead. When Khadija opened her eyes, she saw her husband at her side. Bilal placed the back of his hand on Khadijah's forehead

"Khadija, are you sick?" bilal asked worriedly, Khadijah shook his head and tried to sit down.

"Mas Bilal Tumben has come home" Khadija said as she put back her headscarf she had taken off before going to bed.

"It's past 5 o'clock, Khadija" said Bilal astonished. And Khadija just realized he fell asleep for a long time "What do you do, honey?" ask Bilal who seems very worried about his wife.

"I'm.I'm good"

"You've been crying" cried Bilal again as he wiped the rest of Khadijah's tears "What's wrong?"

"What's wrong" replied Khadijah trying to convince her husband.

"Don't lie, you cry why? Is anyone sick? Need us to go to the doctor, hm?" And Khadijah kept shaking. Bilal gave up and no longer asked his wife.

"Yes, just rest. Later if there is anything, call me, I want to go down" said Bilal later.

Khadijah hurried to follow Bilal down, and he saw his husband talking on the phone. Khadijah sat on the sofa and patiently waited for Bilal to finish.

When Bilal was done calling, Khadijah immediately called her husband.

"What's wrong?" ask Bilal

"Mas, can I go home to my old house?" ask Khadijah who surprised Bilal.

"Make what? You are sick again, as well as not going anywhere, besides no one is there" said Bilal

"Then let me just stay at Ummi and Asma's house who live here until the house can be occupied" And Bilal would be more surprised to hear the narration of his first wife.

"First Zahra, now you want out of this house. What is Khadijah? Did you guys have a problem and fight without my knowledge?" ask Bilal who has not been done thinking with his two wives.

"What we are going to fight anyway" Khadijah replied.

"Then why do you two want to stay with your in-laws instead of your husbands?"

Khadijah could not answer that, how he explained to Bilal that the only problem between his two wives was pent-up jealousy.

"I understand your feelings" said Bilal who made Khadijah ask if he really understood his feelings and Asma's feelings.

" I can understand if you don't want to live together, and I understand why Zahra wants to get out of this house, because she must think she's a migrant and you have more rights here. But you, Khadijah? Why do you want to get out of your own house? Did Zahra hurt you?" tanya Bilal and Khadijah shook their heads.

"I knew Zahra wouldn't hurt you on purpose" Bilal continued, leading Khadijah to misinterpret Bilal's intentions.

"So, did Mas Bilal think I hurt Asthma?"

"What?" bilal asked, hoping he'd misheard "Of course that's not what I mean, I believe you wouldn't do something like that"

"If Asthma gets pregnant, will Mas Bilal still care about me?" ask Khadijah again makes Bilal stunned.

"Do you think I'm that bad?" Bilal asked back but Khadija did not answer

"I love you, Khadijah. You're my wife and of course I'll always care about you whenever"

"But you love Asthma very much, Mas. She's so perfect"

"There is no perfect human being" Bilal said gently trying to avoid a possible debate.

"But she's perfect, you love her, and she'll give you a child"

"Stop bringing it up, Khadijah" asked Bilal because bringing up the issue would hurt Khadijah himself. Bilal can not avoid that he loves Asthma and the possibility is very large that Asthma will give him a child. But it did not make his love and his concern for Khadijah less.

"Why? That's the truth, isn't it?" kadhafi continued with emotion.

"And that's why you invited my Abi to propose to Zahra to her Abi, isn't it Khadijah?" ask Bilal again who began not to understand the attitude of his wife. And once again, Khadijah could not answer him.

"I never asked you to accept my love for Zahra, but you insisted on uniting us. Then what's up now?" ask Bilal again in a high tone.

"Alright" Bilal said later because he saw Khadijah who was just crying and did not answer him at all "I will take Zahra out of this house, so that his existence will not hurt you anymore" bilal said that made Khadijah even more do not know what to say.

Meanwhile, Bi Mina was about to go ahead to throw the trash out through the back door, and she accidentally saw Asma who was standing in front of the entrance.

Naturally Bi Mina was very surprised and she felt pity for what else as she saw Asma wipe her tears and bite her lips to hold her sobs.

Bi Mina believes Asma must have heard the debate of Bilal and Khadijah inside because Bi Mina also heard their debate.

"Neng Asma's home?" sapa Bi Mina who deliberately filter her voice so that Bilal and Khadijah hear and stop their debate themed Asma.

Hearing Bi Mina's voice, Asma instantly wiped away her tears, she took a breath and exhaled slowly, she forced her lips into a smile

"Yes, Bi" she answered.

"Cock not in?" asked Bi Mina again in a loud voice.

"It's coming in" replied Asma.

Bilal who heard Bi Mina talking to Asma outside was very surprised and also worried, he was worried that Asma heard what he was talking about with Khadijah. And when he glanced at the wall clock, Bilal realized that maybe Asthma had gone home since. Bilal immediately walked to greet his wife, while Khadijah who was still crying immediately went to his room and locked the door.

"Zahra.." call Bilal with a worried look on his face "Are you here?" bilal and Asma asked, nodding without looking at Bilal.

"Sorry to go home, there was an additional lesson" Asma was forced to lie. Asma had been home since then, she heard everything Bilal and Khadijah talked about.

Withstanding the tears that almost spilled, Asma immediately ran to her room.

With great difficulty, Asthma tried to breathe because she suddenly felt tightness in her chest. Even his tears could not be pitted anymore, but the sound of footsteps approaching his room made Asma immediately run to the bathroom and he turned on the shower to muffle his crying sound.

"Zahra.." Bilal's voice surprised him enough and he immediately stopped his crying.

"Yes." answered from the inside.

"Are you in the shower?" ask Bilal again

"Yes, what's wrong with Bilal?" her question was trying to stop her sobs

"What's up" replied Bilal. Then he waited for Asthma to finish his bath.

Shortly afterwards, his wife came out and looked fresher, looking worried in Bilal's eyes as he stared at her.

"Em Bilal, tonight I can go to the boarding school again and sleep at Ummi's house? I want to study with my classmate" Asma said without daring to look at Bilal.

Bilal approached his wife and she understood, Asthma not want to go to study but want to avoid.

"Why?" bilal asked in a soft voice and he stroked the cheek of his young wife, then raised his face until the gazes of the two met.

"What the hell, I just want to learn" replied Asma with a voice that was no less slow, he said, he was about to walk to the closet to pick up his clothes but suddenly the dizziness attacked him making his daze and almost fell but Bilal swiftly caught his body.

"Zahra, what's up, honey?" asked Bilal frantically who saw his wife looked limp.

"What the hell, maybe tired" replied Asma while holding his head, and again he felt nauseous, he immediately ran to the bathroom to vomit his stomach, but could not. Bilal who followed him could only massage the nape of Asthma hoping that the woman was better.

"Zahra, are we going to the doctor? I'm worried about your situation" Bilal said, but Asma shook his head, he gargled his mouth and tried to stand up straight, Bilal took Asma to his bed.

"Wait here, I'll take your clothes" cried Bilal but Asma blocked his wrist.

"That's right, I can do it myself. I'm fine" said Asma while trying to stand up again.

"Sit here, Zahra" Bilal's orders firmly make Asma no longer dare to refuse him.

And instead of taking his clothes home, Bilal instead took the robe and also the Asma hijab.

"Tonight we're staying at Ummi's house" he exclaimed, which made Asthma's eyes bulge.

"We?" ask Asma surprised.

"Yes, I don't want to leave you in this condition, like you're sick"

"Don't you, kill Ma'am if you live alone" cried Asma and began to wear her clothes.

Bilal deliberately wanted to take Asma away right now, he wanted Khadija to calm down and think calmly. He also feared Khadijah to lose control of his jealousy and even hurt Asma.

"I will be there alone" continued Asma and he began to prepare his goods.

"We're going to stay there, besides I've been sleeping in Ummi's house for a long time, I miss my room" said Bilal who also lied.

"Then what about Mama?"

"He will be fine" Bilal replied in his heart he said Khadija should be given time alone to calm his heart and mind.

This is one of the reasons Bilal did not tell Khadija that he had fallen in love at the time, and he did not want to have the girl he loved, because Bilal knew his wife.

Bilal knew Khadijah loved him so much, and that love made Khadijah willing to do anything to make Bilal happy, but Khadija was just thinking what he should do and he forgot to think about how he should do it.

And the same love, which would make Khadija not willing to see her husband with another woman.

Khadijah had always lost her childhood, her parents, her uncles, and she even lost hope of becoming a mother. Bilal did not want Khadijah to lose himself as well, but Khadija was so confident in his decision at the time.

Women can share anything with other women, can share a home, a family, even a child. But not with a partner, it takes a strong and airy heart to be able to mengikhlaskan her husband for another woman, not just readiness logically.

Because the path he will take is very difficult and thorny, it is a matter of the heart, and everything that comes from the heart is very sensitive and will always be tested.

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At his Ummi, Bilal reasoned Asma was sick but the girl insisted on studying with her friend's friend in the dorm, so Bilal would stay there to take care of his wife. Of course, Zahra's mother-in-law believes in remembering her daughter-in-law who sometimes acts to kanakan.

And when his Ummi asked Khadijah, Bilal said Khadijah was fine.

Bilal accompanied his wife to study with his friend friend, even Bilal became their companion, of course it made friend friend Astma very happy and increasingly eager to learn.

After finishing studying, Asma and Bilal immediately returned to his room. Asthma who already looked very sleepy it immediately put himself in bed, in Sususl Bilal who also felt very tired.

"Zahra, tomorrow we go to the doctor, baby. You are really pale" said Bilal while rubbing the face of Asthma which does look increasingly pale, what else all day Asthma does not eat because every time he saw food he felt nauseous. But not his answer, Asma instead asked a question that immediately made Bilal's heart ache

"Do you regret marrying me?"

Instantly Bilal removed his hand from Asthma's cheek for a moment, but he stroked her gently and lovingly again, staring right in both Asthma's eyes

"I would be very sorry if I didn't marry you, because maybe the student at the flower shop would marry you. I don't want him to be your match" Bilal said, which surprised Asma because Bilal found out about the man.

"Bilal, I'm sorry I talked to her without your permission"

"What the hell, honey. You're good at taking care of yourself and taking care of other people's hearts" Bilal pulls Asma into his arms and then he covers them.

"Now go to sleep, if until tomorrow you are still nauseous and dizzy, we must go to the Doctor. And that's not a request but an order!" Asma gave a smile and nodded, Bilal kissed her good night and the two fell asleep.

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Tbc...