
"Your mother's child is very beautiful" praised Queenza after she finished helping the child to wear her school uniform. Like any ordinary day, he will take care of Tatjana as his first activity.
"And Mother is beautiful, so I am also beautiful," the little girl replied cheerfully.
"Sweet baby Mother. Yeah, Anna wait here, yeah. Mother wants to get ready. After that we have breakfast."
"OK, Mommy. I'm going out to Nana's room first." The little girl ran cheerfully towards Nana's room. Outside, he meets his father. "Dad, want to go? How come it's not breakfast?"
Abian's heart rippled to see his little girl who was so cheerful. His heart ached because he really wanted to hold and kiss her. But he can't. A drop of falling tears which he quickly wiped away.
"Dad you cry? Dad why?" tanya Tatjana with her sad face.
"Dad is okay. Where's Anna going?" ask Abian.
"Anna's going to Nana's room. Dad, why not breakfast? Mommy will be angry."
"Dad there's an important meeting, honey. I'll have breakfast at the office. Be careful going to school, yeah. So the good boy who obeys the teacher. I'm leaving first." Abian tried to smile at his son.
The little girl stretched out her hand for salim. Abian just stared at the small hand but he could not reach even though his heart was eager to reach him.
"Dad go first. Assalamualaikum." That's all he can do. Leaving Tatjana whose hands are still floating because he did not reach. Her tears fell back as she walked towards the car. His chest ached when the feeling of wanting to touch his son came back.
"Why is this sick?" it's in the car. He touched her chest so tight. Not being able to touch his wife and children is the toughest law for a man. And now that's how Abian feels.
He tried to be strong, but still sometimes the tightness came when he looked at Queenza and Tatjana. Can only stare without being able to hold. The law is very heavy and very painful.
"Dad why?" The boy wondered with a sad face. Usually Abian receives a helping hand of his son with a note Tatjana can not tell his mother. However, this time Queenza's remarks scared Abian of actually losing his wife's child. That's why he won't touch Tatjana again like he used to.
"Well, how come you're even dumb here? Not going to Nana's room?" ask Queenza who is ready with her casual appearance. Today he is not going to the office because Nana is in college all day. That's why Queenza doesn't go to the office and will look after Tatjana.
"So I met Dad" replied Tatjana.
"Dad? What's with Dad?" ask Queenza.
"Dad cried when he saw me, Mother. Is Anna naughty? When Anna wanted to salim only Dad refused," said the girl was sad.
"Darling ... Dad's just busy. Where are the bad boys? Tatjana is the kindest and sweetest child. Already ah don't be sad. Call Kak Nana gih, we sarapa after that we go to school. Today Mother will accompany Tatjana all day."
"Really Mother?" ask the boy.
"Yes. Today is Mother's time for Anna. Anna wants to do what with Mommy?"
"Swim! I want to swim with Mommy" replied the beautiful child with joy.
"Okay, after coming home from school we swim. Already, call Kak Nana first. It's late."
"Ready, Mother!" The girl ran happily to Nana's room. While Queenza sighed hearing the words of the child who said that Abian was crying. I don't know why Queenza's chest ached hearing her husband cry. But soon he felt that pity. It's well worth Abian getting. The man had wasted it and this was the reward to be received.
Finally Queenza stepped into the dining room for breakfast.
**
Night passed, time showing at nine o'clock in the evening. Queenza just came out of Tatjana's room after reading a fairy tale. He stepped into his room. Suddenly she stopped in front of her husband's room. The door seemed a little open. She was curious about the man because her husband had been completely different since one week. It seems to be moving away.
She slowly opened the door and put her head in to see what her husband was doing. His heart was filled as he looked at Abian who was praying. The man was very diligent in carrying out his duties. She was a little sad when she heard her husband. Queenza came out and walked to her room.
When asked how she felt, she felt the same way as her husband. However, Abian's mistake was unforgivable for him. Although his heart still loved Abian, but the greater disappointment he felt. Because Abian, his son was born faster so it has abnormalities. Queenza is still lucky because she has a treasure that she can use to take care of her child. If he had nothing? Is he able to take care of Tatjana who certainly incur a large cost every month.
That's why Queenza still gave Abian a place to look at her son. If something bad happened, he wouldn't want to show Tatjana. In religion, Tatjana is only the son of Queenza. So Abian has absolutely no rights. It was in Queenza's mind after knowing in religion that Tatjana had no rights whatsoever from Abian.
When he was about to lay his body, suddenly the door of the room was knocked. Queenza stepped back and opened the door. He was a little surprised to see Abian standing in front of him.
"What's wrong?" ask Queenza lazily.
"May I sleep here for tonight only," Abian looked at his wife.
"No!" reject Queenza.
"Queen, I beg you. Can you watch your husband sleep for three years alone?"
'Who do you think I slept with?' inner Queenza.
"Are you Tatjana? He sleeps alone" Queenza grumbled.
"Queen, you look so pretty tonight."
Queenza clucked to hear her husband's chatter.
"Go back to your room, Bian," Queenza said slowly. He was too lazy to argue with that man. "Loh, you know, why come in. Hey, out!" Queenza walked after her husband who suddenly entered without permission and sat on the bed. "Do I allow it?" ask Queenza.
"As long as I'm your husband, I have the right to sleep with you."
"I've said, don't speak of rights here when you don't give obligations!"
"Not that I don't give, but that you refuse to accept. Every month I give you my salary but you refuse, attention? I always try to give but you always refuse too. Then, now I'm wrong?" ask Abian.
The woman just stood up, folded her hands over her stomach and stared intently at her husband.
"Queen, it's been three years. Is there still less punishment you give me? I know I was wrong and I'm sorry. I love you, Queen. I want to live happily with you and Anna."
"I told you, your chances are no longer there!"
"No, Abian. Go back to your room."
"Queen, please ...." The man clasped his wife's hand with a pleading gaze.
"Abian Martadinata. Don't you understand the meaning of the word no?"
"Queen, just last night. I want to hug you. I beg you, after this I will not ask again," said the man with a pleading gaze.
"OK fine! Just tonight and don't fuck!" Queenza.
Abian smiled as he nodded. "Ke
come then. I want to hug you." He patted the bed so Queenza could lie down.
Lazily the woman walked over then started to climb into the bed. After Queenza lay down, she gasped as Abian hugged her waist.
"I told you not to fuck around!"
"Just one, honey."
The woman rippled when she heard the call. His heart was pounding so hard for some reason.
"Le-getaway, Bian."
"No!"
"Abian!"
"Tonight, Queen. I beg you."
"I'm not comfortable, Bian."
Uncomfortable because now his heart is pounding. That's what Queenza feels. For a lifetime, there had never been a man who hugged her while sleeping like now. Maybe Sky's his ex-girlfriend. But Queenza never had physical contact with the man other than hugging or kissing the cheek. The first time he felt a real kiss with Abian was that night. Now, the first time a man hugged him was Abian.
"But I'm very comfortable hugging you, Queen. Smells the scent of your body so soothing. If I were to die now I would."
"That's a mace!"
"I'm serious, Queen. It's as comfortable as this hugging you." Abian drowned her head on Queenza's back, inhaling the soothing scent of roses. "Ah, if you know how comfortable it is to hold you, since I hugged you. Hugging a loved one feels comfortable."
"Like hugging Ayyara, huh?" queenza Cibir.
"Eitherway. I forgot the taste. After all, for three years, I've only thought about my wife, not another woman."
"It's a man's basis" the woman's lips again.
"Queen, if I leave your life, will you be happy?" ask Abian.
"Yes" Queenza replied quickly.
"Astagfirullah, you are indeed really cruel huh. At least be quiet for a moment as if you were thinking. This was really answered straight away," abian chuckled. " I didn't think that my wife really didn't love me" she said.
"Whispering know! I'm going to sleep!" grunt the woman.
"Sorry, Honey. I just want to talk to you. It feels like a long time ago you have not spoken to you," he said lirih.
"Queen, thank you for taking good care of Tatjana. You are a wonderful mother, Queen. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to father such an amazing little girl. Thank you for being my wife for three years. And I'm sorry for so many mistakes I've made with you. I'm sorry, because I realized too late that I love you so much" Abian said in a raucous voice.
"Do you know why Ayyara divorced me?" ask Abian. "Because he realized that since that night, he had lost me. Every time I try to touch her, you're all I remember. When I found out that the one I touched wasn't you, it felt like I was disappointed. I don't know what you gave me so I could."
'That's because I ruined your mind with medicine, Fool!' queenza's curse in his heart.
"When you were my wife, I couldn't touch you. Ah, what a pity," she chuckled again.
"Queen, can't I feel like that night?"
Queenza's blood rippled at her husband's words.
"I told you not to fuck around, right?" Queenza.
"I just want to feel like doing that with you consciously, Queen. Am I weak so you won't do it? Though you used to give me stimulant drugs to do it."
"Dian, stop!" Queenza's face reddened with embarrassment when she remembered the incident.
"Do I have to give you stimulants too so you want to? Uhhhh!" Abian grimaced as the arm that hugged the wife's body pinched Queenza.
"Sleep, Abian! Or you just go out! I've tolerated for you to sleep here and hug me, yeah."
"OK, okay. You can sleep now. Thank you for talking to me. I'm so happy tonight, Queen. Thank you." Thank you."
"Heemmm" Queenza replied.
"I love you, Queen. I love you so much. If there was a way that could bring you back, I would have done it even if it was past death. It must be so happy to be living a normal life like a family with you and our children." Abian tightened his embrace. "Although that's the case, I'm grateful that you still gave me the opportunity to be called Father by Anna. Thank you, Queen. I'm so happy for that opportunity. I hope one day I can hug and kiss her and say that I love her so much."
Queenza bit her lower lip. Her heart ached hearing the husband's words. He answered nothing of Abian's words until he had no voice. Queenza herself pretended to sleep until she felt her husband's embrace loosened. His breathing began to be regular which signified that Abian had fallen asleep.
The beautiful woman turned around until now the two faced each other. He touched Abian's cheek which was overgrown with a thick beard and he rubbed it slowly. Her tears trickled to see Abian who was now very thin, in contrast to three years ago who looked so charming.
"Do you really love me, Bian? Do you really regret hurting me?" ask Queenza so softly. "I love you too, but the hurt you inflicted makes it hard to forgive you. Woo me, Bian. Persuade me so I can forgive you. I miss you too." Queenza hugged Abian with her head which she buried in her husband's chest. He breathed a masculine fragrance that somehow so aroused his feelings.