Queenzas
Not Having a Life Spirit

Queenza walked quickly along the hospital hallway. He got word that the husband was down to make the woman feel panic. He who is accompanying the child must also be forced to leave it under the pretext of office affairs to make his favorite child become angry because since one week the mother rarely gives time.

Queenza, worried about her husband's circumstances, apologized and left. Even though Tatjana was crying and kept whining.

Arriving at the ICU, Queenza stared from the window as doctors were busily examining her husband. He continued to pray that Abian would be okay. Before long, the doctor came out and asked the beautiful woman to speak in her room. The doctor explained that Abian's condition was declining because the patient seemed to have no passion for life. Abian seemed to be at home with his current state rather than conscious.

Hearing that, Queenza's heart was so sick. How could Abian not want to live. Does he want to leave her too Tatjana? The woman in casual clothes asked for permission to enter the ICU room. The sisters gave her special clothes and sprayed alcohol all over Queenza's body, after which she was able to enter. After one week of treatment, it was the first time Queenza had ever met her husband again.

Since entering, her tears have already shed. The patient man whom he had ignored for three years was now lying so weakly unconscious. Crying sounded from Queenza's lips when he saw the handsome face was now a lot of injuries due to broken glass. His head was bandaged with the body was a lot of injuries that look blue.

Queenza sat next to the gurney. With trembling hands she reached for her husband's hand which was placed on his finger.

"Bian" said Queenza. "Bian, it's me, your naughty wife. Bian, wake. Don't scare me." Queenza stopped talking and now her voice could only let out a sob.

"Bian, Tatjana always asks you. What should I answer? Do I have to say that her father is asleep and won't wake up? Do you want to make our child sad? Yeah, he's our son, Bian. My son and your son, not just Queenza's son, but Abian's son as well. I'm sorry, Bian. Forgive me for being so selfish and punishing you so severely. I realize all the mistakes are with me."

He can't take it anymore. He took off his grasp, then ran out. He sat in the waiting room with his mouth closed. He could no longer endure the pain in his heart. Guilt was so enveloping him. If she was unselfish and hurt her husband. If he forgave Abian when the man apologized and regretted. If he gave the opportunity for the husband must be now the situation is not as it is now.

He's stupid, very stupid. That's how he feels now. His chest felt tight as he recalled how Abian had suffered all this time. I can only look without touching. Can only hold his love without being expressed.

"You're right, Bian. I'm a bad devil." Queenza continued to cry there with a sick feeling. She repeatedly blamed herself for what happened to her husband.

"The Lady can continue to encourage the Master so that he has the spirit of life."

Queenza turned her head when someone spoke to her. A beautiful doctor who is one of the doctors who deal with Abian.

"Life and death are in the hands of God. We can only try to live our lives if we are still breathing. Mr. Abian is still breathing which means there is still hope. However, for now, Master is so at home with his actual condition that it is very dangerous if he does not have the spirit to live. He could have really left" the doctor explained.

"Then, how can my husband have the spirit of life again?" ask Queenza.

"In a way of encouraging, showing that the person he loves does not want him to leave. Or give what he wants that has not been achieved or also bring closer the people he loves very much. For example, wife and child. Usually patients who are comatose with decreased spirit of life will return excited when loved ones are around."

"Kids?" ask Queenza.

"If you love your children so much, we can try to bring them closer together. Maybe this can be powerful," said the doctor.

Queenza was silent at the doctor's words. Abian recalls the words of the night he slept with her. Abian said she was eager to hug and kiss Tatjana. Queenza wiped her tears and looked at the doctor.

"Thank you, Doc. I'll try to take our son to see his father. I have not said that his father had an accident. I'm afraid she's sad and sick because her immune system is weak from birth" Queenza said.

"The lady could explain slowly to him about her father's circumstances. I believe the Madam can calm the Madam's child. Hopefully you will soon realize. Madam don't continue to be sad, because for now the spirit of the Madam is one of the reasons for you to have a reason to live again," said the Doctor. "Then I'll excuse myself for duty again." The doctor left Queenza who was still sitting there.

After the departure of the doctor, Queenza returned to the ICU room. Now, she was a little tough when she met her husband.

"Bian, Mas Bian. Are you still sleeping, hhmm? Mas, he said it would make me happy, why now it makes me sad? Mas, wakeup. I've forgiven you. We start over, yeah. We're rearranging our messy house. I'll lift your sentence, Mas. I'll let you touch me and Tatjana. You can hug and kiss both of us. You can sleep in my room, Mom. I promise, but I'll wake up first. I miss you, Mas. Please, don't make this longing bigger and make my chest feel tight." The woman's tears fell back. She put her husband's hand on her cheek. He kissed repeatedly hoping that Abian would soon wake up.

"Mas Bian, I love you. I never hated you, Mom. I always loved you. Forgive me for my selfishness. Forgive my childish attitude. I promise I'll change. Wake up, yeah. We buy bakpaos together later, we eat there with Tatjana. Thank you for buying me that bakpao, but I'm sorry, I can't eat it because it's all broken, just like my heart was broken in the year of the accident."

The beautiful woman continued to invite Abian to talk. He hoped that when he said the words of love, Abian would have the spirit of life again. Not just words, but it came out of Queenza's heart. The feeling of being harbored, now it is spitting out. He will show his love for Abian. He will never hide it again. The taste that is pressed during this time will be released and will be shown.