Queenzas
A Deep Sense of Misgivings

Queenza entered his mansion. He stared at the house that looked still quiet. Time shows at four in the morning. He had just returned from the hospital to make food for the child. Nana came down and approached her sister.

"Just come home, brother?" ask Nana.

"Yes. Is Anna whining?" ask Queenza.

"Lumayan, Brother. Anna slept last night at eleven because she was waiting for her sister to fall asleep by herself. Now he must be happy because when he woke up the whole house was already at home."

Queenza sat in the pantry and drank the water Nana gave her.

"Capek huh? It's so sorry, my brother." Nana massaged both shoulders of the older sister which made the mature woman smile.

"Thank you, Na." Queenza also enjoyed the massage of his adopted sister.

"Where is Mas Bian, brother?"

"Doctor said, Mas Bian did not have the spirit to live, so he was not aware. He seemed to feel at home in the present state," Queenza said with her eyes closed.

"Na, my sister really hurt Mas Bian. Why should you be so selfish?" ask Queenza to her sister.

"Sister, what happened is fate, you don't have to blame yourself. Most importantly now, we must support Mas Bian in order to have the spirit to live again. If you are sad like this, Mas Bian will be sad too. He could at least see Brother was sad," said Nana who hugged Queenza from behind.

"Is Bian really love with Brother?" ask Queenza.

"Banget, Brother. I witness. Every morning at breakfast, she would look at Brother with a smile. I don't know what he's thinking, but I'm definitely thinking of Brother. And so, every night I used to see Mas Bian at the door of Brother's room, and then he rubbed the door and touched the handle. Once I asked Mas Bian why he always does that, he said Queen must have touched the doorknob when he wanted to enter. So he felt like he had touched my brother's hand when he touched the doorknob."

Queenza closed her eyes. Her heart ached hearing Nana's words. How much did he miss that man to his wife? Queenza's tears fell. He really didn't think that Abian really loved him. Even he had to do such a stupid thing so missed dang wife.

"I'm so stupid, why am I so selfish." Split Queenza's tears. If yesterday he held back his cries, that morning he took it all out by hugging Nana. "God, give me a chance to make amends to my husband. Please, God. Don't take him away, I haven't apologized to him. I haven't been a good wife to her. I want to, O God. I want to hug her and say that I love her."

Hearing that, Nana also joined in crying she continued to hug Queenza tightly. Not even Nana could say anything more. She knows that Queenza loves Abian. But the disappointment that made Queenza do that to her husband. He just wanted to punish her, not hate her.

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"Mother!" Tatjana smiled as she opened her eyes to see her mother. He quickly sat down and hugged the woman who had given birth to him.

"Mother miss Anna. Sorry Mother, yes, who's been busy lately." Queenza rubbed her son's back.

"I'm angry with you, but I'm tired too. I was upset to see Mommy but couldn't" whined the boy who was about to have his 4th birthday.

"Sorry Mother, yes. Anna wants to apologize, Mother, right?" asked Queenza to take off a hug and looked at the little girl who looked very much like her father.

Tatjana nodded and went back in her mother's arms. "Mother, I miss Daddy. When's Dad coming home?"

"Anna misses Daddy?" ask Queenza.

"Yes. Anna wants to see Dad. Although I never hugged Anna, but Anna wanted to be with me."

"Anna wants to hug Dad?" ask Queenza.

"You! Anna wants to be hugged by Dad, carried by Dad, go for a walk with Daddy and Mommy. I used to see my friends who were delivered by her father, but Anna never" replied the boy, who made her chest tight.

Indeed, he did not expect that the effect of his punishment on Abian not only had an impact on the man, but also had an impact on his favorite child. He did not think that the bond between Tatjana and Abian was so close when since Tatjana was born, Abian never touched him. The guilt the more layered Queenza felt. Now, he has to bring Tatjana to meet his father. He must tidy up what he destroyed and reorganized.

Queenza will lift her sentence from now on. He will free Abian and Tatjana to express his love for each other, including himself.

"I'm sorry, Mom, son. May Anna and I forgive Mother's mistakes."

"Why is Mother apologizing?" ask Tatjana.

"The naughty mother pads Anna and Dad. So you have to apologize."

"Mother is not naughty. Mother is the best mother Anna has. Anna dear Mother."

"Mother loves you too, son. Dear Dad too."

While hugging the child, Queenza's phone suddenly rang. The hospital called. Queenza also raised her call, still hugging Tatjana who played the buttons of her shirt.

"Good morning" Queenza replied.

"Yes, I am alone" he replied.

Queenza's eyes were round hearing it. Her heart was pounding violently as the nurse told her husband's condition. His tears fell and he could not stand it anymore.

"Ba-good. I'll be there soon."

Queenza closed her call. "Darling, come with Mother now." The beautiful woman held the child with trembling hands. Her tears were unceasingly falling down by walking hastily towards the main door.

"Mother why cry?" tanya Tatjana is confused.

"We're meeting Dad, yeah. Sorry Mother, son, sorry," Queenza said in a trembling voice.

"Na, Nana!" queenza shouted to her sister in haste.

Before long, Nana came and approached her sister. "What's up, brother?" ask Nana.

"Na, come with Brother. We have to go to the hospital," said Queenza who is still tightly clutched her favorite child.

Nana looked at the brother who was crying again and trembling hands. Nana thought there must be something.

"Come, Brother." The girl did not ask anything to her brother, when she saw Queenza's condition was like a daze so she did not want to add to the burden with her question. He will also know what happens when he gets to the hospital. He wished there was something good for his brother-in-law.