Queenzas
I'm Afraid ....

Three days after waking up, Abian had surgery for a spinal injury. The operation went well with a few hours. After surgery, Abian was taken back to the hospital room. Queenza is so grateful that the operation was successful and the possibility of being able to walk again is quite large.

Throughout the day Queenza waited for her husband who was still unconscious due to the influence of drugs. Until finally the man woke up also made the wife feel grateful.

"Mas, you feel something?" ask Queenza.

"Well," said the man in a soft voice.

Queenza quickly grabbed a glass and helped her husband to drink. After enough, he put the water on the nightstand.

"I'll call the doctor first, yeah." Queenza pressed the call button and soon the nurse came with the doctor as well.

The doctor took Abian's condition seriously.

"Alhamdulillah, your situation is fine. Now we just need to recover, after that we can start physiotherapy. Please do not move her body often for a few days," the doctor explained.

"Good, Doc. Thank you." Thank you."

After that the doctor and nurse went out until now there is only a couple of husband and wife. Queenza sat down next to her husband and held his hand.

"Thank God everything went well" Queenza smiled.

"Alhamdulillah" said Abian. "Where's Anna?"

"Anna's at home with Ayyara. It just so happened that afternoon until this afternoon Nana was in college. It's a good thing that Ayyara can take care of him, otherwise how would I take care of Mas here."

"Ayyara?" ask Abian. "You allowed him to come to our house and close to Tatjana?" ask him again in disbelief.

Queenza smiles. "I made peace with him. Seeing Mas who was in an accident, I suddenly felt afraid of the people around me. I was afraid of them or I left before having a good relationship and regretting it. That's why I'm trying to make peace with him."

"With Papa and Mama?" ask Abian.

"For them it's still very difficult, 13-year-old Mas got a wound that can't heal in a day. But I will try to forgive them even slowly" Queenza said. When he remembered those two people, his heart really hurt.

Abian who understood his wife's feelings could only rub her cheeks. He could not move to embrace her.

"Yes, don't be too forced. It's also very good" Abian said.

"Already, I don't talk much just yet. Rest, yes." Queenza kissed her husband's forehead fondly.

"I just realized I've been told to go back to sleep?"

"Yes that's not it, it means just be quiet don't talk much. It's still recovering from the anesthetic effect."

"Yes I'm quiet."

Finally Abian fell silent and did not speak anymore. Queenza himself was busy with his tablet. It's been almost 2 weeks he did not enter the office making a stacking job. Many times also his phone rang which heard a call from Maryam.

Abian felt sorry to see his wife. All day he was in the hospital, then at dawn returned home to take care of his son. Not to mention having to take care of the company. Although not to the office, but the work must accumulate.

"You go to the hospital, I can't go to the office for now. If there are clients who want to meet please make a schedule again. If they refuse, then cancel the cooperation" Queenza said while talking to Maryam on the phone.

When he finished, he put his phone on the table, then refocused it on the tablet. Occasionally he rubs his shoulders that feel sore. Although in the VVIP room there is a bed to wait, it still feels different. But, he and Abian had no one else. If she is not the one who takes care of her husband, then who else?

Seeing the tired face of Queenza, Abian was sad. He called his wife, asking her to come closer. Queenza walked over and Abian asked his wife to sit on the lip of the bed. The woman also complied.

Abian grabbed the delicate hand, then he brought it to be snorted. "Thank you for being so considerate of me and sorry for making you tired, dear" he said regretfully.

"Why say that? You're my husband, I deserve to take care of you. Don't talk weird, ah. Take a break, yes," Queenza said.

Abian looked smilingly at his wife. He had not expected that such a fierce woman could be so gentle. It was like a dream to see his wife's attitude. Queenza can only be gentle on Tatjana and Nana. Even Nana is often rebuked explicitly if she makes a mistake. But now what does he see? It is like a sweet angel.

"You're beautiful."

"I know I'm pretty. No need to say I know either."

"Come on." Abian patted his chest.

"You just finished the operation, Mom. Don't be weird."

"Even if you're next to me, my pain goes away, Queen. Come on over."

"But ...." Queenza was doubtful.

"It's okay, honey. I want to hug you. Should I beg?"

Queenza stood up and sat down in a chair. Carefully she put her head on her husband's chest. Be so careful that Abian's body doesn't move. He smiled and hugged his wife. Repeatedly he kissed the end of Queenza's head that was so fragrant.

The two were silent, enjoying the beautiful moment together. Almost five years they were married, never both of them felt a romantic moment. From the start, only the problems they face until the night before Abian's accident become the beginning of their intimacy. Queenza did not forgive her husband.

"For visuals, you are beautiful. Who is not fascinated by the beauty of Queenza Safaluna? However, what you have shown so far is much different from your beauty. Even with her own husband, she was presumably begging for mercy."

The huft! It would have been so bad that Queenza hit her husband's chest if he had not remembered that he was lying weak.

"You want me to be like that?" ask Queenza.

Of course not! Who would want to have a fierce wife and jutek? For sure Abian prefers his gentle wife as now who makes himself more and more in love with Queenza.

"According to Mas, is it gentler me or Ayyara?"

"Darling, I can't compare you to him. Everyone has their own character. But for sure, the woman I love now and beyond is just you, Queenza."

"Bragging! I remember once you said you would never love a woman like me. Now just say I love you," Queenza sneered.

"I've said that before?" ask Abian who is called Queenza. "Maybe at that time my head was hit and lost his mind" he chuckled.

Queenza moved, then looked into her husband's eyes so deeply.

"Did you really love me?" ask Queenza. "Isn't it because Tatjana is holding on?" ask again.

"Hey, why are you mellow?" asked Abian smiling.

Queenza sighed, she looked back at Abian who was so intensely looking at her.

"Mas, I hate you, I'm disappointed in you for what you did three years ago. Because of you, I almost lost Tatjana, my only family. That's why I'm so mad at you. But, I can't deny it either, other than Tatjana, you're the only one I have, Mas. You're the only one who's always there for me. Sometimes, I'm afraid you'll be with me just because of our son and forced to stick with me. What else I know is that you love Ayyara very much" he said lowered his head.

"I realize I'm not as gentle as Ayyara, not as sweet as her and not as soothing as you. I'm afraid you just had to."

"Darling, it looks like you need something not to think weirdly. Come here, come closer."

Queenza approached, until suddenly Abian grabbed both of his cheeks, then pulled him and kissed his lips. The beautiful woman was surprised to find out what her husband did in a hurry he held his body on the wall so as not to fall and hit her husband. Queenza also resigned. She closed the matan by enjoying the gentle kiss her husband gave her. His fear, worry, negative thoughts slowly dissipated as he felt how Abian was treating him.

The man took off his kiss. He rubs sexy lips of Queenza who basar by him. "You're too tired, honey. That's why I think weird. Don't ask me again about my feelings, Queen. I love you so much. If there were no Tatjana I would still be next to you. It's not that I don't love our son, I love him so much, especially since I've been wanting to have a daughter.

"I'm grateful he was born as I expected. However, Tatjana was just a bonus when I got you, Queen. And I'm so lucky to have you both."

Queenza was silent hearing that. He smiled full of haru. She didn't know that her husband really loved her.

Due to the near loss of Abian, fear often sprang up in Queenza's head. Moreover, he has the trauma of being abandoned by a loved one. So, now she feels the fear of losing it, so every moment continues to question how her husband feels.

Abian himself knew the state of the wife, therefore, he did not get tired of answering the same questions that his wife continued to ask. Even so, Abian is grateful that Queenza has now accepted it wholeheartedly. Now it's his job to foster the wife's belief that he only loves his wife and no other woman.