Reflections
Prologues

Faint - faint, I saw it. "I really hate you," she said, her face filled with anger, pointing at me with her fingers. His eyes filled with hatred, His face getting distorted. I felt something holding my chest, making it hard for me to breathe. It's just a nightmare, right? I hope I wake up soon.

I finally woke up in wet clothes. My heart skipped a beat, and the pulse on my temple felt hard. "Again" I whispered in my heart. I grabbed the wall clock and saw the number showing 05:40. It took me about ten minutes for my body to finally get out of bed.

I stepped onto the sports field, feeling the fresh morning breeze caress my face. A neat green grass lay before me. Low boisterous cheers from the students who were practicing filled the air, creating an atmosphere of life around.

Today is Tuesday, probably the worst day of the seven days. Because today is the time of sports lessons. I am not a person who has an athletic body or a person who is good at sports, even I am surprised my body can survive until now. With doubtful steps, I started walking towards my gym teacher.

I heard her breathing before I got near her. "Once again you are the same father" he said, trying to catch his breath.

"Although this class is an odd number, try to find a partner so as not to always be with the father," he said again, creating new pressure for me. Sports always forced me to find a partner. I'm confused, of the thousands of types that exist he always chooses the same sport.

"Perhaps, I wouldn't hate her so much if she stopped making partners" I murmured inwardly, but of course I didn't dare to tell her. I wonder, how many times have I heard that phrase? I'm getting tired of this situation.

"Alright sir," I said in a soft voice, trying to cover up my irritation. But actually I am too

I wonder how much I lied?

Can be seen pink in the high sky, indicating the change of activity sessions. Really, really,

how can I explain why I hate people who wear happy faces?

Okay, I confess, maybe all I said was lies. Perhaps, this is just an inferiority complex that haunts my mind like a ghost. They just remind me that I

it can't be like that, happy and excited without a burden.

I wonder, how they feel? Multiverse theory, he says there are all sorts of versions of myself in

another universe. I wonder, is there a universe where I don't need to feel this? A universe where I can truly feel free from this discomfort.

Sometimes, I wonder what would have happened if I hadn't been born like this. If that experience shaped someone, would I be able to be better and happier if I were born different?

I don't know, these thoughts often haunt me in the middle of the night. I try to find answers, to find the meaning of everything I feel, but sometimes it all feels so complicated and confusing. I'm stuck, just keep going around in circles.

And again, I repeated my activities like yesterday. I'm sick of all this. Again, again,

I sat in the same place, at the same time, around the same people as well. Life is weird, what's the point? Do we have to eat, sleep, go to school every day until we die? Will it be any different when you grow up? If so, isn't that sad enough?

I hate this routine. Is human life..my life really worth it? I took the earphones to try to avoid the crowded atmosphere, this kind of condition always

distracted me. I hold a repeat value of 82, if the matter of value does not seem to matter. Suddenly, someone patted me on the back and caused me to be surprised. "Hey, what are you doing?" he said, while removing my earphones and wearing them himself. Rico, at the end of the day he's always trying to get close to me, and I don't understand why.

"Eh, why isn't there music?" he looks confused.

"Return it" I said.

I took back the earphones he had taken, trying to avoid further conversation. "Right now I

it's busy, now go" I said, hoping he'd understand.

I always use earphones so people don't have to approach me. But there are also people like him. Suddenly, there was someone from another class greeting Rico.

"Hi Ric," said the man.

"Hey. So, how's it?" answer Rico.

"You're right, the food was really good" he said.

"Eat it, not that I told you," Rico replied.

I can only be silent seeing that. I don't know why my heart is so agitated. I sighed, trying to ignore them.

"Well, you'll do your job immediately. I know you're busy with OSIS, right?" I tried with a soft voice. Go away, don't be noisy around me, I want to say so much, but I just hold it in my heart. However, Rico brought his head closer to my ears and changed the look on his face. Then he reminded me, "You remember our promise, right? Don't you dare to be broken.". Then Rico left class, left me. “And don't come back again”, I murmured.

Yahh, lie to her if I pretend I don't know why she's trying to get close to me. In the afternoon that was supposed to be normal, I found something special. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have been

A teenage boy who stands tall with a dignified and attention-grabbing attitude. He wears

the school uniform is neat and looks confident with its sturdy posture.

His black hair was neatly combed and his eyes looked sharp, giving off an impression of intelligence and foresight. A smile appeared on his face as he spoke to his friends, showing the friendly and adorable side of his character.

But who would have thought, Si Rico, a seemingly friendly and kind OSIS vice-chairman, was bullying a child in a corner of the park. As a silent witness, I only saw the victim who turned to me with a hopeful look, like looking for help.

However, Rico slowly raised his index finger to the front of his mouth, giving me the cue to be quiet.

"You don't want to experience the same thing, do you?" whisper to me sharply. "This is our secret, you understand?"

I was shocked and confused by this situation. Who would have thought a vice chairman of OSIS who looks so good

and a friendly can do something like this? Well, everyone has their own secrets.

Of course, I'll follow him. I'm not a hero or anything. I knew that if I reported this behavior, there was no guarantee that he would stop or that he might even increase, possibly even involving me in greater trouble. Sometimes silence is the best decision you can make. In this situation, the most rational is to be silent and to be a careful observer.

I began to observe the students around me. Doesn't everyone have their role and environment

by yourself? I've been aware for a long time, that my role is an observer on the side, a figurehead.

The sun goes down, indicating it is late afternoon. I sat down and used my earphones. It's time to go home. I tidied up the books and earphones, then put them in a bag. I carried the bag in one arm and walked through the deserted hallway of the school. I let out a breath. I wonder when I can stop doing all this? Right now, I just don't want to do anything.

I was standing on the stairs on the school floor. Mom, can I stop? I can stop now, right? Will anyone replace me if I leave? I stood on the stairs of the school floor, thinking for a moment. If I disappeared now, would there be someone else to replace me? What if I slip here, can I get hurt maybe even die?

Suddenly, a girl appeared from the wall. He said, "Died because, pu ha ha, slipped on the stairs."

"Slightly more creative" said the girl.

That's when I saw it right. A girl who looks a little see-through.

Even though he looked like a teenager, he was wearing an elementary school uniform. Her long, light brown hair looked as smooth as silk, touching her shoulders gently. His eyes glittered, as if keeping a mysterious secret behind them. Her gentle and curious smile made her look graceful, as if she was a little elf lost in the human world. Awaa, cosplayers!

"What do you think cosplayers are?" tanyakanya.

"Where did anyone come like this?" abugn.

Uh, did he just read my mind? The ghost girl smiled, "Truly, I can listen to your thoughts."

"really?" my many. So to make sure of that, I thought of something. I can see his face

that turns red, "Disease, pervert!"

Huh, it seems like he's not lying. "Don't I tell you?" his gerrick.

Since she replied like that, it seems like she is a girl. He looks pissed, "Oi, damn, do I look like a man? You'd be surprised to know about crossdress."

Is she finally cosplaying? More importantly, who are you? "I'm glad you asked" he said, but as I walked, the girl suddenly appeared again from below. "Don't ignore me, goddamn it!"

Cih, I guess I can clear it up. I sighed and asked, "So, what do you want?"

The girl smiled, and looking at her smile, I knew it wasn't a good sign. "I've been watching you for a long time. All this time, you just seemed to spend all your time sulking yourself. You never try to change or care about your surroundings."

"In other words, if you continue like this, your life will not benefit society" he continued.

Wow, that is indeed one straightforward way to say it. I feel annoyed to hear it. "Ck, do you just want to make fun of me or what?"

He smiled gently, "If you want me to stay away from around you, you should start changing your attitude."

Actually, what's the problem?