SECOND TIME - LOVE IN CASTE
46. FAREWELL KISS

"Nathan, I have to be realistic, I can't say yes to you, because I don't want to hurt myself. I don't know what your household problems are, whether you're in a match or not. Obviously, you're married and that means I can't be between you and your wife. Sorry Nathan, don't ask me to promise and wait for you." Sanity still belongs to Ynara.

"I was wrong, I hurt you, I no longer defend myself, I'm honest, I'm the same Delia just married on paper, that's all. We both can't refuse our parents, wait for me any minute, I'll finish as soon as possible." Nathan stubbornly asks for a chance and tries to convince Nara. But Nara who was already sick was very difficult to heal.

"Nathan listen! It is true that my heart feels comfort when I am with you. It's true that I love you. But with the facts I just learned tonight, I still have logic. I have to think far ahead before I make a decision. Do your parents agree that their children are divorced? Delia's the wife your parents chose, right? They must never have expected your farewell." Nara shakes her head and refuses all of Nathan's requests.

"Nathan, I can't believe that there's still a way for us going forward. If there were, it would be very difficult. I don't want to hurt anyone and I don't want to be someone who's hated and unwanted because I have to maintain this relationship."

"Trust me, please!" Nathan with his desperate face clasped tightly onto Nara's hand. His eyes were reddened from holding back the crying.

"I promise, Ynara. I'm Janj--"

"Don't!" Nara cut Nathan's words quickly. "Never promise!" continued again.

Nara had been promised by someone first but in the end the promise was only a promise. For this time, Nara did not want to hear someone's promise again let alone until consumed by his promise. Enough's enough! do not fall deeper.

Nara pulls her hand from Nathan's.

"My decision is round, don't ever see me again, if one day we meet just think of us as partners who are working together!" Nara looked at Nathan as she said it. Poor nathan! His scalp a sign of rejection of all the words Nara was ignored by the girl. Nara pretended not to see it.

If you obey your heart, it seems that Nara is not a problem to be a actor because of her love for Nathan and also information from Nathan that his relationship with Delia is not like other husband and wife, like other husband and wife, but Nara's brain hasn't shifted. Tonight's incident at the cafe is clear that Nathan's entire extended family is very supportive of Delia. From their sparkling faces also look very sincere to love Delia.

"Now go home! We're done dis-hmmppppphh"

Nathan, who Nara says is a bastard, a shameless jerk, pulls Nara's head and kisses her when Nara kicks him out again. As Nara rejects Nathan's actions, she tries to pull his head and shove Nathan's shoulder but Nathan's hand holds Nara firmly on his neck. Nathan kisses a little rough and pushes Nara's body to lean on the handle of the stairs. Unfortunately the rough kiss was well liked by Nara. He lulled down and even returned Nathan's kiss. The two took a sip, clinging to each other as if they did not want to part. There was a slight salty taste, perhaps from the tears that were on each cheek.

"Enoughs! This is the last time!" Nara pushed Nathan away and rubbed his wet lips and face.

"Please go out!

"Darling-"

"Go out!" Nara lifted the palm

his hand toward Nathan to break off the sentence that would spurt out from his mouth

Nathan. Nara is tired. Tired of his mind and body.

"Dear please-!"

"GO-OUT-NOW!"

******

One week goes by quickly, every day Nathan regularly sends Ynara messages and unfortunately all just read without

reply like a newspaper. Words of love and apology are always there

in Nathan's message.

Without anyone knowing the cause, Nara now turned more reserved and more moody. His face tightened again and his emotions were out of control. Even his friends could be his targets as well.

"Are you okay, Ynara?" Sari and Dina

looking at Ynara who they thought was becoming more and more tyrannical and her aura seemed to darken.

"Yes, don't worry! i'm okay!" Nara smiled

but it was not an attractive smile anymore as usual. It's just a smile

tranquilizer and at the same time become a warning smile so as not to ask a lot

hal.

"But I don't think you're okay! You've been a little pale and moody lately." Dina insisted on asking Nara.

"Truly Din, I'm okay! Maybe because of me

fatigue is so pale." What fatigue? Even this one week he always comes home when office hours are over.  The habit of Nara who always comes home from

office hours or even overtime for not wanting to bring work home

he suddenly turned into the first person to go home when the clock arrived

go home. Sometimes documents that need to be checked are also ignored for tomorrow

for reasons no longer have time, already want to go home.

"If you need a storymate, we-we ad

---"

the sound of a spoon slamming on the table. Sari and Dina stared at the astonished Ynara

because of his actions. Really, this is not the Ynara they know.

"I said I'm okay. I don't need friends for

tell stories, but why are you always urgent? What is the need for cursive

from you?" Very flatly Nara asked Dina and her eyes were very cruel.

"My appetite is gone!" Worn

saying that. Nara rushed to her feet and left the canteen with accompaniment

full gaze of questions of the canteen occupants. After that, the atmosphere became noisy because of talking about the change.

"Am I wrong to ask? I just wanted to help her!" Dina spoke to Sari and her tears dripped. Sari

the side could only stroke Dina's arm. The two were not expecting, Ynara

the innocent and friendly girl could get angry without them knowing what the cause was.

"What's wrong? How all whispers."

Melda who had just walked into the cafeteria and was sitting in front of Sari asked. He saw there was a lunch plate left

more than half a serving.

"Which way?" tanyanya back seraya

plucking a lump of vegetables from Nara's plate.

"Wooy!" Melda shook her hands in front

the faces of his friends because he was ignored. "What's wrong, anyway? Coco

his face on that? Where's nara? I want to protest, I have time to spend

my precious lunch is for revision of reports only. Ck! Lazy is the same

him now. Ngamok keeps feeling."

"Ynara left because of anger. That's why they

whispers. Nara yelled at Dina earlier. Lookie! Dina until trembling."

"Times, anyway?"

"Ask the people here."

Until Jane also came and heard the story from her friends. The four girls talk about Nara and conclude it may be a family matter.

*****

Without batting an eye, Nara saw the woman walking gracefully towards him. The woman with the title of wife smiled and asked

sky Existence.

"The sky is there, right?" Even though he was smiling,

that smile feels awkward. It has been a long time since that woman visited.

"So, come on in, ma'am!" Nara

also tried to smile even though in his heart he said even cursing women

that's. 'Basic women. Does he have no shame? I obviously know him

who, even there is no awkward coming here.'

Nara shook her head and took a breath and threw it away

quick one. "It's none of your business, Nar!" He reminded himself not to care about the woman. 'Who he is and how he is with people

that's none of your business, Nar. How does that relate to Nathan

your business now.'