Special Maid For Om Duda
OTW Red Prayer Rest
"If we get married soon are you ready?" I asked, honestly I was very unpleasant, but again I was thought by the words of Lyra, and also the wishes of the Father. I was afraid that the life of Father was not long, and I could not grant his last wish. I feel like I'm the most guilty child.
Uhuk... Uhuk... My employer suddenly choked.
"Drink Mas!" I held out a glass of water I used to drink. So panicked I forgot all I gave was drinking water that I had drunk a few sips.
"What did you say? Aren't you the one who wants to know us first?" asked my master with a heavy look and voice indicating that he was really shocked by my words.
I looked down, and my appetite was gone, but I was hungry, but this time I had a few mouthfuls of fullness. I was too afraid that my employer would judge me too badly.
"I just heard the news that you in the village are not healthy, and you always want to see me married. I'm afraid you're not long and I can't grant you your wish" I answered honestly.
Well, even though I myself have not been too familiar with my master, but I am sure that my master has a very good nature and also seen from his attitude he can be a good priest, just trying not to.
"But we just got to know and what if I'm not a good husband to you?" he asked, looking intently at me, even for a moment our eyes met each other as if we were looking for seriousness from the look in each eye.
"Well, I'm honestly just as afraid that we're just hurting each other, afraid that our thoughts are not in line, afraid that I can't be a good wife, as you'd expect. But not the signs of a person who behaves well are those who have fear. Including the fear you said, because when we have that fear, the sign is that we will be really careful that what we fear will not happen." I again wrote a quote from one of the scholars that I had listened to his study.
For a moment Aarav was silent as if he was thinking, and I was the same. I resigned Lilahitala, to this fate. I may also be too gratuitous, but it is my good intention that I want to marry because of God.
"All right, I'll tell Mamih, and Papih. You also tell your family that there are men who want to marry you" he said. My body immediately froze, unable to say anything else I also did not know, my feelings were completely shady when I heard the words of my master.
"You're serious Mas, don't you want to ask God for guidance first, because I'm honestly afraid that you'll regret it when you marry me" I suggested carefully. I did not want to take advantage of my employer's problems with his ex-wife to marry me, although I also hoped that Aarav was my real soul mate, and I used this to realize my father's wishes.
Aarav for a few times looked at me as if he was watching me and looking for the advantages of my many shortcomings.
"I don't think it's necessary, I'm sure that you're a woman of good family, the way you behave, talk and I see you as a good person, Mamih just seems to like you, and a few times praising the way you work, it's been enough to convince me that you're a good man, and it's natural for me to make a wife, and that our shortcomings can be corrected together. I am also a human being who has only one advantage over a million shortcomings."
Serrr again my blood seemed to flow faster than my head, and made me for a moment back flinching.
"Hopefully what my master said was the truth he was willing to correct our shortcomings together" my inner self with a sweet smile to the man who would accept me to make him his wife.
"By the way you want to ask what dowry for dowry later?" ask Aarav. I was immediately surprised by the question. Not expecting, for sure. Moreover, it is too early to discuss dowry.
I have to be careful to answer it, because usually the dowry is sensitive, we ask a lot, because it means men appreciate us, afraid that we think we are too utilizing the situation, because it means men respect us, answering at a price that is too cheap is also afraid that the men do not appreciate us as women.
"It feels like if I ask, I'm too despicable because that means I respect myself. You better give it willingly. Notya ulama said that the dowry was a gift from the groom to the bride, as a proof of honesty that the man wanted to marry the woman. Even the proposition about dowry has also been set in the word of God, Q.S An-Nisa verse 4 which means: Give Maskawin (Mahar) to the woman you marry as a gift voluntarily. So it is Mas who gives, not me who asks," I replied cautiously would not be impressed patronizing.
I see Aarav quite satisfied with my answer. "Well, tomorrow we go to Mamih's house to ask for the blessing of my parents, after which we can visit your family."
The deg!! Back I was shocked. "Lord, is this the answer you gave?" My heart rippled with great joy, happiness, and fear, fear that I could not make my husband and my extended family happy, a trust that was quite heavy when we decided to get married. Worship with a great reward and at the same time a test that is not easy. Am I ready for this?
Is this the end of my prayers or is this the beginning of a new destiny?