
I laughed bitterly for the umpteenth time, as if it had become a tradition every there is a big event in our family there must be a commotion. In the past until my failed marriage ended, will the commotion this time be worse? Or even this commotion has no effect on the event we hold? I don't know if a new trial will start.
I looked at my youngest brother's face as if there was a smile of satisfaction on his face. Unlike my other two sisters, they seem to have a sense of regret. After being satisfied to look at my two sisters, I now turn my eyes to my parents. I saw disappointment on Mom and Dad's faces.
I tried to be quiet, even though my emotions were in the air. I'm even ready when all this shameful stuff is going to be dumped on me, like it was before. Ah, it is common for this heart to be forced to give in and admit wrongdoing, even though I did not start it. It's not like a brother has to give up on his sister. Again I remembered the words of the sacred Father.
"Lyra, what exactly are you planning to do again?" ask the Father this time directly towards the target of Lyra, different as usual the first called usually me. Because I was the first child.
I can see from the tail of my eyes, my youngest brother looked shocked when his name was first mentioned by the Father, the tone of the Father's speech was firm and also looks angry, making Lyra's face reddened and tense.
"Mom.and not Lyra who started Sir, Mom," she admitted, I just kept quiet and listened with my cynical smile. Well, it's always the answer when you make a mistake. 'It wasn't me who started' It was as if he only dared to group together, when himself turned out like crackers in rainwater.
"If not who are you? You already know everything, without you asking questions or your other Mothers or even neighbors. You started it. Don't you have any pity on your mother getting married? At least once, don't make a fuss. You think you're gonna turn out to have a husband and kids, but instead you see you're getting into-so." The Father in a firm voice spoke standing up, while we sat in chairs, including Mother sitting in our midst.
My heart instantly cooled, the flames of my anger in a short time instantly dampened as if someone was dousing it with cold water. Honestly from so many years I often involved check-in with my brothers recently this time Father as if standing on my side. I feel that the Father is now a just man, not as he has been. Whoever's wrong, the first child who must understand his brother's mistakes.
"Well that's not what Lyra said is true. Sister Lydia's husband-to-be? Where is the fault?" he continued to defend.
"Pregnant first, the debts as if Lydia's future husband were a mad man of praise, as well as other accusations. You don't spread rumors that don't Deck. The shame later not only Lydia but also the same Mother Father, we are all ashamed. Enough we're embarrassed because you are pregnant first with your sister's future husband first, don't make you embarrassed again with the news that you corals." This time, my mother spoke up. Same with Father, Mother also seemed emotional with the actions of my youngest brother.
I looked down, my heart felt so cold when both my parents defended me and my future husband. Until I felt no tears.
"Oh my God, this is what it feels like to be defended by my parents in front of my sisters" my inner self with a melodious heart.
Father and Mother also counseled my other sisters Lisa and Lika, whom I saw not too much in my marriage problems. Besides Lyra who was always jealous of me. Ah maybe I am more fortunate in terms of education and business, I am independent even though you always help my finances, but because of my efforts I can buy anything with my money. When asked about faces, we are equally beautiful, just that I choose to look covered in contrast to Lyra who likes an open dress style. Return again to the comfort of each and every understanding of religion.
"Udah you just rest Ma'am, later you go out of the room if it is going to pass a series of events. Let's not stress if there's any shaking," Rest let alone your marriage is only three days away. There is a midodareni night event that you have to pass, a lecture on the night before the agreement, so you have to calm down do not think of the macem-macem." Mr. closing the hearing this time, which is not too long may only last about thirty minutes.
I said goodbye to my parents, with a happy and calm heart I left the Father's private room. I even put my feet lighter than when I came in.
It turns out that Father and Mother can be firm also on my sisters. Is it possible because I'm getting married and will leave this house following my husband, so they're being nice. I tried to shake my mind and I tried to be relaxed and calm, following what Mom and Dad said. Quiet in the room reading books that might make me not tense anymore.
At night I returned to the room after welcoming guests who came, especially guests from the family of the Father who came far to see my wedding. Since the incident, my sister and I have always talked about something important. Even I don't see Lyra tonight, there's only Lysa and Lyka. Ah, maybe he's angry, let it be normal.
After chatting with my extended family, I went back into the room. Cape also pretended to smile and look cheerful, whereas in my heart I began to feel increasingly unsettled. Especially from my future husband there is no news. I want to ask first and not feel good for fear of disturbing them. I did not ask, I was getting worried too.
I grabbed my phone that I had stored in the drawer, hoping for a message from my future husband, but there was no message report. My heart ached a little and was again shrouded in doubt. I try to prepare my heart when what I fear happens. But I am not strong. As great as I try to tenanng, but in fact I still find it difficult to do that, especially when time is eroding towards a happy day.
From behind the window I was struck, staring at the depth of the night, and the star-studded sky. With a cool breeze I tried to express my longing, fear, and emptiness in a setatus upload.
From behind the window, I looked at everything that had happened
Trying to tell a story in silence, will be heartbroken
But the silent did not hear
Then I asked the dark
But the dark did not give an answer either
All I got was silence
In silence, I whispered to my heart
What is this taste actually?
Is this just a feeling of longing?
Is it just my fear?
Will this be a sign that all my hopes will be lost?
Grey spot decorate longs
Remembering thoughts with memories
The night spilled it all
Go far away there
How's things?
Don't ask me what it's like
This mute miss
Only one I want to know will answer
'I'm fine'
Send, my thumb pressed the word ok, and in a matter of seconds the photo that I just shared where I had shot with a camera shot, the night atmosphere in my village with a caption that describes a little bit of my grief.
I immediately gasped in shock when Aarav immediately made a call I was confused even until my face felt hot as if it was burning.
Lift up, no, I just feel in a difficult situation, "Oh Lydia why are you so stupid, use the love codes. It's my turn to be confused myself." I cursed this stupid self.
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