Take Me To Your Heart
Chapter 100 - I'm sorry, Nat

The next day, Regan and Renatta return home to the Regan family. The plan is there to stay for a week, at the house of Papa Dewa even a week. After that they will stay in Regan's apartment until the house that Regan is building is finished.

Renatta's presence was greeted with a sweet smile by Mommy Jessie and Oma Lina. Even Regan felt alienated when there was Renatta. He felt like a wasted child.

"Mom, Oma, am I here? You guys didn't welcome me either?" regan.

"Who are you?" say Mommy Jessie and Oma Lina together.

Regan pursed her lips as it was not considered. While Renatta chuckled as Regan sulked. But, in Regan's heart, she was really happy, because her loved ones were well received in her family.

"Nat, how about for almost 3 days at the hotel? Did you enjoy it?" ask Mommy Jessie.

Renatta did not answer. He even embarrassed the cat and reddened his cheeks. Which he remembers when at the hotel ya, the anu-anu with Regan. How could such a thing he tell Mommy Jessie and Oma Lina.

"Mommy, really being a person, it's obviously enjoying it. Moreover, we can do whatever we want without any distractions."

Regan answered the question because Renatta never answered it.

"Well, ladies, I want to take my wife to the room first. We're both very tired, wanting to rest in the room."

Regan took Renatta away from the two mothers who were full of anxiety.

While in the room, Regan sat Renatta in bed.

"You don't talk to Mommy and Oma. You have been a gossipmonger for a long time. Especially what you guys are gossiping about your own partner. Just don't!" ban Regan.

"Well, why not? It's up to me dong!"

"It's kind of a darling."

"Hm."

Muach

Regan kissed Renatta's lips without warning.

"It's a very habit, he likes nyosor suddenly."

"Mistake it yourself, why are your rich lips asking to be kissed."

"Whose lips can talk?" asked Renatta who was astonished.

"Yes the point is, I know the language of your lips."

"God!"

"Hehe."

Renatta shook his head to look at Regan's behavior. Especially now that Regan is spoiled on him, asking to be rubbed off on his head, like a kitten. But, Renatta was grateful, because Regan only showed his side in front of him. While in front of others, he would look fierce.

Renatta smiled happily.

"Thank you for loving me so much. Let's keep this love together to stay intact" Renatta said.

"Without you talking like that, I will always keep our love. I'm so hard to find you. Through all kinds of obstacles. If it finally runs aground, what for?"

Renatta did not respond to him anymore. He just stroked Regan's head gently until Regan finally fell asleep.

"Thank you for taking me out of my bad life and accepting me for who I am. I don't know what it would be like if we never met again. I am truly grateful that God brought us together again and made us a married couple. I love you my husband."

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Time passed, a week had passed Renatta and Regan at the Regan family home, now changing to stay at the house of Papa Dewa. Every night, the sound of a crying baby is heard. At first Regan was annoyed because it was unusual, but for a long time he got used to it too. Even Nesha gave a little encouragement to Regan.

"Thank you learning to be a father, help sister keep Nelson with Natta. Later you will feel like this if you have children later. Wake up in the middle of the night, hearing the cries of children. Start to understand what makes children cry, can be because of hunger, want pup or because of pain as well. So, you learn from now."

Regan just nodded. Suddenly an idea pops into Regan's head.

Nesha.

"For the time being, I'm not looking to hook up with men anymore. I just want to focus on raising her. I'm not ready for a new relationship either, I'm afraid of being let down again which I'll end up hurting. It's better this way."

"But if you change your mind, you can call me."

Nesha nodded then went to the kitchen to brew milk for her to drink so that Nelson received a nutritious intake also from her ASI.

While Regan and Renatta play with Nelson who is still a henchman in Regan's arms. Indeed, when viewed from the way Regan carries, it is very suitable to be a father.

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Time passed, a week had Regan and Renatta living in Papa Dewa's house. They return to Regan's apartment to live together. Before starting her life, Renatta wanted to visit Amanda one last time, he wanted to have a heart-to-heart talk with Amanda. Regan initially rejects Renatta's plan, but because of Renatta's persuasion that he can not refuse, Regan finally allows.

The two of them go to the police station, Regan waiting outside while Renatta is inside to chat with Amanda.

Renatta's presence was not welcomed with Amanda, but was stared cynically by Amanda.

"Would you like to come here? Wanna laugh at me? Because you suffer like this? You must be happy, right?"

Renatta nodded slowly.

"I'm not happy Manda. I came to make peace. I want you to let go of all that resentment and hatred. There's no point in Manda," said Renatta.

"Omong empty! Peace said? I don't want to! I still hate you! I hate it because you have everything! I hate it because you've always flattered people even to the point of being feared. While me? I'm just a regular guy who just happens to be the next kid from a rich family. But now? I'm back to being a regular person. I envy you! Why do you have to live so well?"

Amanda spilled all her heart in front of Renatta. The woman could no longer hide it.

"But, you know, I was at the lowest point when my papa was arrested by the police. Even I was bullied and had no friends at all."

"You knew? At that moment, I have a loophole to snatch everything you want. Unfortunately, I was only able to achieve it after 8 years had passed. But what's going on now? All failed miserably! Why do you and Regan have to fall in love? That never occurred to me! I thought you'd continue to be heartbroken because Devan I took it from you. Until I divorced Devan, and you got heartbroken. But all those plans are gone, because you fell in love. You guys look so happy with each other. I hate that! Because I never get that kind of love until it makes me happy!"

This time Amanda shed her tears. He completely let out all his emotions in front of Renatta.

"You're wrong Manda. You once had that sincere love. But you ignored it yourself. You get sincere love from Regan and Devan at the same time. You should have accepted that sincere love as well."

Amanda remembers Devan. The man always patiently accepted himself. Never even once snapped at her unless she was being compared to Regan.

Amanda was crying. He realized all his mistakes. He realized when he was in the pit of sin and guilt. Amanda even covered her face because she did not want Renatta to tease her.

"Manda, the good man has a past, and the bad man has a right to have a future. So please change for yourself. At least you start introspection and don't keep blaming others for your own actions. I've forgotten all the mistakes you've made and I've forgiven you too. I know I have the same fault with you. Because I want to live in a new mood, without the burden of the mind. I hope you are too. Keep your health here. Thank you, because of you, I learned so many life lessons. Taught me to stay strong and strong. Goodbye Manda, say hello to my aunt."

When Renatta stood up and was about to leave, Amanda prevented him.

"Why? Why to the end you don't get angry and hate me? Why Nat? You should be angry and take it all out on me! Huhoo! I hate you! I hate you being too good! I hate!"

Renatta took his breath.

"Hate will only destroy us slowly. Not good to keep."

"But still you should hate me Nat!"

"I used to hate you, but that was it. After some bad things happened to me, I always thought that it was all karma that I received from my bad treatment. In fact, I feel like I don't deserve to be happy. But as time went on, if I continued to cultivate that hate, it felt like my heart was uncomfortable, so I always begged you for forgiveness first so that my heart was calm and my life felt peaceful. Please, don't hate anybody else, Manda."

Renatta was about to come out again, but stopped again, because he heard an apology from Amanda.

"I'm sorry Nat, sorry. I was completely wrong" Amanda said in tears.

After getting an apology from Amanda, her heart became relieved. Renatta went out of there with a smile.

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TB