Take Me To Your Heart
Chapter 44 - I like you

"Hi Nat, how are you?" greeting Devan who is trying to look fine.

"Not to cover up your grief Dev. Just tell me what you want to say. My tidings are not good, just look at my way limp like this" replied Renatta who then sat in front of Renatta.

Devan seemed to be breathing. He was confused about where to tell it from. At a time like this, it was Renatta that he could rely on. Because Renatta always provides solutions when he confides. But seeing Renatta's limping leg so, Devan so feel not heart too. It will add to the burden of Renatta.

"Tell me, don't think much" Renatta said.

"Why did you get a cut on your knee?"

"Oh, this just fell right after the copet. But it's safe. It was treated too. So, you better tell me your problem. Why did you arrive in London and in the same hotel as me. Because come to think of it, it feels really weird. Especially your face that looks unhappy."

Devan continued to sigh. He started telling me why he was there. He is in London following Amanda who ran away because of their quarrel. Though if remembered again, their quarrels always happened because of the actions of Amanda herself who always compared herself with Regan. Even Amanda never appreciated herself during her husband, just the beginning of the sweet. Then after that, only quarrels existed in their households.

Renatta who listened to it all became sympathetic. He patted Devan's shoulder to give his spirit.

"And when I found out she was going to London, I realized, apparently Amanda was following Regan who was here. How not hurt, Nat? I'm her husband, but she's catching up with other men."

"Then you meet Amanda. What do you want to say? Will you keep your household or would you prefer to split up?" ask Renatta.

"You know, I honestly don't want to be apart. But if that's what's best for me and Amanda. Yeah, how about it again. Our marriage was not healthy from the beginning. I've been too stupid all along. And I know that Amanda was the one who destroyed Regan's laptop. But I still like him. I was so happy because when I proposed to him he accepted. I didn't expect to be accepted. Apparently after being lived. Amanda never seemed to like me. He just used me to hurt you. Until in the end, I got the payback for wasting people like you."

Renatta. He felt embarrassed and surprised because it seems Devan knew that he had liked Devan before.

"I'm sorry, because I pretended not to know that you liked me. Though I realized that," he said then lowered his head.

"Here you go, it's over, I've moved on too. I've loved other people again" said Renatta, who made Devan look back at Renatta.

"Who's the guy? Regan?" guess Devan.

Renatta did not answer. But Devan already knows the answer. Throw's right.

"May you be with her Nat."

"So, I don't want to hope. Because I know, Regan still can't forget Amanda. I'd better shut up and hide this feeling."

"Yes, maybe they should be together. So I don't have to get hurt like this."

"But still, you have to solve your problems until Dev's done. You are not a lover who easily broke up, but a husband and wife couple. There should be a lot of consideration to decide how the end result will be."

Devan nodded. After telling her what happened to Renatta, Devan was always relieved. It was as if the heavy burden that was carried on his shoulder had simply disappeared.

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Regan had contacted Devan, but Devan seemed to be on another call that was apparently Renatta.

"See! He's not even looking for me! He seemed to not want to maintain this marriage because of Renatta. I hate her so much. He's always been interfering with my life."

Regan smiled wryly hearing that. Now he just realized that Amanda looks this bad. The woman before him was like two-faced. Good in front of him, maybe bad behind him. Unlike Renatta who even protects Amanda from the mistakes Amanda did.

"You're worse than I thought you were? You don't even admit your own mistakes. But it always wants to be understood."

"Kok talk you're like that, Regan? I'm not wrong."

Regan smiled cynically.

"I know everything Manda. Who was wrong and ruined my dream. Not Renatta but you" said Regan.

Amanda was shocked and in disbelief. To allay his surprise, he accused Renatta of slandering him.

"Definitely Renatta said that, right? You know, Renatta has always been jealous of me! He must have turned the facts around. So you can hate me. You believe me, don't you, Regan?"

"Let's know, I don't think I know who you are. You're not the Amanda I know. You've changed. You better go home now and solve your problems with Devan. I don't want to get involved with your problems" said Regan, who can't trust Amanda anymore. He was about to leave but instead saw Renatta and Devan there as well.

"Kan, I told you, Renatta is a destroyer of my household. Devan arrives here to fight only to meet Renatta" Amanda tells him to provoke Regan.

Regan looked upset and ignited. He approached Devan and Renatta who were chatting.

"You should have solved your problem with Amanda, instead of bringing Renatta into your problem. I'm sure you're here to solve your problems with Amanda. Tuh, he's right there. Solve your problems. And tell him never to see me again!"

With the jealousy within him. He immediately brought Renatta back into his room with Renatta. He was waiting for Renatta on his hotel bed.

"Why did you take me away anyway? Devan confided to me that he had a problem with Amanda. I just want to help, not to be the third person among them" Renatta said honestly.

Regan had taken Renatta's head. Either stupid or plain or too good. He hates Renatta's current attitude, looks weaker than he used to bully people.

"So that you may be aware, that you may not be weak. So that you are more self-centered. Already know it still hurts, even your way is still limping. Even outgoing. It can't be Nat, don't be too good!"

"Brother is weird! Why is it my business, so you take care of me? I want to be evil, too good, or weak. It has nothing to do with my father. Why bother, "Renatta replied with emotion too. He did not like to be scolded by Regan for such vague reasons. When it comes to work, he is willing to be scolded.

Regan held Renatta's shoulder. Looked at Renatta's face deeply.

"Why is my name so rich, sir? I get goosebumps" Renatta said.

"Renatta Audy Dewangga, please listen to this carefully."

"What the hell are you talking about, sir? I was scared!"

Renatta felt the aura throughout the room become terrifying. He can't think anymore. He becomes afraid that Regan's anger will explode and Regan does not bring him back to his country.

"I don't like you who are weak. I don't like you looking happy just for talking to Devan. I don't like you being close to him. Even you don't care about your pain. I'm worried about Natta. I'm afraid you're why-why. When I saw you crying in a sad state when I found out earlier, my heart felt sliced by a knife. It hurt, it hurt and I wanted to protect you. I like you Natta. L like you. Because that's your business is my business!"

"Huh?"

Renatta still could not say anything. He was still shocked by Regan's confession. A few minutes later, Renatta thought Regan was joking.

"Sir, please yes, if you're kidding don't miss. It's better to hear the word hate from the Father than the feeling of liking. I don't want to be hopeful and then in the end, I won't get anything. It hurts a lot, sir."

"Who gave you hope? I give you a certainty. I like you."

"Please sir. Stop joking. I want to go to my own room. You don't have to drive me" said Renatta, who wanted to leave but was detained by Regan.

"I am your first love. Aye right?"

Renatta was immediately stunned when Regan found out the secret. But he did not want to be caught and act normal again.

"Sok knows! Yes sir, let me out of my room."

Regan then stands up and picks up Renatta's diary and shows the contents that say Renatta likes him.

Renatta could only remain silent. Because he can't dodge anymore. He even forgot that it turns out his diary book was left behind when he had stayed overnight in Regan's apartment.

"I like you."

"Sir, the joke please stop."

"I'm not kidding Renatta. I really like you. Ever since you came into my life when I lost Amanda. Little by little you keep influencing my mind."

"I'm a bad woman sir!"

"Indeed. So bad you didn't answer my declaration of love."

"That's not Sir!"

"I know what you mean, but I don't care."

"My past was very bad."

"I knew. But it won't affect anything I feel for you."

Regan is still on her feet.

"I don't deserve you."

"It's not you who decides who's best for me but me."

"Then I will answer it. I don't like Father. Already right? I can go to the room, right, sir?"

Regan smiled wryly hearing that. He knew that Renatta had the same feelings as him. He could see Renatta's teary eyes.

"Alright, if that's your answer. I'll change it."

Regan smiled in a slant then brought her face closer to Renatta's face and kissed Renatta's lips without permission.

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