
Haru it's spring.
A figure who always oppresses Akira but has a soft heart.
As a child Haru was always a submissive child, he was not a stubborn child who demanded to get what he wanted.
Haru's father was Naotu Haruo Madya.
A loving figure and a figure that Haru has always been proud of.
The reason Haru made his father his idol is simple, his father is a good figure and does not hesitate to help people who are in distress in front of him.
A loving and wise figure in the head of the family and do not play hands when angry or emotional.
At that time, little Haru was fat and had cheeks that made people want to pinch his cheeks red, that's because the mother often pestered her son to eat healthy foods.
Haru's mother loved her only son that wayang first.
Little Haru who saw the father dressed neatly immediately ran towards his father.
By the way Haru was the closest to his father since childhood.
"Where are you going?"asked Haru who was five years old at the time.
Jumping around to see the handsome face of the father seems like hehe.
Naotu crouched down to equal his height with the son, wanting to laugh because he saw the cheek shape of his son like mochi.
"Father wants to work, Just keep the house with mommy ya baby." said her father gently while stroking his son's head.
"Any captain, Haru will guard the house and mama from the bad guys!"said the child while respecting the way the soldier made the father chuckle small because of the behavior of the child.
Without Haru realizing that it was the last day he saw his father's smile.
His father was in a car accident while leaving for work, it made his mother so devastated and Haru who was a child cried all day because he could not see his father anymore.
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Entering the time of Little TK Haru was very fond of Akira.
Not in the sense of love in terms of love but because the child who has blue eyes that make him interested to approach it because of his kindness when helping him at that time.
"Whose name are you?"akira asked the thick-bodied boy like the mochi.
"Himaru!"
"Then?"
"Ih not Haru!"
"Oh Halu...."
Haru patted his own eel because the child in front of him was still not able to pronounce R correctly.
So he had to be patient as Akira kept calling him 'Halu not Haru.'
After school he immediately invited Akira to play at his house, the blue-eyed child just complied.
And until Haru's home, I was so amazed by Haru's neat room was different from the room that scattered his toys and Jio.
"Kamal Halu clean up!"
"I like to clean up if my mom doesn't come home from work."
"Where is Halu's father?how is Halu's mother also?"
"My father's gone Akira...."
"Dogs?"
"Yes, go somewhere far away and we can't get there."
Akira can see the expression of sadness and gloom when Haru discusses his father.
"Then don't be sad there's still Akila" the blue-eyed boy cupped Haru's face until the boy's lips conical funny.
"If the promise will be the same Halu transparent so that Halu is not sad, we can make the embroidery of the agreement so that belus belsama and no one dared to separate Halu dali Akila, we can make the,we're starting to be friends forever!"akira said with a serious, funny look.
He could not see a sad person in front of him.
Who is Akira really?
It easily made him laugh with his slurred words that could not speak r correctly.
Until that night, Haru's mother brought a man and a child in her cradle and said that the two strangers would be part of Haru's new family.
That's where Haru's pain started.
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There is no such thing as perfect, only God the Creator.
So does a young man who has a beautiful emerald green treasure, known as a moodboster child between his two best friends and known attention to the closest people.
But for him it was not enough.
He still feels lonely when he is 20 years old.
He had known it for a long time but his life still had pain that he could not avoid.
His weakness.
When I look at that guy's face.
The one he hated most in his life.
Depressingly.
There was no one if he still harbored everything.
That makes him hurt himself only for his own pleasure when he sees the happiness of others who are compared with him.
He knew he couldn't stop doing it since his father's death.
No one noticed it all this time.
All he has to do is cover it up.
He tried to smile even though his heart was screaming in pain.
Because it is a selfish nature.
He's doing self harm.
Why would he do that?
He also doesn't know why he likes to do that.
He's sick of himself.
To make him hurt himself to get the satisfaction he never got.
And maybe make Akira hate him right now.
"I'm sorry Akira. I can't. I can't tell you everything..."
Sretti...
Scratches again in his hand make fresh blood flow.
"Why..why.with me, I don't understand Akira either...."
Srett..
"When you always say there is for me, right, but I'm still selfish with myself.you know about me but don't know my pain because you never feel it...all this I'm doing is keeping you smiling and not crying like me, not that I don't want help from you but I just want time..."
Sretti...
"Time to be alone and when the time is right I will tell you everything."
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(For those who ask self harm is what the author will explain, so self harm is like something that makes us hurt ourselves to harbor feelings of disappointment that will be issued, so self harm is like something that makes us hurt ourselves,it also makes it a regular act of addiction in people with self-harm, and the thing that triggers also from many things like trauma, depression, and depression,and others.That's an explanation according to the author yes because I also never mergerasain itself is like how, how,but the treatment is from ourselves that is to limit and pressure ourselves not to do self harm and that is proven for me who do not do it again even though sometimes there is a great intention and desire do it when there is a situation but try to limit it because it can harm yourself.
If it is already the stage of the weight of the sufferer, the only way is the support of the people closest to him.
Hope you guys don't like Haru as author huh.)