The Fall of the Star
Chapter 29 Elimination of the Ego
After the hum subsided, Ayudia finally continued the saying.
“I know you must be very disappointed with me. In fact, maybe now on the same hate me. I accept, yes, guys. Because I admit this is really too late. I shouldn't pretend and make something like this a joke. Though you take it so seriously.”
“Yes next time confess what it is, Ayudia. We are not picky friends either. You want to go to college or work. We will definitely want to be friends with you. Precisely what makes us not like ya precisely your lie,” comments Emma who came closer and then embrace Ayudia.
Okay, he did hate it at first when he found out that fact, that Ayudia was nothing more than a con man. But now Ayudia dares to suppress her ego and put aside her shame to admit her mistake and apologize, she returns to respect and wants to give Ayudia a chance to change for the better than before.
“You are many, Emma. You ... just like Elvira, you really do observe angels,” said Ayudia while hugging Emma. And it happens in front of everyone.
Some other friends finally approached Ayudia and said they wanted to come back and forget what had happened. Although humane also if there are also some who avoid and do not want to participate in the circle that surrounds Ayudia. Well, humane indeed if there are also those who are reluctant to return to friends. Fear that the same mistake will repeat itself.
“The name is typical already customary anyway,” comments some of the opposite. However, Ayudia still tried hard and grateful because the most important thing is that she herself apologized and admitted her mistake. Something that doesn't forgive, it's another business. It is beyond his power.
The event continued with chat holir home and forth various themes. There are some of their friends who have worked and paid quite large until they can promise to buy the next meeting at the restaurant.
“Sorry, yes. If I were, because I was just a lowly employee in an ordinary factory, I wouldn't be able to promise you anything. But if you want, just sober I can still entertain you at home sometime if you want to stop by my house, yes?” Ayudia said. He ventured to continue to participate in all conversations. As if to show that it is true he has made peace with himself and dared to be honest as it is now. Really, his heart and feelings have now become amazingly much calmer and peaceful than before.
If he is usually always overwhelmed with anxiety that someone will reveal his secret, now he feels detached from the burden and fear. Now he can behave like another human being who does not need to pretend to be someone else in front of everyone. Now he is free to leave without burden. It feels incredible relief.
“There are many, yes, El. This is all thanks to you,” Ayudia said many times. The thing where possessed by Elvira while smiling merrily whenever seeing Ayudia chatting with other friends. Yes, he would be happy if Ayudia was more able to open up to many other friends, not just herself.
And thanks to the meeting, he even got a lot of information about other scholarships and also the next official bond test this year. But I don't think he's very interested anymore. It seems like a year of work and a decent income makes Ayudia feel useless again he had to go back to college with the cost and time if finally it was also to find another job again.
“Let me continue to work in the factory. Later if it can increase the level after a period of work also I will be able to raise salary hehehe.” Ayudia answered with her face sumringah.
“Iiiih, cool, yes. Who can make their own money. Udah nahusahin ortu again can even love money now, huh? Fun very like,” comments Elvira, with the intention of encouraging his friend so as not to feel inferior.
“But later you guys after graduation will also work and surely his opinion will be far many times the height of me,” refuted Ayudia again.
“Yes are the same. We are in college for a fee, so graduating from college later must be able to get a job that pays a bit high because of what we leave is also a lot, hehe.”
“Betul also, yes. So basically the same thing.” Elvira concluded. What he said with the aim of encouraging Ayudia.
After the event, Ayudia could move her legs very lightly. He was able to tell his father and mother that he had been freed from the sin that had been done intentionally but in the khilaf had done almost a year ago.
“Good God reprimanded him now, yes, Mom. If not reprimanded by yesterday's accident, it seems Ayudia will still feel safe in the pretense. Though He was only heading into a life that was getting darker due to the fatal lie.
“Alhamdulillah, Son. I am so proud of you. The important thing is that you dare to account for your mistakes. Acknowledging past lies and apologizing is really big-spirited, Nak.” Bu Nani said in a grateful tone.
“Sorry to Him, yes, Mom. During this time Ayudia instead of demanding to want to go to college, kok,” said Ayudia finally. She knew her mother had felt guilty all along. Elvira tells him that Ayudia's father and mother had blamed themselves for not being able to get Ayudia to go to college at all costs. They were afraid of being thought to be less facilitating the dream of their only puppet princess until Ayudia was determined to lie like that.
Bu Nani hugged Ayudia and they hugged her for a long time.
“Nothing to forgive, He. As long as you've recovered, I'm satisfied and grateful, son.”
Ayudia tightened a hug to the chest of the once patient middle-aged woman. I can't imagine if her parents weren't them. Who always faced the absurd behavior of Ayudia with patience and sincerity. They never expected to reply.
“Thank you again, Mom. He is grateful to have your mother and father kayak,” said Ayudia while back moved and finally crying. It seems that it is often melancholy on its own. A little cry, but not a cry of regret or complaint, but a happy cry and grateful for all the circumstances.