The Shackles of Love are Lying
The Aina Aulia Mecca (POV)

Whether I should be grateful or sad to see these two red lines on a pregnancy test kit. I want to avoid it. I want to stay away from him. I want to learn to forget. Because I realize that I am now on a path that I think is inappropriate. Stand between two people who have been united in a beautiful and legitimate love in the eyes of the Master of the Soul.

Whose fault is it? ...

You, huh? ...

Father Mother, is it? ...

Nah!

I can't blame anyone but to look at myself. Everything just flows. I'm enjoying. Even I have allowed myself to fall in love since your firm words in front of the Father and also pak Penghulu. I'm so happy.

Blame myself for letting the flowers of love blossom in the depths of this heart, for your sweet words, for the tenderness of your attitude, or for all that is within you. So that I can be determined to be able to always accompany your steps.

Nothing is perfect in this world. And I didn't expect it all to be perfect. But the more I walk, facing the truth about you that really tests my patience, I feel tired. Tired of what you've been hiding all this time.

Iza ...

The sweet little girl is the first lie you want to cover. I try to be patient. Maybe it's a test for me, I'm still strong with surprises that might be published next time. And I'm sure there must be a silver lining if I'm able to live it.

But the more I came here, the more I got tired of the lies I was trying to cover up. All those lies are visible once in the look of your eyes. I tried to shake it off, if it wasn't real, by always being prejudiced that you would never leave me, as you have often said.

But when Sheza Azzalea Naureen firmly told me who you are to her the truth, it broke my confidence in my confidence that I would be able to step in with you. I convinced myself that I didn't want to tease you, because I realized I wasn't the actor he was accusing me of.

But it looks like Sheza Azzalea Naureen has given me no choice. He really wants me out of your life. I don't know what he's thinking.

Whether you know it or not, he's always terrorizing me. The notifications he sent me were painful. He even came to the apartment twice to see me. Nothing else and not, just want to reinforce his position on your side. And it hurts so much.

I want to believe that you love me but I have to accept the fact that there is another woman in your mind first. What is the term, want a sister, want a lover, want a wife, it's all the same. She is a woman who has a right to your heart.

Is it wrong to get caught up in this mind to get away from your life. He who has filled your days for so long. And there's your love for her, even if you don't admit it.

Don't tell me I don't know. I knew before that night. Night, when you leave me behind and come with tears. That's very painful. But I believe it is life. Until I can be patient with you.

But when Sheza asked me so desperately to leave you with threats that stayed up her course about my Mother Father's life in the village, they knew nothing about us. I have no choice but to leave you. I might leave by not waiting for your willingness. I'm sorry ....

I want to calm down. I want my Mom to be calm and happy. If going away from you is the way, let me just go. Our problem, they don't need to know.

This may sound selfish, but how else. Maybe I can learn to accept you, but what about Sheza who until now could not accept me. I can understand her, because we're both women.

I can't be by your side just holding on that I mean so much to you, that you love me more than Sheza, that you won't leave me. I really can't ....

If I may ask, do not make myself a second person in the household you build, let alone a third person. Haha ...

But it seems like fate has given me no choice to stay away from you.

"Sir, what the Beautiful Midwife said. Are you pregnant? How old are you." Just now I got off the bike Rashid, my sister, Mother has been leaning me with questions. I can only shake my head.

"What you dream, come true. I'll have a grandchild."

"Thank God, thank God. Give me the age to hold my granddaughter." His face looked happy as he said that.

"Aamiinu. Mom don't say that again. You can definitely hold your grandchildren, one or two and so on" I replied spontaneously.

"Aamiin yes rabbal alamin. That's what I expected. One, two and so on."

Oops, what I just said. One, two and so on. I'm kidding God, I didn't mean it that way. I was so happy to see the happy face of my mother that I said such words.

What might have happened, if I had decided to stay away from my husband. Even trying to evict her from my memory by breaking off communication with her these few days.

I haven't had a lot of conversation with my mother, this stomach is already stirred up again. I immediately ran to the toilet in my room. Spewing back all that for a moment and then I managed to swallow.

"Mother, Beautiful Midwife gave you a cure for nausea, right?"

"Yes, Mommy. I drank too."

"Yes, already. Here, lie down. Let me put some eucalyptus oil on your body."

I immediately lay down, and let my mother's fingers sweep it on my back with eucalyptus oil.

"Don't you want to tell her dad?"

"Tomorrow Mom. If now you're afraid to interrupt his work."

" This is happy news. Faster is better."

"Yes. Mommy."

After rubbing the white oil all over my body, mother left me in this room alone. Give me a chance to rest.

Said Beautiful Midwife, my gestational age has been several weeks. Why do I feel nothing near you. But this symptom I felt when I was away from you. Even the medicine from the Midwife was not able to relieve my nausea. Does this mean that your son-in-law won't be as far away from you as I've heard?

It seems like it is. Evidently in the morning, I called you, he was so calm. He made me give up on my decision. Inevitably, I followed your wishes, to be with you. It's heavy ....