The Shackles of Love are Lying
My decision

Yes, it is very heavy ....

Because I have not been fully able to accept the lies that you have been hiding from me. Had you been frank from the beginning, it might not have been this painful. And maybe, I still have a choice. Refuse or accept you.

If I refuse, it's natural, right? You have a family, and maybe we are not friends. There are other men that God has prepared for me, though at this time I do not know where he is.

And if I accept you, at least I already know the consequences, as a second wife.

Too bad, you chose to hide it from me, not telling from the beginning. Until I can no longer think well of you, that all this you do is because You love me.

You chose to tell me all that by the time I got caught up in your love. Everything becomes complicated and difficult. Is this what you want? So that I give up and accept what is, without the slightest chance to make a consideration.

Unknowingly, You have shown me that you desire to perfect your love for Sheza. And you made me your only escape. Brutal ....

"Mas, is there a story you have hidden from me. You better come clean now, before I come back with you. Because it hurts so much, when you know you have a big secret behind me. If you play again with my feelings. I may not be able to do it anymore."

Forgive me if I have to say that. Because I'm really not sure about myself right now. Will I be able to step beside you, while there is Sheza beside you as well. The desire to come back to you only protects my son's right to call you father.

"Nothing, Sister."

From the dim look of your eyes with regret, I assured myself that you are not lying anymore.

"I'm relieved, Mom."

I am also frankly fragile. If there is no belief that all this happened because of the interference of the Power, maybe I will fall.

"May I hold you now, brother?"

I'm nodding. I tried to forgive you. Although I don't know what will happen after this, but by giving you a little faith, I have at least opened a way out for myself.

Yach .. I gave up on the fact that I was a second wife. Sheza was the first. Miris ....

Sheza ... Why did his shadow cross my mind at this moment. Can I not think about it. I don't have to know about him. And there's no right to guess what he'll do to me later.

Last time I met, he still thought of me as an actor. A name that makes my ears hot, and this chest tight.

I can only hope that one day, she will understand my existence next to her husband, as a second wife. Not as an actor in his household.

But ... Yes already. People think like that. Even though it is in a legal bond according to religion and state. Not because of an accident, or just want to damage the household of people, still considered as a lacquer.

"We're going home, brother!"

"Yes ..." I'm nodding. He hugged me tighter.

"Thank you, sweetie."

"Yes, honey." I intentionally flirted. Because I cannot deny it, the longer I am in his arms I feel more comfortable and do not want to escape. Is this the baby's hormone? Seems ... But it doesn't seem entirely right, anyway. Hehe ....

Since coming, he kept calling me 'Dik'. The call he used to use when not both. It seems he is keeping his distance. But after we talk until our hearts are calm, He calls me 'Honey' again'. The call that always makes me baper.

She immediately stretched out her embrace and turned me around. For a moment I dared to look at him. I saw his face sparkling, looking at me as if in disbelief.

"Repeat once more" he asked with a little force.

"This one, what the hell!" I turned my face to avoid his gaze. My heart could be pounding. I tried to escape by shaking both hands on my shoulders.

I didn't manage to get his hand off this shoulder. Makes me even more embarrassed.

"Darling, I am so happy. It was not something embarrassing even natural. Kan, you're my wife."

What he said, I was his wife. So it's not wrong that I tried to indulge. Ignoring the embarrassment I feel right now.

"Yes, honey." I looked up a little, wanting to see how he reacted.

Pt ... One small kiss I suddenly felt on these lips. He could always take advantage of the opportunity in narrowness. Makes my chest warm.

But no, I can't drift in this sense. My flag doesn't want me to put it down yet. Even though I've started to put my trust in it, but I'm still afraid of getting hurt again, maybe the wound will go deeper.

"Mas, take your hand off. I want to get ready." I went back to being cold to him. However, he remained calm, not even looking disappointed or angry.

"Don't expect me to let you go before ..." He did not continue his words just that his index finger was touching his cheek.

This guy is really shitty. I knew I was ignoring him, still seducing me. It could also melt my haughty attitude with that rubber.

"Down, or I don't want to go home."

"Oh, yes. If you don't want to, yes .. what can you do." One warm sweep suddenly touched this cheek. Ah, nevermind. I gave up losing and resigned.

Once satisfied, he let me go. But forbid me to get ready.

"Darling, sit. Let me get everything ready."

"Thank you, Mom." He answered with a nod and a smile. I let him prepare everything myself.

I feel my body is tired. I walked to the bed and broke down this body that still felt weak. Understand, while here did not manage to swallow food. At most only able to stop by briefly in the stomach, then come out again.

I just woke up when there was a soft touch on my cheek. When I opened my eyes, Mas Najib seemed to be ready.

"Honey, eat first yeah, before we go."

There is a bowl of porridge on a nightstand that is warm and inviting to taste. I want to devour it immediately. But kok ... maybe there is a residual iler attached to the corner of my lips. It needs to be cleaned first!

I immediately got out of bed, walked to the bathroom.cleaned myself, and prepared myself with the clothes I had brought.

Out of the bathroom, I found her standing at the door.

"What's up, Mom?"

"You took a long shower. I'm afraid you've got nothing." An answer that made me smile.

"I'll bribe ya, let's hurry."

My heart warms, feeling noticed. I hope my decision to return to him is right.

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