Tucked In Both Hearts
38. Finally

Inexplicable by the word, that's what both of Jeff's parents felt when looking at the phone screen. Both of their eyes grew so unreliable to what they saw.

"Is this Jeff? It's too hard for you to be a man. You hurt women just as you hurt Mama. You played ... Oh, my God, Jeff." Ms. Merlin was running out of words for her son. He was a moment of pleasure.

Feels very crowded, that is what is felt by Ms. Merlin, he did not expect, the only biological child born from her womb actually became the person who hurt her the most.

Jeon approached his mother. His heart ached every time he heard the sobbing of the woman who had treated him wholeheartedly. Too often Ms. Merlin cried for her husband and child, and at that time only Jeon provided the shoulder for Ms. Merlin to lean on.

Not until Jeon came to his mother, Jeff had stood up from his seat and blocked his sister's hand. They looked at each other in silence, of course with a gaze that was still deadly.

"It's all because of you! Can't you not be sassy? Can't you take care of yourself without taking care of someone else's business?"

"God created glass not without reason. Use glass before saying." Jeon brushed his hands violently and knelt before his mother who was still sobbing in her husband's arms.

Even Mr. Jo who seemed wise in any matter, now seems only to be silent, he still looks very shocked by the simple picture he just saw.

"Ma drink a little. A little bit is okay, let Mama be more calm." Jeon gave a glass of water to his mother. The woman seemed forced and had swallowed water.

"Ma, Pa, I can...."

"Go from here!" cut Mr. Jo off immediately.

"Hitten...."

"PAPA SAYS GO! Pack all your stuff from here. Don't leave one!"

"Pa's."

"GO!" Mr. Jo stood up from his place and pushed his own son out of the room.

Jeff was still trying to explain despite not being heard by his father. Even the man was still yelling for his father when the door was already tightly closed and locked from the inside.

"Pa, Mama. I'm sorry I made you guys like this. I can't keep looking at Miss who always feels pain in her heart. I don't want to make you guys have a lot of thoughts, even Miss also forbid me to tell you anything I see. He survived this marriage only for all of us, for his parents as well. He did not want Mama with Papa and also his parents, thinking about the problem. At this age of yours, there should be no need to think about household matters. I'm sorry, I'm opening up to a fact this isn't for...."

"What do you mean, Je. You are not wrong, you do not need to think that you have made our burden increase. Forget it!"

"What's my fault, Pa? What was my fault until we had a son who was so bad. We don't teach him to be the bad guy." Ms. Merlin is still sobbing.

Not long after the last words of Bu Merlin, he felt his head hurt and his vision blurred, his chest felt tight and after that he did not know anything.

Jeff arrived at the room, he saw his wife who was sitting with the head of the bed leaning. His eyes looked for a reason, his face was gloomy, and his gaze also seemed empty. The woman was as devastated as her two in-laws, only now the way she looked disappointed and hit was different from them.

Jeff walked slowly to the bed, he brought himself to sit on the edge of the bed. Nothing came out of his mouth, his eyes were still busy looking at Miss who looked messy. I don't know since when he felt there was a hint of regret after hurting the woman. Perhaps this was the first time he regretted having scratched the wound several times in his wife's heart.

"Rin," he said after a moment of silence.

No other answer or response. I miss looking at the wall in front of him.

"I'm..." Jeon spoke again, but did not know what to say. It feels so hard to speak.

"Why, Mas? Why didn't you tell me you wanted to marry the Queen? Why do you have to change your attitude to me, if you end up hurting me more deeply. What changed your attitude these past few days for this? Supposedly if you want to marry the Queen you can tell me. I will try to withdraw from this marriage, if indeed you want to marry him. I've survived to this point it's not easy, Mas. I have to bleed and get hurt here and there to get here. And once I can survive on my own feet, with a lot of wounds and blood everywhere, then you flush them with salt water. No, Mom, if you want to hurt me."

Feeling guilty, that's what Jeff feels right now. During his stay with the woman, Jeff never saw Miss who he is now. His blank face and eyes really showed that what he was doing was completely beyond the limits of humanity and that his injuries could not be healed.

"Long for me first."

"What should I hear? Do I have to listen to how you're getting married to the Queen? Should I hear the story of how you enjoyed your first day married to her? From the first day we got married, which mistake have I never forgiven, Mom?"

Missed since then to talk at length, but not at all to look at the face of her husband. He preferred to look at the wall in front of him. Indeed, the wall never gave affection for him, but at least the white wall never gave a wound.

"Yes, I know there are no mistakes you don't forgive. I had no other choice, Rin. I'm..."

"You don't have a choice, but you don't want to choose. If you choose one of us, there may be a wounded heart, but only for a moment and a while. That's much better than it is now."

"I was from the beginning..."

"Yes I know you from the beginning chose the Queen. And I'm too stupid because I believe that your change of attitude is in the form that you've slowly taken me as a wife. That was my biggest mistake. I know, too, I'm well aware that you did choose the Queen over me, but what I regret is the way you threw me out of your life. I'm too stupid because I've asked you to choose between me and the Queen." Missing a small laugh however, her eyes let out a clear liquid.

"Ri."

"That's enough, Mommy." Missing since then did not give Jeff a chance to talk.

"It's true that I have to withdraw from this marriage."

"No Rin, no! What about your parents?"

That one sentence managed to make Miss look at Jeff with a still empty gaze.