Tucked In Both Hearts
47. Starting Change

Nothing is okay for Jeff. He came home with his grief from the outside. When he would bring items that were all Miss choices, he remembered some messages from her.

Given that the message actually made Jeff feel worse, how not? He also realized at this moment that what Misses gives is truly sincere from the heart. It's all been proven by what happened today.

"Come on Jeff, don't drown in regrets! Remember the word Miss, you will regret twice if you only focus on the regrets now. Focus on what is now. Come on you can!"

Jeff took all the paper bags sitting in the passenger seat and took them to the house. He tried hard not to bring his sadness home when he set foot on the porch. It was enough to miss what he hurt. For now, whoever is with him must love.

"Queen, where are you going?"

"I'm in front of the TV, what's wrong?"

"Look at what I brought! I'm sorry I left you all day, but I paid for it with this. You must be happy."

Jeff gave all the things he brought before the Queen. The woman who for weeks lost Jeff's love can finally smile happily.

The queen marbles one by one the dress found in many of the paper bags. She seemed happy, it was a long time since she got the goods from her husband.

"You likey?"

"What do I not like about your gifts? Everything you give must be good and after my taste. Thanks, yeah. It feels like you haven't kept me this way in a long time.  After we get married, our relationship becomes more and more tenuous."

"I'm sorry, I was wrong. I have too many thoughts. I shouldn't have ignored you either, right? We start from zero, we start from scratch."

The queen just nodded. Jeff actually heard the advice from Miss. He does not want to drag on the nature of sadness and regret even though he actually wants to drown there. He directs all energies and minds to focus on the Queen. Wasn't the Queen her priority? Then why now he numbered his duos when the woman contained his flesh and blood.

That night, Jeff sent a message to Miss. Just to tell her that what she chose seemed to fit the Queen's taste.

[Good night, Rin. What are you doing again? I just wanted to tell you that the clothes and accessories you gave me made the Queen happy. Thank you for reminding me and making me realize that I should care about the happiness of him and my future son. I had indeed forgotten that there were people that I had to pay attention to when I realized one thing. But thankfully you soon gave me a way not to regret it a second time]

Jeff was happy when he got a notification on his phone. Missing seems to be returning quickly. However, as soon as he read the row of letters that were on his screen his smile instantly disappeared. Should we lose contact like this when we want to live each other's lives? At least that's what Jeff questioned.

Jeff inhaled the air around him a lot and exhaled it slowly. It will definitely feel heavy at the beginning, but over time he will definitely forget as well.

"He has done much for my happiness. I also have to make him happy by obeying what he wants." Jeff spoke quietly while blocking the contact of the woman who would soon become his ex-wife.

Jeff promised inwardly that he would really start everything from scratch. All the guilt he will change with his actions and the changes in his life.

Jeff looked at the sleeping Queen on his lap. His hand then stroked the top of the woman's head slowly. It had been his wife for weeks, but during that time the Queen did not get her full attention. Her eyes turned down onto the stomach of the woman who was four months pregnant. His other hand also greeted the growing fetus in his wife's stomach.

"Grow healthy, yes. Sorry if Papa ignored you a little. Promise, from today, Papa will change. We changed Mama together, yuk. Let's meet Oma and Opa."

And the promise that Jeff made that night was really kept until the Queen's eight-month pregnancy. The change that he started half-heartedly and forced himself, has now begun to melt and Jeff's holiness is now gradually back.

"Jeff, I've expanded perfectly. My body is going everywhere. I can't be a model anymore after giving birth, I can't put the brakes on my food. I consume too much food. I'm constantly hungry." The queen stood in front of the mirror twirling her body.

"Again permitting you to be a model again who? I don't know you, yeah. You must remain a housewife. I don't want you to work anymore and our son is taken care of by someone else. You want to follow me, right? We have become husband and wife, our relationship is not dating anymore like before. Slowly you must change your attitude to beat me. Don't constantly obey your ego and desire. That's not a good household."

"I feel like you've changed lately, Jeff. I kind of got my Jeff back."

"When did you ever lose Jeff?"

"I lost Jeff a few weeks after marriage, but not long after, my Jeff came back. Thank you for coming back. I was afraid that your change would bring you back to Miss and leave me with this child. I feel that since I was pregnant I was very sensitive and became cranky. Maybe before I got pregnant I was also cranky, but it felt different."

"It's also because of me. Don't talk about it anymore. We just focus on the same household we live in now."