Turns out I love
Part 13 - Shame

Kenzie took me to a place that was so beautiful. around him many views of flowers and also shady trees. Shady atmosphere and sounding gurgling water makes the heart more peaceful.

I feel calmer in this place.he is so attentive to the sad and disappointed.

until this moment I did not expect it turned out to be the man I always fought for. whom I always wanted to defend. turned out to be insincere in love with me. Even he never loved me one bit.

now I have to bear the shame.the man who is now accompanying me must be laughing at me. He must feel victorious at this time.

I hope that he does not take advantage of this situation.the situation that might be beneficial for him.I who was hurt and betrayed might be an opportunity for you to discuss again about this matchmaking.

"the atmosphere is beautiful, isn't it?"

Kenzi asked me as we released his eyes from enjoying the beautiful atmosphere in this garden.

"beautiful." I replied.

"this is a place where I sometimes release my saturation and fatigue.You can also make this place to release your annoyance maybe or your sadness that is now engulfing your heart."

right now I can't tell if this guy is pitying me or mocking me.

from his tone he was like a person who was comforting me, but his words seemed to be mocking me.

"regarding the question you asked earlier in the car, I'll answer it now."

I was surprised to find that Kenzim heard my question earlier and he will be discussing it at this time. I wonder what he really knows about my relationship with Doni.

"I'm actually secretly asking for the campus address and also about the relationship between the two of you. At first I might feel I'm a petty person. I was trying to figure out what your relationship was all about, and I originally wanted to make it crack so I could get a crack. However, it turns out that I don't need to put your relationship down because actually your relationship isn't really intertwined."

hearing Kenzie's words I scrunched my forehead.So this guy has been watching me? he's watching my relationship with Doni.

"i accidentally saw you parting ways with him before you entered the classroom, and after that I also saw the man go along with other women and join in a friendly. I have since investigated him. I asked my men to follow her daily life, and sure enough it turns out she has another relationship behind you. I know that every time you go to class they'll both be together."

I didn't think he cared enough about me. I didn't like his way. but if there is no one, I will continue to be lied to and continue to be in my imaginary realm who thinks he really loves me.

"i'm sorry for my actions that may not be pleasing to your heart."

yeah it keeps telling me what he knows about Doni behind my back. Now I don't know if I should thank him or be angry with him.

I want to thank you but it feels my pride can not accept it. I feel that if angry with him also seems to have no conscience. like it has been helped but instead howled.

I could only remain silent and there were many opinions in my own mind that were contrary to conscience and contrary to logic.

"Do you feel calmer?".

"i've been feeling calmer and I've been feeling better now.we'd better just go home."

I don't want to be out there too long with him. Right now I don't want to talk about the matchmaking.my energy my emotions and my mind has been poured out to express my disappointment with Doni.

"if indeed you are better and your mood is calmer. I think we should now eat first to replenish your energy that has been drained. afterwards I will take you home."

Kenzie got up from his seat and allowed a slightly bent coat due to sitting too long.

"Wouldn't we just go home by day by afternoon."

I try to avoid him. But it turns out that he cannot be denied or rejected.

he pulled my hand and we entered into a cafe not far from the park.

kenzie quickly ordered a few dishes without asking me again.

"thank you Ma'am I hope the food is served soon."

promise to close the menu book and return it to the cafe waiter.

I can only pay attention to his style without being able to protest everything.I should already thank him thanks to him I know the rottenness of Doni and thanks to him taking me to the garden my heart can be calmer.

"Kenzi thank you."

I then said the thank you words, even though it was hard to move my lips and make that sound. However, for me I should be able to say those words. I don't want to be labeled as an ungrateful and arrogant woman.

"no need to thank you. You are my future wife. I should take care of you from striped men like him let alone he makes you a lover just for a bet."

notar what Kenji said the man declared his love and became my lover just for a gamble.whether what was promised by them to Doni.which is clear whatever the prize is not comparable to me.

in any case I am a human being who cannot be used as a betting item of any nominal and expensive whatever the gift given to him.

the pain still continued to spread throughout my body.My heart still could not accept the fact that the man was not serious in a relationship with me.

"maybe at this time I won't talk about anything, even though I want to talk about it. However, I know enough of you that you are still in a state of heartache."

I did not think it turned out that this man was quite understanding and caring as well.eits not because I began to admire or like him. This is only limited to me praising his manners.

if he is indeed a man who is so considerate and understanding.why is there not a woman who is at his side.here I instead become curious about the romantic life of the man who is in front of me at this time. I want to feel like I'm talking more about him. Dad alone I don't think this is the right time.

the ice was harvested yes I might ask another time because I'm sure there's another time for the two of us to meet again. I've seen clearly that he's not a man who gives up easily.