Turns out I love
Part 4 - I'm disappointed

Me and my family are back home. After our return from Abah's house. I just locked myself in my room. Mama knocked on the door a few times and I ignored her.

I am still disappointed by the decision of my two unilateral parents. They didn't talk about all this with me first. Plus all my cousins agreed to the decision. It makes me feel so insignificant in their eyes.

I know it's time for them to get married, but I have a different opinion. I still want to enjoy my youth and I want to marry the prince of my dreams.

"Start out for dinner first, don't keep locking yourself up. Mentari you heard Mama'kan? Exit the Mentari." Mom kept knocking on my door and told me to go out and have dinner together.

I did not reply at all and I did not heed my mother's screams either. This heart was very upset. Not that I want to be an ungodly child, but can't I have my own choice for a life that I'm going to live alone?

Mom and dad really don't know what's on my mind, what's on my mind and what kind of future I'm imagining and planning.

I'm not the kid they chose. As is the case with my current lecture, it is all of their will and now my marriage must be according to their will?

Is a child not entitled to have his own way of life? should a child always follow the wishes of his parents? I understand they want me to get a good husband and a good priest for my future life. However, they did not understand what I was feeling right now.they also did not ask about my opinion after we got home or on the way back home earlier.

The night is getting late. I decided to sleep on an empty stomach.

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The morning adhan vegetables sounded in my ears. I opened my eyes slowly with a body that did not want to get out of bed.

I sat on the lip of the bed with my legs dangling. Reluctance came to me because I was still difficult to meet my parents and my brother.

"So let's get up. Mama knows you're awake, right? don't be late at dawn, just because you're angry with us." Mom's screams were heard right in front of my door.

I was breathing out. Mama always woke me up in that tone couldn't she wake me up more subtly?

I sometimes get upset when I have to wake up with a tone that does not deign in my ears, but how else has been the intonation of my mother's way of talking like that.

I put my foot on the floor of the room. I opened the door slowly. I peeked out and it turned out that my parents weren't around. I'm out of the room, I'm headed to the bathroom.

"outside."

Ali surprised me from behind. Suddenly I stopped while closing my eyes and stroking my chest.

Ali is very upsetting. He was jokingly out of place. Often he surprises me, laughs at me and belittles me when my mood is up and down.

"Can it be, don't use ngagetin so? Didn't think it was admired like that made people hang what? If I hang on and I pass out all of a sudden how do I try?" I snorted in annoyance to my brother.

Ali is just smiling. He seemed to have no regrets about his actions.

I was tired if I had to keep fighting with him, just because of his ingrained ignorance.

I went away from her, then went into the bathroom. Arriving in the bathroom. I hit the sink table with my brother who always behaved as well as he could.

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Today I happen to have a schedule to go teach less, so I can continue to avoid talking to both of my parents. I am an independent child. Although both my parents can finance me, but I still try to find extra money.

I went out of my room and looked for my mother. Papa and Ali seemed to have left.

"Well, I'll walk first." Pamit Ku while grabbing the hand of the woman who has given birth and take care of me until now.

"You want to teach Less?"

Mama asked while putting the dough into plastic to develop.

"Dad, I might be a little home in the afternoon. Want to find a book first at the bookstore near campus."

"Don't wander anywhere else. Remember you will soon be a bride. Abah said one more month of your wedding."

Hear my mother's words just now. This makes my heart more disappointed. They had absolutely no discussion with me and determined everything at will.

Do I have no right to speak? Isn't this my wedding? Am I not going to have this wedding? Why didn't they hear my opinion first and the choices I had before deciding on my marriage.

"Hmm."

I can only say that. I don't feel like I'm continuing the conversation.

"Yes, be careful. Don't be late afternoon either. Go your father home."

I nodded while wearing my shoes and left the house.

I walked down the alley to get near the highway. I use public transport. I'm everywhere always accompanied by public transport.

When I got to the big house where I taught the sister's less. Her sister was in elementary school. His sister was in kindergarten school.

I teach them three times a week. I'm not in the education department. It's just that they believe their son was taught by me. They used to be my little cousin's schoolmates. I was recommended by my aunt to teach their less.

"Eh the candidate for the manten is Dateng."

Aunt Evi opened the door for me and I was surprised she told me the would-be manten.

It's confirmed. If my aunt told me. Because their house is one alley and often meet.

I just smiled thinly. I started to get nervous because everywhere my news about getting married had spread all over.

I entered the house and my students immediately greeted me.

I taught them for an hour every time I met. I always taught them to pray whenever they would do anything.

"Farel, do you have PR or not?"

That's the first thing I asked Aunt Evi's first child.

"There is no brother."

If there is no home work. Then I'll move on to the core of the lesson.