Turns out I love
Part 18 - What answers will I give you

In my evening prayer I prayed to God to ask that I get an answer about my soul mate.

If he did connect me to be with Kenzie then I would accept this matchmaking. But if Kenzi is not the best for me then I will reject this match.

After performing the evening prayer and praying. I fell asleep in my bed, which accompanied me every night.

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This morning I did not go to college because there were no courses on Thursday.

Thursday is usually a sweet day for me. But this time Thursday is not as sweet as the usual days.

Today I am still in a matchmaking mess. I'm still thinking about what answer I'm going to give the Kenzies.

When I looked for my phone, I heard the phone ring and I saw Tami calling me.

"Hello Tami."

"Hello, Tar."

Me and Tami greeted each other. Tami called me this morning.

"What's Tam?"

"How was yesterday?"

Turns out Tami called me out of curiosity about what happened yesterday.

I was very reluctant to tell him about my business yesterday.

"Tales dong Dance with me. I'll hear what you're talking about."

My friend this one is very, very cool. This is the reason why I didn't want to tell Tami about this matchmaking. Tami would want to know everything.

I finally told Tami about everything I was dealing with.

"Tar Why not make this matchmaking to make the Doni feel frustrated. All this time he was still chasing. Show me that you have no taste and move on from him."

It's also true what we said just now. Tami's persuasion turned out to be reminiscing about me. Then I thought. Yes, yes too. I was very ambitious to make Doni heartbroken and make him regret.

But honestly, a marriage is not for revenge. I can't marry Kenji just for revenge on Doni.

"Tar you're still there, aren't you Tar?"

Tamiang hadn't heard my voice since I started calling.

"It's still quiet here."

"So how do you agree with that idea?"

"Can't dong Tam. What do you think marriage is for play? Marriage is once for a lifetime."

I also rejected the idea of my best friend. I don't agree a hundred percent with the idea just that I think it might have a point too.

"Tari later if you marry her. I'll be Bridesmaids."

What the heck this is the Tami people again confused even he talked about bridesmaid.

"Udah ah want to rest first still sleepy know not."

I then hung up the phone from Tami. I still don't want to talk about this marriage anymore. I just wish there was nothing to talk about this marriage and matchmaking.

At first I wanted to put my body back on my bed. But if I stay in the room. Then my mind will return to what answer I will give.

It reminds me of a song lyric.

That's the song lyrics I know. If he comes back, what answer will I give you? While my feelings are still uncertain.

It feels like yesterday's wounds haven't healed yet. If this marriage brings me more hurt. How can I bandage the wounds that are in my heart someday.

I decided to get out of the room. As I walked I found Mama sitting in the living room.

Maybe my mom is thinking about what will be my decision.

As I approached my mother. Mama just kept watching me.

"Today mama's not selling?"my many.

"Today, Mama decided to take a holiday. A day off is important for mama who works as a trader at home."

I'm disturbing to understand what mama means.

I sat next to my mom. Not long after that, my mother rubbed my hair.

The hair is still messy because I haven't had a shower. After the morning prayers and getting a call from Tami made me discourage the intention to take a shower early.

The weather has been raining continuously since night. It makes the air cooler. I was reluctant to set foot in the bathroom.

"The breakfast hasn't been made yet, huh?"

Kak Ali came to the living room still wearing a sarong. I know the custom of the times after dawn prayers. He will definitely teach until the time shows at 06.00 am.

"You buy the porridge first Li. Or wait for the vegetable sniffer to pass by. Mama's making breakfast today."

Just this time I heard that mom was lazy to make breakfast for all of us.

I think Mama has a lot of thoughts. Thoughts about Kenzie's handkerchief for me.

"Well, can they give me more time?"

I asked Mama. Mama's still combing my hair and then tucking.

"Mama knows Mentari. It's just that Mama's confused as to what we have to say to the Kenzi family? The Kenzies are waiting for you. And his grandfather Kenzie is also now ill. We don't know how long she's gonna be."

The frustration is seen from the look on my mom's face. I didn't actually hold on to seeing Mama think things through.

"Was Mom and Dad married for a soul mate, right?"

True dear mama and papa betrothed by sister mama. It turns out that our families agree with each other then that marriage happens."

Mama also told me about the beginning of her meeting with papa. Listen carefully to how they met and finally decide to get married.

"At first Mama and Papa didn't love each other?"

"It's a pity that our mama and papa were originally with each other because we were used to living together and complementing each other. Over time that love grew in both of us. And that's what makes Mama sure that you and Kenzie can build it up and grow that love."

I also went back to thinking. If Mama could grow her love for papa. Can't I start with Kenzie.

Now I can already make up my mind after talking to my mother from heart to heart.

I'll give the answer tomorrow to Kenzie and his family.

Maybe this is what is called if there is a problem we talk about with others. Finding a solution is the right way to solve the problem.

I've been listening to my mom's story as if my mind was starting to open up.

Beginners realize one thing. True love is love for God. While love for humans there is a form of taste to complement life.