Two Different Love Flavors
Are you disturbed?

Shania walks down the street as soon as she arrives home, deliberately walking slowly enjoying the afternoon air amid the silence of her spacious yard

He whispered in his heart, repeatedly convinced himself that he could survive longer in their marriage relationship that was clearly unhealthy, it seemed there was no hope for him to take Agam's heart

A single tear escaped the corner of his eye, he paid it to wet his plain cheek without make up

"what should I do, God?" his stone momentarily stopped his steps looking straight ahead, seeing how majestic the palace he occupied was

His life looks perfect from the outside, but if you look deeper now his life is no better than a golden cage.

Shania's daydream was diverted when her phone rang, at first glance she saw the name on the screen "mama". As her hands rubbed her cheeks wet with tears, she did not want to worry about Shania breathing before receiving a call from her

"hallo ma.." replied Shania trying to sound happy.

"hallo boy, how are you, baby?" mama's greeting from across the yanv sounded worried about her

"Shania is good ma, mama how? healthy right?"

"alhamdulillah, my mother is also healthy son, it's just that my mother arrived to miss you, your mind continued from last night"

Shania smiled

"Shania is also kangen ma,"

"how's Agam doing?" ask Mama

"you're okay, aren't you?" mama felt the bitterness that Shania felt

Shania was silent for a moment, she folded her lips as if holding back a cry so as not to be aware of mama

Shania fell silent again after her conversation with her mother, she took a deep breath and threw it away slowly while smiling to make sure that she was strong through all this

He rushed to continue his activities, this afternoon he wanted to tidy up the garden behind his house because some of his flower orders had arrived since morning

"having yourself is an effective thing for me now, let's try to make Shania stronger" Shania murmured softly

" Bi Marni please bring here the flowers I ordered earlier" Shania's pinta who was ready with her gloves and a small shovel in her hand

"well mbak" bi Marni was also enthusiastic to see the joy of Shania

"want me to help you?" tanya Bi Marni after finishing carrying dozens of blocks of orders from Shania

"need bi, my own biyar" replied Shania smilingly looking at bi Marnia

Bi Marni who understands what Shania wants, she just replies with a smile and leaves Shania with the garden equipment she had prepared first

Time goes faster when Shania is busy with beautiful flowers that refresh her mind, she can smile again when spraying the plant

It did not feel dark, Shania rushed to take a bath and prepared to perform the maghrib prayer that had been reverberating

Shania persisted for a long time even though the demands of the prayer pillars had been completed, she prostrated longer than usual, quiet so felt

A drop of tears fell down her face, though silent but clearly implied that her heart was screaming, Shania still remained silent on the prayer rug she offered, he was just complaining to Tuhanya like a child who wanted to cry on the lap of the mother when she was injured

Five minutes passed, now Shania raised her hands, her eyes fixed on the sky of her room, tears still ceaselessly wet her cheeks

"o Allah, give the servant the strength to endure, give the servant the ability to throw away anger" His breath snorted for a moment

"if this marriage is the destiny You have set for the servant, please strengthen the heart of the servant to live it"

Shania ended the prayer by closing both eyes, wiping away the tears and returning to kiss her place of prostration. He was still reluctant to take off his face because this was the most calming moment for him

derttt. Shania's phone kept vibrating so that it made her immediately rush to grab it.

"Shan, next Monday you can start work, congratulations yes" a message from Renita that ends with a symbol of love

"thank you Ren, may it be a good thing for me" Shania replied with a hopeful smile

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Monday arrived, the first day Shania entered the world of work, she will socialize with new surroundings, new friends even a new atmosphere, she said, a lot of the expectations he had on this job regardless of the salary he would receive

"bi.." call Shania who's half-run from her room.

"iya mbak" said Bi Marni who was washing dishes in the kitchen

"well, ma'am, so today's the first day of work?"

"yes, pray that I can adapt as soon as possible"

"may be smooth, and most importantly should be happy living it"

"definitely bi, may it be a good thing for me"

"did you know that from today on, Shania is working?"

"mas Agam already knows and I can too

permission to work bi, aunt take it easy yes"

"alright" Bi Marni smiled

Shania rushed to the hospital where she worked, on her first day she was so busy studying the files on her desk, trying to understand the system at the hospital

The wall clock in her office had already shown at five in the afternoon but Shania was still busy with the files in front of her, as she seemed to be enjoying her new activities this time

"good afternoon ma'am" said Renita to the surprise of Shania who was unaware of her presence

"hai Ren, just be surprised" said Shania looking at him

"so serious I didn't realize I was coming in? by the way.."Renita's sentence paused because she pointed towards the dinging clock behind her.

"wouldn't it be what time Shan?you don't want to go home?"

"is it five o'clock in the afternoon?" Shania was surprised and rushed to find a cellphone that since morning was still in the bag she did not take out

"o Allah, I am calling you six times Ren"

"shit, must be angry" seduced Renita

"oh I have to go home soon" Shania quickly finished her work and left the study

"let me take Shan," Renita said, seeing Shania so agitated

"but....."

"i have a promise not far from your house so we are in the same direction" explained Renita who knew Shania would reject him on the grounds not to bother Renita because it was actually the direction of their house opposite

"all right, come on" Shania walked first to the besmen where Renita's car was parked

"Shan..." Renita opened the conversation in the middle of their journey

"actually what's the matter? why do you have to be so sweet when you know your husband called a few times?"

"hemp..." Shania answered

"is he the temperament type?" asked Renita to look

"you don't need to be as sweet as that until everything is in a hurry it can endanger you lo Shan" continued Renita worried

"not so Ren, it's just that today mas Agam just returned from Bali and I haven't had time to say that today I started working" shania replied lying because she did not want Renita to be suspicious of the condition of her household

"okay, but next time don't be so hasty as before, I'm sure your husband will understand"

"yes, I"m sorry"

Thirty minutes from the hospital until Shania's residence, saw Shania again being careless when she reached the yard, so she almost fell down because she rushed to open the door when the car had not fully stopped, makes Renita ask what happened to her best friend

"Shan!" renita was worried

"its okay" Shania smiled soothingly at Renita

"thanks for the overlap, tomorrow we have lunch together" concluded Shania rushed to leave Renita who looked worried staring away.

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