Two Different Love Flavors
Then let me go

Shania stood up and left Agam who was still fixated, unable to choose one between Jesica or Shania, he himself was frustrated with his own stupidity.

Long Agam was silent to think of thousands of steps and decisions regarding the marriage he had with two wives, honestly he was getting tired of this situation. Both Jesica and Shania have their own portions in Agam's heart.

"Mas, I want to go to mom's house" chirped Shania was ready with a big suitcase in her hand

"Why bring such a big suitcase?" ask Agam worried

"I just want to stay a few days,"

"Alright, you can be there until your feelings improve, and I'll pick you up again"

Shania just kept quiet without answering him, and along the way he was silent even though Agam had tried to open a conversation. Shania was seen blankly walking out the window while playing the wedding ring on her ring finger.

Shania's mind wanders somewhere, wandering aimlessly. All the words that Agam said were not so he listened, only occasionally he answered yes or just nodded without looking at him.

Shania's heart feels empty, like it has been lost, if not because of her current pregnancy, she must have chosen to sue for divorce, she said, but currently he can not do because Religion prohibits divorce while pregnant.

"Mom's assalamualaikum" Sapa Shania entered the house because the door was half open

"Wa'alaikum salam, mother's son came home," said the mother scatters the embrace of Shania

"Games are coming too?"

"Yes mom, how's mom doing?" sapa Agam kisses mom's hand

"Mother is well, glad to see you guys coming."

"Let's go in, baby, I've been cooking for lunch, you must be tired,"

"Yes ma'am," Agam pulled the suitcase Shania was about to take her to the room

"Shan, whose briefcase is that?" Mother asked suspiciously because since Shania's previous arrival who was alone, the mother had suspected that something was wrong with her daughter.

"Shania ma'am's suitcase" replied Agam

Mother looked at Agam and Shania alternately, as if waiting for an explanation of what she suspected.

"Shania will stay for a few days ma'am because I have a job outside the city" Agam said

"Owh. I'd love you to accompany my son" relief radiated from my mother's face.

"You take a break, I'll prepare lunch"

Shania and Agam are silent despite being in one room in Shania's room, awkwardness is so felt between the two that the ringing of Agam's cell phone not far from Shania rings loudly, it was clearly written there that Jesica's name made the call.

Staring at the name he accidentally read made Shania's heart tremble again, immediately he chose to leave Agam.

"Shan, where are you going?"

"You're looking for some fresh air, mas,"

"I'm with ya?"

"No need, take care of your first wife!"

Shania walked leisurely down the street to the complex park, when she arrived there she saw many toddlers and children who were playing most of them accompanied by her parents. This scene is sad for him, he rubbed his stomach is still flat, not visible if he is two months pregnant but in fact there is a baby candidate who will later be born. Shania imagines if the divorce she wants is going to happen, what about the fate of her son who will grow up without a full family?

"I have to how?" shania murmured in the heart

He looked back at the child who was laughing and joking with a friend his age, emanating clearly the happiness of this sinless angel.

"Shan," said someone while patting her shoulder from behind

"Sister Fahri," Shania was surprised

"So I was wondering if this was you, and it turned out to be true,"

"How can you be here?"

"It just so happens that there's an event near here and it just accidentally saw you"

"How are you Shan?"

"Yes, this is how you are, brother,"

"Why? healthy right?"

Shania smiled in agreement, and without realizing it, Shania's tears trickled down.

"Eh.. why?" Fahri sat next to Shania worried

"Why crying?" fahri

"Just..."

"Want to hug you Shan, but I know I can't anymore,"

"I'm sorry brother,"

Fahri smiled as he patted Shania's back

"What's wrong, Shan, if God's match must be his own love."

"Originally you're happy that's enough for me" Fahri continued

"How are you? and where's your husband?"fahri asked trying to melt the awkwardness between them.

"Mas Agam is at home, my sister is resting, I just want to walk the road" explained Shania did not want to show the difficulties she experienced.

Thirty minutes went by they talked, talked about work, the life they live now and occasionally remembered the time, From the conversation, Shania knew now Fahri had successfully completed his medical study and was getting closer to his ideals. In accordance with what they both dreamed of.

"It's nice to meet you Shan, but I have to go because I have an opening schedule this afternoon,"

"All right, brother, hope the operation is smooth,"

"See you later today,"

Shania stood up to send Fahri away by waving, Shania's sweet smile adorning her lips.

Shania smiled back bitterly at a glance considering her time with Fahri, they have feelings for each other even though they have not been expressed.

"Where from?" ask Agam when Shania arrives back at mom's house

"From the complex garden" replied Shania ketus

"Why not go yet, a lot of work, right?" Shania asked rudely

"I want to be here with you,"

"Mas!" cry of Shania

"Do I look so easy to you?why are you ignoring my wishes? are my feelings not important to you?"

"You're too selfish!"

"Shan, I'm just trying to make amends by staying by your side."

"But I don't want it!"

"Dear dear, overcome this quarrel," Agam grabbed onto Shania's two hands, grasping them intending to ease Shania's anger

"After everything you've done you're still asking me to hang on mas? don't you have any shame?"

"But I love you Shan,"

"Lantas now you don't want to part from me but also don't want to let go of Jesica?!"

"You're outrageous mas!" Shania's strangulation no longer if mother heard it, Shania had lost her patience with Agam's selfishness.

"Shan, lower your voice."

"Mas, if Jesica is your choice then please pay me to leave, I won't ask anything from you enough of my talent!"

"I'd better go home now, you can stay here for a while and if your feelings have improved I'll pick you up."

"Is this all you can do, hide it."

"Send my regards to Mom,"

"Never pick me up when you can't decide who's going to be in your heart, you have to remember I don't want honey!"

Agam for a moment staring at Shania, this woman now has a firmness that Agam had never seen before. Highlighting Shania's eyes slightly threatened Agam, her heart was piqued with every note that Shania spoke.

Agam driving his car slowly, his mind wanders thinking of all the possibilities of the decision he will take. Shania has firmly said she does not want to be honeyed, but what about the woman Jesica whom she loved long before she knew Shania.

Now that Shania is no longer close to him, Agam can see the difference between Shania and Jesica clearly. How Shania serves and performs her duties as a wife is inversely proportional to what Jesica does. From there Agam realized that Shania was the perfect woman as his wife.

It has been almost two weeks since the incident that night Agam did not visit Jesica's house, even he rarely communicated via mobile phone with him. Agam needs a lot of space to clear his own mind and heart, not to mention the insistence of his parents who demand an explanation for everything that happens in his household life both with Jesica and Shania.

"Honey, it's been almost two months you've been at mom's house"

"can I pick you up?"

Text message you sent to Shania. Almost every day Agam sent a message to Shania but always ignored, let alone read in reply was rare.

"It's been almost two months since you haven't been able to decide on me or Jesica?"

"Then pay me to go." Reply Shania