Two Different Love Flavors
Sorry I hope it's not too late

Every night in the hospital bed feels long, Shania prefers not to be accompanied by Agam even though she actually knows Agam still waiting for him outdoors.

Sometimes Shania looked at the door that was a barrier between the two of them, but her heart was still reluctant to look at Agam let alone talk. The VVIP room equipped with the best facilities in the hospital actually does not provide comfort for Shania, want it to feel like she immediately went home, but her heart was doubtful where now her goal came home.

Two days in the hospital, made him think a lot in solitude. Is there hope for the home? So what about the fate of the prospective baby if something bad happens to his marriage? There was even a word that flashed through his mind but he immediately regretted it. " Why should I get pregnant in this situation?"

Shania's tears broke again, thinking about the fate of the baby-to-be made her heart cut. Shania curled her arms around her legs, putting her face between them hoping that her cries would not be heard by Agam out there.

Agam was silent when I sayup I heard Shania's cry, he was so hurt to hear it. Agam was lying in the waiting chair, closing his eyes even though he was not fully asleep, he had always been awake since the last incident between him and Shania.

"Dok, how's my content?" shania asked during the doctor's visit in the morning

"It's fine, ma'am, but we expect you to take care of your body condition, especially your own mind."

Shania was silent as well as Agam who was beside her.

"Maternal self-restraint becomes an important factor for fetal development" explained the doctor at length

"Okay doc" said Shania

The doctor gave an explanation and direction to maintain the growth and development of the baby as well as some conditions that must be considered considering this is the first pregnancy for Shania.

Agam returns to Shania after escorting the Doctor out of the room.

"Shan, want to eat something?" ask yourself to be brave

"Ngga mas,"

"Shan, uh,"

"Mas, I'm going to bed,"

"Please give me a chance to talk, how long are we gonna be on them like this?"

"What else are you talking about? what do I see enough to make me realize how big my portion is in your heart?"

"I'm wrong, I'm sorry for what happened last time,"

"I'm sorry? what's for?"

"Isn't that what you want? the destruction of our household, isn't this how much easier for you?" shania's eyes glazed with glass, he could not deny the event had a wound that was still gaping in his heart

"Baby,...." Shania stammered her tears

"I don't think I can anymore" Shania continued, shedding tears

"I'm sorry, I'm wrong, I'm sorry." Agam's tears are now dripping on their own

"My heart is broken to see you like this, too,"

Shania smiled wryly, it felt that the sentence did not deserve to come out of Agam's mouth.

"Pertain me, mas,"

The sentence that had been haram for Shania finally came out of his mouth, not a burden he said it but his heart that could no longer survive.

"Shan, you're pregnant."

"Well, what if I'm pregnant?!" shania shouted a little

"How can I divorce you when my son is in your belly?!"

Shania smiled with a grin

"You don't want this kid either, do you?" said Shania, her fingertips squeezed the pillow she had been hugging.

Shania took a deep breath and spat out slowly.

"I'm giving Shan a chance, how could I divorce you while you're pregnant with my son?"

"This is not your son!" snapped Shania

"I've fought as hard as I can to stay by your side in the hope that there will be a time when you will give me a little space, but after what I witnessed last time," Isak Shania broke, her lips were faint, her heart sliced repeatedly as she had to remember the events of that night.

"Now...." Her breathing was heavy as her crying grew more excruciating

"What other hope do I have?"

Shania was getting stronger grasping the end of the pillow beside her

"I can endure all the pain, but what you did last time really hurt me"

"I know, I'm wrong, I beg you.." Shania looked at Agam full of anger, her eyes reddish like a blanket of all the anger over the injustice she had received so far.

"Can you take it to my room?"

"Not anywhere else? that's not how we care about my whereabouts?"

"While we never wanted me, I still deserve your respect because I am your wife too!"

Many are silent about not arguing all the words of Shania, because now he realizes all that he was the one who was guilty from the beginning. Shania is too good for her to hurt, as she is also a victim of this matchmaking.

Shania and Agam were silent, silent for a moment. Shania has to get her heart and emotions back together.

"I can only say sorry Shan, how much I say it doesn't feel enough to treat your wounds" Agam said

""But I can't divorce you, imagining that we're going to part scared me, for what reason," Agam tried to hold Shania's hand but was ignored

"I was a fool for what I did, I regretted everything."

Agam tears dripped down the blanket that covered half of Shania's body, for a moment Shania's heart trembled to see him but she did not want to drift and repeat the same mistake.

"Mas, I want to sleep, my head feels dizzy" said Shania

Shania held onto her head with both hands, the pain came again, more pain than usual. He grinned and whimpered, every once in a while he would hit his head slowly hoping to ease his pain. Agam was powerless to see Shania suffer so much and chose to end the conversation this time, Shania's health and the safety of her future baby is the first for Agam at this time.

"Well, let's talk next time, you calm down, Shania,"

With a heavy heart Agam paid Shania to sleep, although he still wanted to talk considering after a few days this time Shania allowed him to talk but according to the doctor's direction that Shania should not get a lot of pressure finally Agam can only look at the already closed Shania eye.

Agam was still looking at Shania who was now asleep, her tiny face felt so cool in view, a sense of comfort bursting to meet the feelings of Agam.

"What am I feeling now?why is it so sad to see him sleep like this?" muttered Agam slowly

"I'm too mean to you, Shan" he muttered again

"I'm sorry Shan, you deserve happiness"

The night wind blows through the body of Agam who is only wrapped in a thin black T-shirt that he wears since morning. Sitting on a hospital park bench accompanied by instant coffee and a cigarette between his fingers. Looking at the boundless distant sky, his mind wandered from the very beginning of the marriage with his two wives, Shania and Jesica.

The cigarette he had left behind was now the only friend he could hear and was next to without blaspheming him.

All the memories that came to his mind were the wounds he inflicted on Shania, now he could imagine what Shania had been feeling all along.

Shania's pregnancy was the happiest news for Agam, even when the Doctor said that the wife he had never loved was now containing his flesh and blood, Agam's heart was shaking violently, his heart raced fast with excitement. This pregnancy allowed Agam to see Shania from a different side. Compared to the reverse with Jesica who from the beginning did not want to be bothered with the prose pregnant, giving birth, breastfeeding what else to care for the baby.

At that time Agam ignored him because he was blinded by love for Jesica, but now the hope he will become a father seemed to arouse his passion for life.

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