Two Different Love Flavors
Me or him?

Shania's move is gontai, balance is lost with Agam's silence over the question, his silence increasingly scratches Shania's feelings. Wanting to hear Agam answer that he will be heavier on Shania even though he actually knows it is impossible.

So even with Agam who was still sitting half-kneeling in his place, he thought he was worried how to behave in this condition. Agam does not want to lose Shania but it is also impossible for him to leave Jesica.

"What do you think Gam? hurry up and go after Shania!" snapped papa who was upset to see Agam was just silent

For a moment Agam was silent, but finally he rose up to chase after Shania who was packing her clothes into a suitcase.

"Shan, let's talk about this, not like this,"

"What else do you want to talk about?" Shania stared at the clingy Agam

"I just want it all to be over soon, I'm tired of it."

Agam speechless

"It's almost night, where are you going? I beg Shan, think about our baby's condition,"

"Our baby is a mas?" Shania smiled bitterly, caving to herself

"Did you want it?" shania said

"I'm happy to hear you're pregnant, believe me I'm really looking forward to her birth"

"really? but all I remember is that you always regret it!"

"Shan, I'm sorry for all my stupidity, I'm sorry."

Shania sat at the end of the bed, her head started to get dizzy and her eyes started to blur, her fingers squeezing the blanket while closing her eyes to endure the pain.

"Shan, are you okay?" Agam panicked because he remembered the doctor's message to maintain Shania's mental condition

"Let's rest, I beg you, tonight, we'll talk about this tomorrow,"

"I beg Shania, think of the baby you bear" Agam led Shania to lie on the bed and pull the blanket.

"I'll get you some warm water,"

Shania looked at the back of Agam who was walking away from her, she stared at Agam softly until invisible to both eyes. Shania realized Agam also wanted a baby that she was carrying, she could also feel the happiness of Agam when she knew she was pregnant. The corner of his heart was willing to see the reaction and effort of Agam to defend it but if remembering about the existence of Jesica it tore back Shania's feelings.

Shania's respect for Agam as a wife faded due to the events of that night, the incident that managed to knock down all the defensive fortifications that he had built since the beginning of marriage, he said, it felt like all the shocks he could withstand but collapsed overnight. The religion he believed led Shania to respect Agam as her husband, but it was because of his passion with Jesica that he was corrupted.

Shania woke up in the middle of the night as her phone continued to vibrate, I said she opened her eyes to reach the phone located on the table, while beside her lay Agam who continued to hold Shania's hand even though she was asleep. At two in the morning, Shania slowly opened the phone looking at the mother's name on the screen.

"Why are you sending a message at this hour?" shania muttered a little worried

"Shan, how are you son, I miss you." That sentence was written on Shania's mobile screen

"Shania's good mom, healthy, why haven't you slept?"

"What's wrong, I just wake up and miss you, thank God you're healthy, son,"

"Tomorrow Shania's coming home, ma'am,"

"No dear, Agam must be busy, enough for you to hear you're healthy, go back to sleep,"

"Mother is also back to sleep, it's already night ma'am, take care of her health, Shania will be home soon,"

Long Shania was silent looking at the screen of her mobile phone that slowly began to darken, she was most fond of thinking about mother's reaiction if she heard everything that happened to her. Just imagining it has made Shania worried, your mother must be very hurt if she knows the truth, and again about her desire to divorce from Agam.

Instantly Shania looked at Agam who was sleeping beside her, a look of fatigue was evident from her face. Slowly as Shania's hand stroked the fine hair covering Agam's forehead, Shania's tears returned to shed lamenting what had happened to their household.

"I admired you for a while, but now only heartache remains here" Shania murmured softly.

"I once intended to serve you as my paradise, but now all I want is to stop looking at you"

Shania covered her mouth which started to make a sound because of her sobs, slowly she got down from the bed, opened the bedroom window so that the night air she let sweep her face. For a moment his feelings improved, he wiped a cry with both of his hands, letting his eyes look infinitely far away.

"Shania kemaba bi?" asked Agam who rushed down after waking up and realized Shania was no longer beside him, he thought if he imagined Shania leaving him when he fell asleep.

"There is a garden behind the mas," replied Bi Marni

Agam rushed to find Shania in the back garden according to what bi Marni said, Agam breathed a sigh of relief as he saw the figure of Shania he was looking for was sitting while feeding the fish.

"Awake? how you feeling?" Sapa Agam heart

Shania smiled

"What kind of tea do you want coffee?" ask Shania

Agam was astonished to hear Shania's question, but he was relieved because it signaled that Shania was better, this was his habit of always making coffee every morning for Agam.

"No need to mas, let me make it," said Shania immediately moved from her seat

"You wait here, okay?"

Agam nodded while smiling happily at her, "It seems like his feelings have improved" his inner self

"This is the coffee pot," Shania held out a cup of coffee

"Imacute" greeted Agam gladly, he slowly drank it

"Yes..."

Agam looked up at Shania who was about to speak but without looking back at him

"If Jesica is your choice, then I'm advertising" Shania continued

Shania seems calm when saying it, she is able to control her emotions and feelings, not because without burden when saying it but more to despair because she believes this is the end line.

"Shan," interrupted Agam

"Mas, there is no point in us arguing about this because in fact your heart is with Jesica," said Shania cutting off Agam's talk

"I realized that from the beginning my place was not on your side, Jesica had you first,,,"

"I'm sorry for all that, if I had known earlier about Jesica's whereabouts I would have chosen to reject our marriage" Shania said

"Now it's time for you to let me go, I've failed and I don't want to try again."

"Shan, I know everything I've done is over the line, but please listen to me first,"

"Mas, before you speak, know that I can't stand honey" said Shania

Dismayed at Shania's assertive statement, the wife who used to be gentle with her not talking much has now changed, Shania emphasizing every word she says.

"I've been wanting to separate from you, ma'am, what makes you heavy?" ask Shania lirih

"If it's Jesica that's your choice, please let me go."

"But you're pregnant!"

"We're going to get divorced after this kid is born, and until that day comes I want us to stay apart."

"Shan, I can't pay you to leave,"

"What makes you unable to? isn't this what you wanted from the beginning? I'm just giving you a chance to speed it up."

"I don't want to cry every night!"

"Can't you stay by my side Shan? I promise to be nice to you,"

Shania breathed a rough breath, her heart started to get upset with Agam's hard attitude.

"What makes you so heavy to take me off?!" shania shouted emotionally

"Because I started liking you! imagining us splitting up already ruins my feelings!and I can't!" Sahut Agam with a tone no less high.

Shania was stunned to look at Agam, she looked straight at Agam's unblinking eyes as she confessed her feelings.

Either be happy or sad Shania responded to this because in fact Jesica remained among them. Jesica still has more space Agam heart than him, had crossed the mind of Shania if it had to make Jesica lose Agam was unfair to Jesica.

The fact that the late Shania comes into Agam's life, makes him choose to give up and go to get sick between the three of them is soon ended but how now when the situation changes, the, when Agam begins to love Shania and fear her loss.

"Shan, I love you, whether this starts from when but when you want to separate from me it feels like my world is collapsing" Agam explained

"Well, what about Jesica?"

"I'm sorry about Jesica, but please give me a little more room."

Shania fell silent again, looking at Agam who kept looking at her, their hands clinging to each other, Shania's mind was messed up as well as her feelings.

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