Two Different Love Flavors
I feel tired

Shania returned to her routine as a wife, she woke up early to prepare breakfast, clothes, and all Agam needs as usual just her interaction with Agam which she deliberately reduced, he said, talk as necessary is no longer as it used to be. In the past Shania would do many things with pleasure just to seek the attention of Agam, trying to provide service and attention with all her heart but this time only limited to aborting her obligations as a wife.

Not because she did not want Agam's attention but because Shania felt that the year she had spent with all her efforts was not fruitful, Agam was still the same, far from her reach.

"Shan," call mom from across the phone

"How are you, son? I miss it once,"

"Shania's healthy mom, you're healthy too, right?"

It had been fifteen minutes that Shania and Mother had spoken to each other, they had talked about many things, enough to treat each other's longing. Whenever I asked Agam, Shania always answered everything was fine. He still could not tell everything because he did not want his mother to be hurt.

"Sorry ma'am, Shania can't tell you everything yet, let me try it in a moment ma'am," Shania murmured softly as she held back her tears

"Shan, where's my coffee?" tegur Agam spoils the Shanian daydreams

"Sorry, just a moment, mas,"

"Bi, please open the door." Agam ordered bi Marni because her bell rang

"Biyar I just bi," said Shania after putting a coffee request Agam at the dining table

Agam was busy looking at his tablet though it was his first holiday home during his marriage to Shania, as he usually went early in the morning either jogging, golf, golf, to Jesica's house or just go out of the house without a purpose.

"Mas, there are guests." said Shania flatly

"Who?! this morning?"

"Darling..." Jesica barged in and hugged Agam who was astonished to see his arrival

"Jes, why is this morning here?"

"I miss, you should be the same as me every Sunday morning" spoiled Jesica

"This is Jes's tea, please drink it" Shania calmly placed a cup of tea before them, holding back her anger even as she tried to smile at the sight of the two.

"Please talk to both of you, I'll go upstairs, man,"

"Okay Shania you understand and thank you for the tea." said Jesica

Shania once again smiled before finally leaving the two of them chatting at the dining table.

"Bi, can you get me some medicine?" the Pinta Shania

"Shania's sister's dizzy again?"

"Yes, since last night,"

"It's better to see a doctor, some days often dizzy right?"

"Why not, lack of sleep is possible,"

"Well, let's take a break, let me make some tea."

"Thank you bi,"

Shania lay down while kneeling softly, some days she is often dizzy and sometimes suddenly her eyes blurred without knowing why.

At the table Agam could not stop thinking about Shania's attitude just now, why can he be so relaxed when Jesica comes can even make tea with his own hands is not as usual who will always be angry when it comes to Jesica.

"Shan," call Agam

"Yes," Shania looked at the source of the voice

"Need anything?"shania asked when she saw Agam was silent after calling out to her

"Eee...? Nope."

"Jesica's home? why don't you bring it? kasian, he's been a long way here to find you."

"He can take a taxi."

Shania nodded in understanding then returned to the novel she was reading, ignoring Agam who still felt awkward with Shania's attitude.

"You want to go?" asked Agam when he saw Shania's neat clothes

"I've been busy for a year at our wedding and do you want to know how it feels?" Shania got up and walked over to Agam who was standing looking at her, stepping closer and closer until the tip of her nose were almost touching.

"Me.le..lah.kan!" A single tear escaped her pretty eyes.

Shania immediately wiped the tears with her hand, not wanting this cry to break, she chose to leave immediately in the presence of Agam.

"I'm leaving!"

"One more mas, tonight I'm going home to mom."

"Biyar I'll take you."

"I can do it myself!" suhut Shania fast

"I have to be able to do it myself, right? because I never had a place to depend." Shania emphasized every word she said.

Agam stunned to hear it, he could not act with all the sentences of Shania, inexplicably the word sounded as a threat in Agam's ears. Fear instantly burst into the space of his heart. Agam can only see Shania leaving from behind a window without daring to stop her even though she does not want to give him permission to leave today.

Agam pinched his head that was not dizzy, then rubbed his face with both hands, this sense of uneasiness was so disturbing.

Today Agam had no intention of leaving the house, repeatedly seeing the clock on the wall and the cell phone alternately. He still thinks Shania wouldn't be able to go to her mother's house without her. Because all this time Shania never went out of the house without permission from Agam.

"It's almost nine o'clock in the evening but haven't come home yet? did he really go to mom's? or still with her friends?" murmured Agam

"That's it, what do I care!" slap Agam on his own mind

Shania was sitting busy watching tv at her parents' house, she really felt peaceful when she was close to her mother.

"Shan, it's late why haven't you been home yet?"

"Shania wants to be here, ma'am, too comfortable to be reluctant to go home,"

"Well, Agam must be waiting for you to come home."

"Where possible," murmured Shania shrieked

"Definitely can't get Agam permission to stay here, right?"

"Shania told me she wanted to go to mom's house,"

"Yes, but didn't say you wanted to stay? and it's not good for a married woman to leave without her husband."

Shania grunted in annoyance

"Yes ma'am, Shania's home."

"Next time come and stay with your husband, mother will cook your favorite," mother seduced when she saw her daughter sulking

Shania drove the car reluctantly, he deliberately walked slowly intending to buy time so that when he reached the house Agam was asleep so he did not need to argue with him.

The distance, which is usually less than thirty minutes now, Shania takes almost an hour, reluctantly entering the house.

All lights have been turned off except for the yard and terrace lights, even the middle room lights are usually left on this time off.

"Oh," Shania moaned as she almost fell over from hitting something

"What's this?"

Shania turned on the lights, how shocked she was when she saw the women's shoes, shirt and some clothes strewn across the living room. His heart instantly hardened and his glassy eyes imagined what he would see.

Step by step Shania walked in the clothes scattered, on the floor, table, and stairs until her steps stopped in front of her own room on the second floor.

Shania's body trembled violently imagining what she would see when she opened the door handle.

"There's no way you're gonna do that in our room, right?" inner Shania was hopeful

Shania stuck out her hand holding the door handle, her tears dripping down her cheeks.

Repeatedly let go of his grasp because he felt unable to see reality, but the other side of his heart continued to convince him to face the reality, do not be a coward!

Shania could not imagine what would happen if it was true what she would see in the room was the same as she feared, it felt like the reason for her to survive had run out.

...............happy.....reading...........