Why should he?
Chapter 33 Yudi follows into town
“Who do you want to heal?” asked Nisa who suddenly appeared and stood in front of the door of her room.
“Nisa?” call Susan, her tears are no longer contained. The little girl he loved so much with all his heart, now had to experience something like this.
“Mother, same grandpa when come? how do I not know??” Nisa walked over to her mother who wiped the tears at the corner of her eyes. Nisa hugged him tightly. After that he also greeted his grandfather with reverence.
“We are new until Nis, and you happen to be sleeping, so we let you rest first.” replied Cardi.
“You guys were talking about me??” asked Nisa again, actually she also knew if her family was discussing her.
“Emm. that,” Gibran rather stuttered and confused answer the question of his cousin sister, if he honestly Gibran feared it would hurt and offend Nisa.
“Take me to a psychiatrist?” shoot Nisa straight to the point.
“Ka-you know?” Reply Gibran again.
Nisa took her deep breaths, and threw her away slowly, she set her heart rhythm which suddenly came back beating quickly. Every time he would discuss this matter, he would definitely feel another response from within his heart there.
“I know mas! this is also not far from last night, right?”
“Iya His! I'm sorry we're not pretentious or more entitled than yourself, but we're thinking about your future! until when will you be like this, experiencing trauma that does not know where the end is, honestly mas shocked loh! I thought you forgot the same thing 2 years ago!” bright Gibran, Nisa moved from her seat and now she stands right by the window, enjoying the breeze that blows, and it makes her calm.
“Is there any human being who quickly forgets the thing that so greatly makes his suffer?” reply Nisa.
Everyone was silent, confused as to what to answer.
“Do you still love Yudi?” asked Fauzi Yang since then silent and only listened to the elders chatter. But now he was the one who immediately asked the problems suffered by his sister.
“However, he's a man I've loved so much! despite all the pain he gave!” nisa replied, now her tears also come.
“Then now?”
“Entahlah.. I'm confused to describe how I feel right now, whether I still love him, or his pain that still feels, I don't know you!
I tried many times, to forget all that happened, and I tried to open my heart again for a new one, but instead of healing, it was the pain that tormented me even more!
The fear of the same event repeated, that's the main thing.. I am afraid in every way! I was afraid that my partner would betray me just like Yudi did!”
“Not all men are the same Nis! Ilyas, for example.he loves you so much!”
“But I'm afraid to let him down! because of the shadow of my past, it still exists until now!”
“Then release!” sahut Gibran's. Nisa turned her head towards her cousin sister with her eyes.
“I tried it! but I can't!”
“You try again! until you can,” Nisa flinching.
“Do not want to be enslaved with fear because your past is Nisa! see mas, mas also have felt what you rasain, but I try to rise, do not want to constantly cry over things that we should not cry! come on. Our lives are long! still so much his process.”
“But.”
“No buts.from now on you must try many times so that your heart can forget,”
“Follow to a psychiatrist, as advice from the Ilyas family!”
“The family and Mr Ilyas himself now know how bitter my past is, do they still want me mas?”
“From the response I received last night, Ilyas did not change his mind at all, even this morning he also called mas, to ask how you are doing and your condition!”
“Have the boy come here Gib. Grandpa would like to see you!” reply Wardi.
“Iya cake, later Gibran contact.. What is your decision now, Nis? do not think that Ilyas must be your soul mate, with whom you marry later, instill in your heart, if not all men are the same. Believe me one day you will find the right man!”
“Yes, I'm going to a psychiatrist,”
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“Cafe nya Ilyas where ya?” murmuring alone, a well-built man with long hair tied up and bewok and mustache around his face several times checking his cellphone.
The dashing and handsome face that used to be often in the puja of many women is now not taken care of, only the face of the rogue like a thug who appears now.
Yes.he is Yudi, and now the man is in the city to find out where Nisa is, her life is completely ruined since Nisa left her life.
“Finally can too!” he said it again alone. Yudi and Ilyas were good friends when they were both in high school. Because at that time Yudi preferred a school in the city rather than on the outskirts of his village.
Long enough Yudi paced back and forth to find out where the address of the Cafe belonged to his best friend, after asking with some of his friends in the city, Yudi finally found his address.
As soon as he arrived at the Ilyas cafe, he asked the employee, Mila, who happened to be dropping off a visitor order.
“Sorry mbak! Ilyas is there. I ask you please tell Ilyas, if I am his old friend Yudi,”
“Ohh, wait a minute! I asked first!” Mila immediately walked towards Ilyas's room.
“Please come with me mas,” Mila brought Yudi in her room.
“Hei Yas, how are you?” Say hello to Yudi as soon as he entered the room Ilyas.
“Good News Thank You Yud.. How about yourself?” reply Ilyas, he immediately let Yudi sit down, before long Mila entered again with two cold cappuccinos and Snack.
“Yes this way, my life ancur Yas!”
“What does that mean?? Do you have a problem?”
“That's my problem, so I'm going to the city, yes one of them wants to nyelesein my problem it,”
“Emang Lo what problem? not that Lo family his economy is strong huh?” yas asked curiously, because as far as he knew, Yudi was among the most respected people in his village. His parents' efforts were also numerous, so it was impossible that he had money difficulties at this time.
“Not about, not about economy.”
“Continue?
“So about my future!”